03:48pm 23/04/2004
  this has been dead for a while, but i never mentioned it.
i have a LJ, same name, different place.
check it out
 
     

(Sing me to Sleep...)

 
hey pretty lady with teh high heels on   
06:36pm 25/01/2004
 
mood: good
well, after pulling at my hair for a few days, i think i've discovered how to deal. haha. really though, it's beginning to grow on me (in a non literal sense). peter's comments are always helpful too "why are you so emo?!". i've never actually realized how many head bands i don’t have, considering now i sorta have to wear them. oh well, it's hair. i'll live (that is after being a total baby, and whining about it to everyone -sorry).

thursday i had my 1st midterms. history and english. if i had studied for history it would have been ridiculously easy, i sorta wish i did now. i got an 89. english...yeahhhh about that... i think i did very poorly. i really have to get that studying thing down sometime soon. i totally blanked out on every character's name in every book we've read all year- not good. :-? <--- thats the face i was making during the whole test. after school i went to tony's and he gave me a mini guitar lesson. it was like a half hour-45minutes of guitar, and then another hour or so of gossip. oh how i enjoy our conversations.

friday, more midterms. good ol' health and italian. i actually didn’t think italian was that hard, but that's always a bad sign. whenever i don’t think it's hard, it means i'm missing the actually hard part about it, thus making most of my answers wrong. BFS w/ nads after school. got our cool new soccer sweatshirts. then went to richards. peter, paut, james, kristen & i. not too many people, but a good time as always. somehow i knew how to play all of these chords on richie's guitar, and i just sat there for a few minutes and made up stuff w/o even realizing it. i never do that.

last night i went to ana's surprise 16th. she was really surprised. i had a mini epiphany (sp?) while watching the colors from the disco ball on the ceiling. everyone kept asking me if i got bangs. no, i didn’t get bangs. what you are seeing is actually a figment of your imagination. or better yet, my hair strategically fell out in the form of bangs. why do people ask that? of course i got bangs, you can see them.

today i did most of nothing. studied a little for chem (thanks james), and played some guitar. i have to study more & for geometry a little.

my dad just gave me his palm pilot. cool.

florida in 4 days! WHAT NOW?!

Juliana_
 
     

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cause its a game and we want to win!!   
09:25pm 20/01/2004
  hey, so i suck at updating lately, sorry. alex and or bobby i know its you that leaves me angry comments about not updating. you two are so sly. anyway...

five day weekends are the new fad! i for one am jumping on the bandwagon. thursday night adam came over and he gave me a bunch of books for my history project that are much appreciated. he installed photo shop onto my computer too. it was a fiasco but we finally got it on. then he tried to teach me how to use it but i was like "eh" so i just watched him be a genius w/ it. although at the time i didnt realize that he was being a genius. it was only until the next day when i tried to play with it that i realized how i have no clue what im doing.

saturday i went to james' house and we hung out, watched a movie. i had a good time although that movie was different. total recall or something?

sunday football at brians casa. everyone was there plus two kids from sjp, scotty and li? scott was hilarious, li says he has a grandma that goes clubbing. go figure? i must say, though, that cory is beyond funny when he has a little help. oh man. sunday night me, kris, j, mo, ky, richie, and brian went to peters. i will never forget this night. hahahahahaha "because it's a game and we want to win!!"

i went to my new doctor yesterday. i like her. shes mr. stantons sister which is kinda weird. the appt. took like 2 hours cause she wanted to check something neurological cause i get migraines. it was funny, i swear she gave me a sobriety test.

today i did homework. it was a blast. three page italian translations rock my socks. i restarted second helpings too. i love the girl in that book. she is my idol even though i dont think thats necessarily a good thing.

hey you wanna here something so not cool! yeah, im not gunna be able to see james for 3 weeks. that is beyond not cool. its the not coolest not cool there is. in 3 weeks someone could break up and get back together. no, this is not cool. do we hear any solutions?

midterms this week. i hate midterms they're S-T-U-P-I-D. i cant study for them. i dont know how to.

((abrupt end to entry))
 
     

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09:45pm 12/01/2004
 
mood: sick
who wants to give juliana a hug?
she doesnt feel well.
 
     

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life's a riddle. here's a clue   
07:42pm 08/01/2004
 
music: juliana theory
PERMIT! PERMIT! wooot!
I went with my mom to get my permit yesterday. the guy wasnt gunna let me get it cause he told me that i needed my social surcurity card, not noticing the fact that the paper said social security card or valid passport (which i had). anyway, the guy sitting next to me failed for his 3rd time or something like that. poor guy. tony was there too. funny how whenever i have to take a test, hes there. nichole from my history class was there too.

sarah gave me the link to download semagic. it's amazing. oh how much easier. thank you. i like how when i minimize it, it hids in the task bar so when my parents come in and look over my sholder i can be like "what writing?? i wasnt writing anything."

i went to sleep at a reasonable hour last night (10) for a change, and then forgot to turn my alarm on, so i got to sleep till 8:45. i know you're jealous : )

today in history we had a conversation about all of the stupidly extravagent things we would do if we had the money of bill gates. it was a quality discussion.

now let's talk about italian... signora healy or follionare, whatever you wanna call her, has this annoying habbit of screaming "JULIANA STOP YOUR TALKING! ((whack on the desk))" or "JULIANA! ((heavy, exasperated sigh))" or "JULIANA GIRA TE E CUDE LA TUA BOCCA!" aka she blames me every time she hears a voice in the class regardless of if it's me or not. so today, the whole class was talking EXCEPT me. i was totally in my own world. i hear a sharp "JULIANA!!" and i jerked my head up to see what was going on, and she has this bewildered look on her face and says "...is being very quiet." the whole class breaks into hysterics because she just proved that she yells at me even when she doesnt know who it is. HA! she appologized by saying "sorry, im conditioned." excuse my language, but fuck you sweetheart. it was funny today, but i dont appreciate it.

in english, matt announced to the class about how brian just hit on him, so i asked matt if he was gene or finny and he said finny. then mrs. lord walked by and said "or dill". hahahaha gotta love mrs. lord

power point at kristen's after school today. her house is so cold i dont know how she can handle it. i think i left my phone there.

tomorrow's friday. yes.

~juliana

ps: im gettin an A in chem!
 
     

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shes back   
07:22pm 06/01/2004
  ((yawns and stretches)) it’s been a while, hasnt it. my apologies.

let’s start out w/ saying that i got a NEW DELL FOR CHRISTMAS. it’s wicked hot. lemme tell ya. it’s super powerful, and now i can do all of my photo editing and such on it. if only i new how to use everything. with time i suppose. for now my goal is to get it online, because really now, what’s the use of a computer w/o the internet? my uncle dean is also getting me a kitten ((GLEAMS)). how awesome is that. he’s one of those uncles that really isnt an uncle, just a close friend of the family, but we call him uncle anyway. i think we’re going to pick it out soon.

oh yes, and i turned 16 since my last update! that does really mean anything cause i havent bothered to go get my permit yet. maybe after school tomorrow i will. it’s sorta cool in my family though cause im the first child/grandchild/nieceornephew to turn 16. my aunts are taking me out for a day and to barmakens (totally killing the spelling of that) to get a sweet sixteen piece of jewelry. i think thats really cool cause i never get to spend time with my aunts without the little ones. my other aunt in philly gave me this silver tiffany’s pen that im getting my name ingraved on. i was hardcore journalizing when i was in philly over vaca cause i was so bored and she noticed so she got that for me. very different & thoughtful. i like it.

i really cant remember what i did over vacation too much. james took me out for dinner and to see a chirstmas carol. how sweet. that was fun. i went to philly for a day, but we drove up and back so it was more like 3. i had people over for new years/my bday. good times. jenna, mo, and kris slept over (kyle and her sicknesses prevented her). once i get my upstairs computer online be prepared for the result of too much caffeine + already hyperness + a digital camera. hahahahaha. i went to dave’s bday part w/ james too. i was super uncomfortable at first. ive seriously never been somewhere where i didnt know so many people that all knew each other. james, noof, natalie, sully (before he got to cool and left) and i all sorta hung out. a lot of guitars, a lot of music. it was fun.

i guess that’s my summary of the vacation entry. kinda sucky but i had to start writing again or else i never would have.

i got an anonymous recommendation letter from one of my teachers today as someone who has the “leadership skills, personal integrity, and compassion needed to become a peer mediator”. im gunna go to the meeting tomorrow to see what its all about. if i get chosen it looks wonderful on a college app. and you get to miss a lot of class. i showed tony the letter today and he was like “what?!? compassion, you’re not compassionate, and you dont really have that leadership quality either.” thank-you-tony. you’re not getting your stupid sticker back now.

anyway, i must do homework.

as always, juliana

EDIT: pictures from new years eve
http://community.webshots.com/user/jewels2325
 
     

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okay kids, it's time to laugh and giggle and show how mature we all are...   
10:32pm 19/12/2003
 
mood: crazy
music: yellowcard! thanks kris!
today was the friday before vacation so, needless to say, school was a joke. in degeorge's class i got 13 extra credit points because i figured out this brain teaser w/ a suit of cards. i rocked it, so i helped kristen figure it out (shhhh!) because she was really freaking out that she couldn’t get it. anyway, that's the not point of this entry. the point of this entry is to share with you all how completely sick my english class is. mrs. lord has us do this thing where everyone has a piece of paper and there was a series of 10 questions that made up a story. everyone would write one sentence and then pass their paper to the person sitting to their left. so on an so forth until all 10 questions were answered. are you seeing the potential for complete and utter hilarity? well if you’re not, here is the final outcome of two of the class stories:

this one i started. then it went from peter lento, mat milliken, brian pham, tim ward, ashley phillips, steve-o, kristen deminico, kizzle, & meg mcclorey

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translation if u cant read the picture :
It’s 11:27 in england on a busy street. Matt Milliken was skipping down the sidewalk with a lollipop in hand, then a man in a trench coat named Peter Lento walked up to him and offered the young lad some “candy” and “a good time”. Matt got excited and chased pete. pete called back “follow me to Never Never Land” and matthew followed excitedly. matt said “wait, im not supposed to go with strangers, and you’re pretty strange”. Then peter
punched matt in the face and started running away. matt yelled “come back, i want candy and a good time!”. peter replied “okay”. Holding hands the two boys frolicked into a dark alley ((thank you kyle for starting the erotic-ness)). The next morning the two were seen emerging from the alley all smiles and giddy. The candy was gone and their clothes were disheveled. matt said “wow, i should take candy from strangers, that was a good time.” ((and meg for finishing it))

now...brace yourselves...this was the work of almost all of the GIRLS in the class. it went tim ward, ashley phillips, steve-o, kristen d, kyle, megan m, liz sheerin, jenna larsson, kristen finlay, & molly giesler. hahaha oh man....



translation:
It is 2069 and they are sitting in a tea cup. A scientist who invented a shrinking machine is taking a break from his research. A dashingly handsome FBI agent named Tim Ward showed up to sit in the tea cup. Tim accidently knocked over the shrinking machine and broke it which angered the scientist. The scientist, absolutely furious, punches tim in the face. The scientist then realizes that he punches the tim ward and says “ill forgive you if u
have my babies.” Suddenly the clothes came flying off and the two engaged in porn style hott wet sex. “maybe we can salvage the shrinking machine after out party.” tim suggested. “I’m thinking this will take some time” said the scientist. The two men began to have a wild dance party and smashed every teacup in sight. Pretty son the two looked down at themselves and realized the shrinking machine works much too well :-0. oh no! its out of control! the two are now both one-inch-wonders!

i would like to say that i had absolutely nothing to do with these.

now that we have that clear, when we read them in class mrs. lord was cracking up!! i had my mom read them
and she was so shocked. hahahahahhaha i got great amusement out of her shock. especially when i told her that the “porn style hott wet sex” part was by liz sheerin whos mom is a 1st grade teacher at my brother’s school. she couldn’t decided whether to laugh or not, but after a while she was cracking up too. then she was like “i thought you were supposed to be the good kids” and i was like yeah mom, we are, that’s the scary part.

... let’s hear it for some quality work by a sophomore honors english class!
 
     

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i got the mic & you got the mosh pit   
05:20pm 15/12/2003
 
mood: chipper
music: TBS
oh what the day holds...

i was really hoping for a snow day because im not a big fan of that whole waking up early and going to a below zero school. sadly, there was no relief to be found. today was good though.

band always makes me happy because we play christmas songs. i like playing pretty christmas music, or at least thinking i can play pretty christmas music. i must say im not a big fan of the 5flat key signature, but what can you do? i would, by far, prefer waking up to christmas music (or any music for that matter) over learning about our nation’s history. i can do homework in band too : ) seems like a good deal to me.

in history i had a sub. one of the many kents of melrose. michelle is in my class but she was sick today, so someone text her to ask if he was her cousin. he was. ya, cool story, huh. should i tell it again?

p.scial taught us all about stoichiometry in class today. is anyone else clueless about that balancing the equation stuff? oh, well...i got an 80% on my test (!!!! the one i was having a mental break down over !!!!) and it can be moved up to an 85 after test corrections. sweet. thats the 2nd to best grade ive ever gotten in chem on a test. mine and kris’ PowerPoint presentation is gunna be sick too...ya know because i made her work on it w/ me hardcore yesterday because i thought it was due FRIDAY! nope.nope. it’s due jan 8. kristen thought it very comical that i didnt know that and was freaking out over it. then today p.scial was like "wellll i dont know if they’re gunna be due then cause i dont wanna rush you" - - the only time i do my work is when it isnt due. cute.

capitolo due esame oggi in italiano. i got to go to english 10 minutes late cause peter, mike, and i didnt finish and we were all in the same class. sig.follionere was talking to mike and i while peter was still finishing up, and i was thinking how she’s a really nice person out of teaching, but teaching really isnt her thing. i know im rude when she teaches, but it’s because i cant stand her as a teacher. hmmmm.

tony told me two priceless stories today that i am not at liberty to divulge. im very sorry, you can ask him. what i can tell you, though, is that when he told boby and i, we were both on the floor laughing... no im not kidding or exaggerating... on the floor laughing. i will never be able to look at a certain person the same way again. and tony, that poor girlfriend of yours...

i ended the day w/ a healthy dose of degeorge. “ what do you mean class, you’re gunna, you’re gunna look out the window instead of starting your class work assignment??” ((shakes his head in disbelief))

i came home and did some pilates because i do absolutely nothing now. i put the tape on, turned the volume all the way down, and then blasted the TBS. now thats the way to exercise. its really frustrating how they’re all so flexible and im so not. well you know what. i can get myself into a pretty mean ball. i know you wish you could too. dont lie.

then i got into a fight w/ my brother about who’s VCR it is...always the most stupid things, always. one of these days im going to do a whole entry devoted to my feelings towards this person in my life called my brother.

im going to do my homework and get it done. im turning over a new leaf...

juliana

...4 days
 
     

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just hold.me close.to you   
12:23am 14/12/2003
 
mood: tired
music: kenny g - christmas album
today was grandma/juliana bonding day. my grandma came and picked me up at 10 to go christmas shopping. because it’s my 16th birthday time too, she wanted to get me something that i wanted and not just give me money. we trekked down to the burlington mall. my grandma is such a bad driver, it’s funny in a scary way. she’s very nervous (shes calls it alert) and always misses exits, and in parking lots she takes w i d e turns. we got there no problem though so it’s all okay. we walked around the mall for so long. i lost track of time. i got two shirts, pair of brown coteroys, and my brother’s present. my grandma got some stuff for my great aunt. we looked more then anything. we walked old lady style too (arm-in-arm) and she seemed like she was having such a good time. i was happy. we had lunch at the rain forest cafe. it was very good. time well spent. i should hang out w/ my grandma more often.

my parents’ plans for last week were re-scheduled for this week, so im home baby-sitting the young one. my mom and bro got the tree today. i put the lights on it, and he was supposed to decorate it, but he had a hissy fit when he found out my mom wasnt gunna help him. he was all pouty and “ it wasnt as fun as i thought it was going to be”. i tried to be a good sister and help, but he had a wicked attitude and it pissed me off. then he stormed off when i asked him to put the boxes away after he was done w/ it, as to prevent having as big of a mess to clean up at the end - and a very merry christmas to you too. - he’s cooled off and just finished the tree by himself. he put the ornament of the two of us in the front. now i feel like a huge jerk. maybe ill make little beds in front of the tree for us to sleep in tonight. he’d get a kick out of that.

moving right along

last night was really fun...

kristen, kyle and i ventured up to nr to james’ house. jeffy, dave and his gf were there also. they gave us a little unplugged concert. it was wicked cool. i laughed through the whole first song because of the shock of how loud dave can sing. its so scary if ur not ready, which i wasnt. james’ basement is cool. i wish i had a cool basement. when i walked though his kitchen there was a picture of us from the semi on this little thing on the wall and i was like, for lack of a better way of saying it, “woahhh” cause id never been there before but they have a picture of me on the wall. anyway, we watched old school, and then they serenaded us again. i totally lost track of time and my mom was waiting outside for 10 minutes before we came out. she was chatting w/ noof’s mom, and his mom asked me if he was coming out. i didnt know, so i offered to go in a get him, but i secretly just wanted to go in and say good bye to james again. we live too far away. my mom was peeved that it she was waiting for so long but she forgot that she was mad at me by the time we finished dropping kristen and kyle off.

ohh! my parents are home...good night

xo juliana
 
     

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be patient with me   
08:22pm 11/12/2003
 
mood: awake
well yet again i've been slacking off with my updates. what a slacker...jeeze...

oh, where to begin i do not know. the massive blizzard dumped a good 2 and half feet of snow in the rose. greatttttt. the best part was when my snow blower broke and i had to shovel 75% of the driveway by myself. it was cute. i have this nice bruise on my hand from the handle of the shovel. all was good, though, cause after i finished the driveway my mom drove me to richards. all the guys and jessie were there. james came down too because his parents are amazing and drive him down to melrose in the worst conditions ever. good times.

i think the day before that (i lost track of the days) kris came over and we were bored together. haha

wow, i actually cant remember much of anything. maybe cause i didnt do anything?

eh, anyway... wednesday we had a 2 hour delay which was magnificent. then when i came home i realized i didnt have my key so i walked up to meghan’s and she didnt have her key, so we walked back down to my house and wait for my mom who arrived home promptly. so meg and i hung out at my house until her mom came home... meghan... priceless, that’s allllll i have to say. after meghan left, tony came over and he showed me how to change my strings on my gee-tar. it was amazing how for a good 45 minutes we sat in almost complete silence while changing the strings and in school no teacher (except p.scial maybe....yeah definitely) can get us to shut up. we read the directions to my pitch pipe. hahah dont read the directions to a pitch pipe. you will be disturbed at the descriptive adjectives and the utter simplicity of the instrument will ask you to question yourself “why did i read this?” after my guitar was all tuned up and ready, i listened to tony play it for an hour. i played for like 3 minutes, but i didnt mind. i enjoy listening. he is so much better then i could ever be. my mom was lingering in the kitchen cause i know she wanted to hear our conversations/ listen to tony play. on the topic of my mom, it was beyond funny how nice she was being. she was all smily and “julessss”. she only calls me jules when she wants something/ is in a good mood.

so then later on that night i totally freaked out cause i had a chem, geo, and italian test the next day (today) that all needed to be studied for. i think im gunna start being OCD school again because i dont like being stupid.

i talked to a few people about my thoughts on things (im sorry. soSO vague) and i still dont quite know what my feelings are. but do i ever?

but i do know that i love that song and it makes me smile every time i look at it. <3

today i was the luckiest girl on earth. i took my chem test, which i dont even think is worth worrying about because everyone is going to do horrible, but after she gave out mid-quarter reports and i have an a-! how in the world, i do not know, but im not gunna argue, thats’s for sure. after that, i went to italian where we had un libro aperto quiz!! woohooo! that made my day. it will be the only test i ever pass in that class (not a literally
true statement, but in terms of material comprehension, very true). then off to english, my favorite class. di.lord is the best. stupid tony made her think that im a bad kid by implying my un sxe-ness. which is so not true! a syn. to some word was “wasted” so people were making all these comments, you know. and i was looking at the expression on her face and i was like “guys, mrs. lord gets it, she’s up with it, you know” and she was like “yeah i do get it” and then started making fun of the kids in class that were saying stuff. it was great. i hope she didnt believe tony because i very much value my reputation, thanks. not to mention the fact that k.fin, kizzle, j.lar and steve-o openly exaggerate my personal life to the whole class in english, and i know mrs. lord listens. moving on... i have an a- mid quarter average there too! then off to degeorge’s class to take the almighty quest. it was so easy i loved it! just what i needed. actually, i think it was appropriate/easy for once, as opposed to the typically impossible work he gives us.

i fell asleep by acident today. oops.

im going to NR tomorrow! yay, that new, different, and exciting.

but as for, now its 8:20 and i need to start my homework.

JD
 
     

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i wanted to stay forever and ever   
04:30pm 06/12/2003
 
mood: disappointed
ah yes, im back. back from one of the longest weeks of the year. basketball try-outs week. after monday i realized how much i really didn’t care, but i went through w/ the try-outs anyway for the pure reason of finishing what i started. but im not playing and i think its definitely an oppurtunity opener. ive devised a list of things that i want to do now that i dont have a major commitment everyday, it goes such as :
1. take voice lessons
2. concentrate on getting better at my guitar, like really concentrate on it. maybe ill have tony give me some lessons.
3. have my next report card be top 50 in the class
4. get a membership to the Y (possibly w/ k. fin) and go after school everyday as my means of staying in shape.

there will be more to come, but that’s it for now. if i could get decent on my guitar, decent enough to be able to sing w/ it, that would be the best. i think i might enter that win $100 karaoke contest at school. hahahhaha make a fool out of myself, but it’s all in good fun.

i usually dont have a problem with snow. i love the way it looks. i live on a dead end in the middle of nowhere and the city forgets that we exist so a plow only comes up 2ce a day. it’s a hill and almost no one attempts to go up it, so the street stays very surreal. it looks a lot like something you’d see on the front of a post card. in the same respect, the lack of plowing usually makes it very difficult to leave the house. just like right now. we are very much snowed in. i would have really appreciated it if the snow held off until sunday night. i dont even care about missing school, but it messed up all of my plans for the weekend, and im not gunna lie, i am very disappointed.

i apologize for anyone that i annoyed w/ my complaining yesterday. i felt the need to sulk for various reasons. im all done now though.

my mom is on extreme edge. i seriously dont know what shed do if i were actually a problem child and she had good reason to yell at everything i do. (that last sentence didn’t really make sense did it? eh, use your imagination, you couldn’t get too far off.) anyway, when she’s on edge it means we’re both at eachothers throats, but my family is so weird. like my mom and i will scream at each other and then 10 minutes later everything will be fine-ish. we fight too much to stay mad at each other. although, it does put me into a bad mood for the time being when were are still angry.

i had the best dream last night. it was one of those dreams where you dont know its a dream and you just want to stay there forever and ever. my mom woke me up and i was like nooooooooooo. i was actually in a good mood because of my dream. i wanted to stay there forever and ever .

i woke up...ahem...was woken up at 9:30 and did dishes/cleaned the stove until 10:45 and then went to my room to “clean my room” and totally fell asleep until 2! i wanted to go back to my dream, but it didn’t happen.

Christmas shopping needs to be done. i have no idea what i want to do. eek!

I'm surprising myself a lot lately and i like it.

yours truly,
Juliana
 
     

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the power of giving   
11:41pm 27/11/2003
 
mood: grateful
today was thanksgiving. it was better then usual. i dunno why, but i noticed one thing in particular about today.

one of my great uncles is really not sociable. we're an italian family, so there is a lot of kissing and hugging, but he never does either. perceivably so, he comes off as rather cold. my mother and i were standing at the kitchen when he came up to us with the biggest smile on his face that i have ever seen. he had come to tell us how he saw one of the little grandchildren (my brother) and he said hi. my brother said hi back and instead of taking his hand for a shake he gave him a hug around the waist, as it was described to us. he then went on to say "i was so surprised. he just came up to me and hugged me. and then i thought to myself: someone is teaching their kids right". the gleam in this mans eyes while he was telling us the story was unbelievable. i had never seen such first hand joy. he kept repeating things over, laughing and smiling, and i looked at his eyes and i could just see such happiness. my little brother unknowingly made, at the least, 10 minutes of someone’s life happier. he instilled a feeling of want and love to my uncle by the simple act of a hug. i just couldn’t get over the completely genuine look in his eyes.

other then that, the day was your typical thanksgiving for us. my mom brought the pictures from the semi and showed them to everyone. it was really cute. when everyone went for the traditional walk after dinner, i stayed and played basketball. my great uncle john came to play with me. he helped me a lot on my jump shot. hes in his 60's and he could school me. thats awesome, good for him. i was really grateful for his help cause i wasn’t getting any good practicing done until he came. there were some friends of people there today too. they were so weird. im sorry but no public displays of affection (PDA for all of u who know mrdooner) at the dinner table please.

ive come to realize that i really like long car rides. but only if i have headphones. i also really like how if you're in a good mood when u listen to dashboard, it makes u happier, and if you're not, it's something to totally relate to. today, i was in a good mood.

im getting tired, sleep awaits - Juliana
 
     

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09:25pm 24/11/2003
 
mood: loved
<3


friends only entry this time, sorry guys.
 
     

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the worst is over, you can have the best of me   
08:13pm 21/11/2003
 
mood: anxious
music: tsl
It's Friday night and I’m home trying to get healthy for tomorrow. this would be me having awesome timing w/ getting sick. I’m not really sick, I just have a cold. its cool when u wake up in the morning and have no voice (yeahhhhhh, cool, that's it). after school today I crashed for an hour or so. I’m gunna be up all night now. oh well, maybe ill watch an old movie or something. but as of now, I will aimlessly wander the house. my brother broke one of the strings on my guitar so I cant even occupy myself w/ my guitar 'skills'. what a looser. why MUST he touch my things?

hmmm

today was...today. something happened to my alarm clock this morning and it said it was 6:20 when it was really 5:20. I thought about going back to sleep, but I felt some compelling force to do my history study guide. so I learned all about the election of 1800 through the War of 1812 before most of u even got up. how interesting. when I got to history we didn’t even have the test. I hate when that happens. I did my paper outline wrong so Mr. pendleton (coolest history teacher) told me to get it to him, typed, by the end of the day. I did it during lunch and when I handed it told me it was "very impressive". haha hey, if he thinks its impressive to type up a twelve sentence outline in a lunch period, who am I to complain?

Kris and I finished all of our chem work today in class with time to spare. it was a first. *takes a bow*

its depressing when the sun goes down at 4:30 in the afternoon.

I don’t think I’m gunna make the basketball team this year. I have practiced zero. I don’t like the thought of not playing basketball after I’ve put so much time and effort into it through the years, but I’m asking to get cut for not practicing. its just that last year was so horrible ...I don’t know, I want it to be fun again. I don’t like the hardcore competition to the point where practices are team mate against team mate. and I couldn’t stand last year how no one got it that I like to concentrate before a game and not be bouncing off the walls. my coach assumed that I didn’t want to play because I wasn’t hyper. ((sigh)) mixed feelings.

the chip for my digital camera needs to be downloaded and cleared out. I should get on that, huh.

I’m excited about tomorrow. I know I’m gunna get nervous out of nowhere for no reason right before I leave for richies house. it’s inevitable.

I kinda want to go clean my room. what is wrong with me?

abrupt ending


~yours truly
 
     

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made me think for a moment   
03:21pm 17/11/2003
  it's been a few days. not much has been going on. friday night i went to richards as usual. i feel bad for being over there 24/7, but anyway, there was a bunch of people. i skipped band because i really didnt feel like sitting out in the cold for a whole football game until various limbs no longer had feeling, and not even being able to play my instrument due to the fact that piccolos dont like the cold. it was a chill night at richards, though, im glad i skipped band. kris and i got there late cause my mom took us out to the blues diner. it was good. i took the "mo hotta, mo betta" label off of the hot sauce cause i thought it was cool. i came really close to touching the guitar that is attached to the wall but my mom and kris both yelled at me. well they didnt yell, they sorta hissed under their breath -hahaha- what a weird description.
saturday night i ventured over to josh's house. it was prettyokay. sarah and i were on the computer most of the time. josh flipped out over something i still dont know what it was, but sorry if u read this, i thought it was hysterical. everyone walked down to jonny's to get random food parcels. i believe it was peter that has the genius idea of getting cookie dough and eating it raw. so funny, but so nasty. it made sal 'high' & he was bouncing off the walls...that was until he puked. to my great fortune, i didnt see or hear it! but i was kinda afraid to be near him the rest of the night.
yesterday my mom and i ran errands all day.
report cards came on friday. i dont know how i feel about mine:
band A, history A-, chem B+, italian B (a gift), english A-, geometry B-. which isnt too bad, but im 65th in the class and i dont like that. top 50 & ill be happy.
i did a wonderful job getting off to a good 2nd quarter today by gettin my ass kicked by a vocab test. stupid juliana. but to redeem myself, i think i did decent on my chem test. i couldnt remember STP when i looked at the test and almost had a heart attack, but it came back to me, thank the lord. & we wont touch geometry cause i decided to totally blank out on how to solve 2 variable equations today.
by far the best thing that happened today was in italian. signora follionere was lecturing me again about something, but she was doing it in her exasperated, over-exggerative wannabe italian voice. & i could tell it was gunna be a long lecture so i just sort of sighed "you know, you're right. i should die." and shes stopped dead in her tracks. it was amazing. she was super nice to me for the rest of the class. try it sometime. the reaction is priceless.

i must go do some homework and get ready for my soccer banquet tonight

-Juliana
 
     

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& in my world, it was a big deal   
10:25pm 12/11/2003
 
mood: restless
my dad’s new thing is making wine with his ‘buddy’ aka his old friend from college. they sit in the garage in old lawn chairs, smoke cigars, watch their little 8in TV, and look at the big barrels of wine. i get a kick out of it. it got too cold i the garage for the wine to properly ferment, as i was informed, so my dad moved them into the wannabe family room. for all of u who dont know, its part of my downstairs that still isn’t finished after 7 years of living in this house. we made major progress on it this summer and the rest of the blue board was put up, plastered, and the ceiling was painted... i can see the wine exploding all over that white, i can see it now. also, fermenting wine has a much stronger sent then when its done, so my computer room smells of it.

last night i learned a few things. it wasn’t my first choice in ways to learn them, but all was good in the end.

As for today, it seemed to fly by.

in geometry we went down to the computer lab to ‘learn’...riiiight. you just keep thinkin that mr.degeorge. basically, we played w/ shapes on the computer for an hour. alex and sam thought they had defeated the laws of geometry... little did they know they had in fact made a concave quadrilateral. it was great. they got so excited and said stuff like “woah! we are geometry” or “ we shouldn’t even be in this class anymore”.

then off to wellness where mrs.fogs is back. carucci look alike is gone for good. i have never had mrs.fogerty before and wow, was i surprised to say the least. how many teachers do you know that will say “some people like it up the butt” during a class discussion in total seriousness. i mean dont get me wrong, i have no problem w/ whatever anyone else wants to do but just the way she said it... priceless. i think i could make a master card commercial about it.

i had a sub in chem and italian *smiles* kris, kyle and i talked about various things and i swear that even though mr.del vecchio kept yelling at me for talking too loud he secretly wanted to know what i was talking about! yes, my sub was listening in to my conversation. i kept seeing him edge his way closer and closer over to where we were sitting, and by the end of the class he was sitting on the lab table right behind us. All conversations in italian need to have had been had.

After school ky and i went to kris’s for a chem study session. kyle had this random stroke of chemistry knowledge and finished everything before us. its about time she learned how to subtract *winkwink* just kidding. see, today we had a grand old time @ kris’s, and we think we’re the funniest thing too. but seriously, how many other people would get a kick out of flipped up zippers, I’m w/ shmehehe t-shirts, and hidden pictures?? thats what i thought - - anyway, moving on...

what to do this weekend? because you know, tomorrow is thursday. how hot is that.

and we’re done -

((Juliana))
 
     

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the rain in spain stays mainly in the plane   
11:04am 11/11/2003
 
mood: excited
I dont know what has gotten into me lately. The past two days I (willingly) ran, a lot (for me), and fast. I ran an uphill 645 (!!!!!!) mile. I’ve never broken 758 before. Maybe I timed it wrong? Yesterday I felt the need to do it again, but my time went way up, so I tried to beat it back and was doing well but I stopped at the pond to ponder (pun entirely intended). The swans weren’t there and all the colors are off the trees so it was rather sad.
I cant wait for it to freeze over, though, so I can skate on it. yay fun : )

oh, and I totally wimped out and didn’t go to school yesterday cause I didn’t finish my English essay. I know, dont you hate me.

It was a mommy daughter night last night. My mom and I went to Bertucci’s (sp?) for dinner and then went to get a dress for the semi. I tried on this one dress that made me look like the lady on the swiss miss hot chocolate box...it was very...interesting. I’m happy cause I found one that's very me. it's classic, My Fair Lady-esque (ever seen that movie?). black&white. I hope it hems up right though cause it's full length and we need to hem it to semi length. There was definitely some prancing when I got home - haha- Natalie was so sweet and offered for me to borrow her dress (before I found mine). Thanks so much for the offer!

school tomorrow. hope I didn’t miss too much on Monday.

.Juliana.
 
     

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im updating for you, feel speical   
01:21am 09/11/2003
 
mood: angry
music: michelle branch
ummm im updating by request from a few.
as for my work ethic, it isnt ions different but i tried isolating myself and sitting down and doing hw. it worked sorta. thanks to james for pointing out the obvious to me.
friday i only had 3 blocks which rocked. we changed in school and then went to st.mary's in lynn to play some memorial day assembly doodad. they gave us 'lunch' which freaked me out cause it was behind the stage off to the side w/ no lighting.creepy. their whole middle school and highschool is about the size of our grade. i would hate that. mr buckley's son sang. i couldnt really hear him that much but i think he had a country-ish flare. he looks nothin like mr.b. there was this band (worst drum set ive ever seen, 3 guitars, and a bass) that tried to play a u2 song and after wards mr. buckley was like "after hearing that i love you guys". we got home late, so i missed the bus and my mom met me on the way home. i kind of wanted to walk, but it was nice of my mom to meet me. i want feelin too hot, so i took a shower. it worked for a little while. it was my moms birthday so we went out for a family dinner (plus derick, my brothers friend, who randomly had blue hair) at pescione's. i let my hair go natural curly cause my mom likes it like that...just thought ud like to know. i had extreme shivvers and goose bumps cause i was so cold. i felt french cause i had my scarf on inside. after dinner i went to richie's. there was a crap load of people there. we watched the shining. i didnt find it scary in the least. despite that, it was time well spent. i almost fell asleep on james. sorry about that <3

today was disastrious. i wont go into it pubically because i just wont. i will never be like my parents. period.

thanks so much jlar for Acceptance, and k.fin for SoCo, Yellowcard, and Michelle Branch! u guys are the best.

goodnight,
Juliana
 
     

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10:10pm 05/11/2003
 
mood: frustrated
i am writing an entry out of pure procrastination. my work ethic has gotten so bad and i hate it. yet do i do anything about it...no. ive been trying to do my chem homework for about 2 hours now. yeah, it's hard, but not two hours hard. i almost wish my parents would be w/ me like they are w/ my brother, and force me to do it. almost. tonight, to stall even more, i picked the fruit that takes the longest to eat (grapefruit) and decided that i needed to have a grapefruit. who does that? why cant i get anything done??? i remeber in 6th grade when i used to be afraid of not doing my homework or studying for test. back then i was smart. back then i would die if i got a B. i need something to force me back into that. now. i hate the thought that i know i could be doing a substantial amount better then i am right now if i just did my work and studied. maybe if i had studied for italian, it wouldnt be keeping my off the honor role right now. what a novel idea.UGH. the worst kind of fustration is fustration with yourself... stop procrastinating juliana...

bye
 
     

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no school for the cool kids   
01:13pm 03/11/2003
 
mood: nostalgic
music: SoCo
Just finished helping the little bro w/ his math homework. it is so difficult to help that child. he’s this little ball of bouncy adhd that needs everything to be taken away from him, and to be strapped to a chair before he starts to pay attention. self control at its best (not to kill him that is). I suppose I should be nicer, or more patient...I try. it get so frustrating though - -

me: ok, so how many times does 7 go into 2
p: 3
me: no
p:2
me: no, how many times does seven go into two
p:3
me: ok, so say I have 7 apples. how many times can I put 7 apples evenly into 2 baskets?
p: you cant
me: ok, so how many times does 7 go into 2?
p: 2

oh mannn... 20 problems of that.

my mom has been really weird lately too. she keeps doing her “baby girl” stuff. meaning when I come home she coos “hows my baby girl today”, or she asks me to come watch tv with her, or asks for a hug randomly. a few days ago she even woke me up for school the way she used to when I was little and was like “remember how I used to do this when you were little??” I must say, it’s freaking me out a little bit.

finals were on saturday. they were pretty disappointing. we came in fourth...1,2,3&4 were only tenths of points away from each other. it was confusing cause none of our instructors told us what we did wrong. : ( it’s alright, it was good times anyway.

last night kristen came over and we listened to some new something corporate, and michelle branch, and yellowcard. awesome. I scared the crap outta her w/ one of my brother’s halloween doodads. I was putting it up to her face and then all of a sudden it broke and smashed her peanuts. she shrieked and ran! yes. ran. it was, by far, the funniest thing that has happened all week.

I dont know why, but I was thinking about a bunch of things that I miss like...

x halloween little kid style. with the plastic orange pumpkins, and everyone on the street. and when u ring the door bell, the people say “arent you scaaaaaaaaaryyyyyyy”...but secretly you’re afraid to go up to the house without your dad by your side.
x wearing yellow turtle neck shirts under my purple soccer uniform.
x having a great imagination because you dont understand anything yet
x innocence in general
x having one worksheet of homework and thinking it was SO MUCH
x making forts in the woods behind my house
x old school nickelodeon
x when the yellow school bus was cool
x not fighting with my parents
x thinking the highest of my parents
x thinking walking home from school was the ultimate cool
x simplicity

...I could go on, but I wont.

Juliana
 
     

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