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Can I change? [11 May 2004|04:01pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | Bittersweet Symphony-The Verve ] Well I'm going to stop writing in this journal and put it behind me. I've already started a new journal where I write in when I'm happy. I won't be depressed and suicidal anymore. Because I've changed....As much as I'd like to say that I've gotten better since last year, I doubt it. I may have even gotten worse but I can only hope that I've gotten better. In some ways I've gotten better and in some I've gone into a horrible downward spiral. Truthfully....you can't change. You may want to change so badly and your heart is set on it. But you have to accept that sometimes, you just have a fucked up mind and life and you just have to live with it. I'm a million different people...I'm happy one second, depressed the next, estatic, suicidal, mellow.... Cause it's a bitter sweet symphony that's life... Try to make ends meet , you're a slave to the money then you die. I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down... You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet, yeah. No change, I can change, I can change, I can change, but I'm here in my mould , I am here in my mould. But I'm a million different people from one day to the next... I can't change my mould , no,no,no,no,no,no,no Well I've never prayed, But tonight I'm on my knees, yeah. I need to hear some sounds that recognise the pain in me, yeah. I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind , I feel free now. But the airwaves are clean and there's nobody singing to me now. No change, I can change, I can change, I can change, but I'm here in my mould , I am here in my mould. And I'm a million different people from one day to the next I can't change my mould, no,no,no,no,no,no,no Have you ever been down? I can change, I can change... Cause it's a bittersweet symphony this life. Trying to make ends meet, try to find somebody then you die. You know I can change, I can change, I can change, but I'm here in my mould, I am here in my mould. And I'm a million different people from one day to the next. I can't change my mould, no,no,no,no,no,no,no We've got ya sex and violence melody and silence (Have you ever been down) (I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down) Habit count: 5 1 comment|post comment

I want to be like you. Happy. [06 May 2004|03:02pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | Innocence Mission-Tomorrow on the Runway ] Ugh. This has been the worst school day so far...bleh geometry, feeling sick. Horrible health. Did stupid CPR without the compressions and I messed up. I was feeling so incredibly sick and I wanted to get it over with and I was shaking and my eyes were watering. So I went to the bathroom and barfed. I really don't like puking in school toilets. It's yecky. Well barfing in general is yecky. So I went back to class >.> Stupid Jarco was like 'mel are you okay.' and I wasn't in the mood for telling her to fuck off and stop calling me Mel. So I just walked around after class for a bit and then went to lunch to just eat a little bit 'cuz I couldn't really eat...and religion...and french...and part of science. The whole day I was in so much pain and I wanted to go home but every time I was almost gonna I couldn't stand up. I was being such a dousche. Well the *only* good thing that happened today was Olivia *the sweetie and cool person that she is* walked by science and saw me with my head on my desk and teary eyes and she stops there and starts mouthing words and telling me to smile. She's so nice and cool. Well....I went to the office, called the house, julie didn't answer, called my mom, couldn't pick me up 'cuz she was at the dentist, called home, julie didn't answer again, mrs. merlo took me home. So here I am at home. Yay...but not really 'cuz I still feel bleh. Habit count: 4 post comment

Everything's made to be broken. [05 May 2004|08:37pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | Goo Goo Dolls-Iris ] Hey there. Today sucked beyond the telling of it. Absolutely frickin' bleh. Well it started off fine. Geometry was okay and we took this survey thingy and got free candy from Lisa Merlo--she's really cool :) BUT AAAAH! Health. GOD FUCKING DAMNIT! I hate Jarco so fucking much. Okay so we had to do CPR checking today. I was with allison. So uhm hi you should tell the girls the day before that HEY YOU'RE GONNA BE ROLLED OVER BY SOMEONE SO YOU MIGHT NOT WANT TO WEAR A SKIRT! So now she tells us that we should wear shorts or change before class...yeah...okay then...I have one pair of pants for 2 weeks? Yeah uhm I think I'm screwed :( So blah blah and Allie does the cpr thing after I did and checks my pulse. There wasn't a lot of room and me and Dillon were a *little* close. So we're laughing on the floor and my arm hits him and then I moved it and his arm hits me. It's just like collide-a-polooza. LUCKILY no actual breathing in the other person's mouth or compressions. We get to do those tomorrow on Little Anne. So then I did the cpr thing on Allie and I asked her if she wanted to just roll over by herself 'cuz really and truly, I know the rolling rules of skirts and how they act. Also, sorry I don't like grabbing my friend's hip and rolling them over. So she's tells the whole fucking class "MEL, THAT WAS JUST HORRIBLE, YOU FLOPPED HER OVER LIKE A PANCAKE" Really! No shit sherlock! Do I want to be here? No. Do I want to roll over my friend and make her skirt go all WOOH!? No. SO FUCK OFF YOU COW! What's worse is that she calls me Mel. It's so frickin' annoying, I can't stand it. I'd be fine if people that I LIKED called me that but if it's a teacher that I ABSOLUTELY dispise then NO. I mean like Bro Marty could call me Mel 'cuz he has in the past but he's relatively okay. Jarco is just evil. Especially when she sits on the desk right in front of you or bends over in front of you. Not to mention she was giving me dirty looks because Allison wouldn't let me take her pulse 'cuz her neck was ticklish. So she's on the floor laughing her ass off and having mini seizures and I need to take her pulse and Jarco is like sitting on her desk in all her exploded fat glory and giving me these evil looks. How I would like to just torture her. Poke out her eyes, sew up her mouth... So lunch was blah, religion was boring, french was >.> because we had casedias *fucked up spelling* and the smell was making me sick. Science was the only good class of the day. It was pretty boring though. But we did get our tests back and I got a 98. It's a fucking miracle. And I have an A in the class! WOOOHHH HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! So English and boring Oedipus short answer shit that I didn't do. I think I had ADD. I was feeling really shitty. Well I changed and then waited until 3:15 for Mr. P to pick me up for driver's training and then I called him and he was at Clarkston and he blamed me for it. I REMINDED HIM LIKE 4 TIMES AND I ASKED HIM IF HE WANTED ME TO WRITE DOWN OUR LADY OF THE LAKES HIGH SCHOOL ON THE SHEET BUT HE SAID TO REMIND HIM! IT'S NOT MY FUCKING FAULT! So now I have to pay 7 bucks for his stupid-ass mistake. Oh and driving was pretty shitty too. I suck at it and he took me in this impossible neighborhood. The only good thing, I managed to park straight. But I couldn't put it in park. Windshield wipers, right turn signal, sure. But no park. >.> I finally managed to and we had class and it was bleh too. post comment

Let the water hold me down [28 Apr 2004|08:16pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | Talking Heads-by go days the and :) *figure it out smartass* ] Hey there. Today wasn't really great. The morning was really BLEH. Amanda hates me so much :( :( and I told KT and she kinda got mad at me. I'm getting some extra credit in health so HOPEFULLY my grade will go up. God I'm gonna fucking kill myself if I do poorly on the health test. *pitta-patta baby after health :)* Okay I'm starting to think that maybe this stuff should go in my HAPPY journal... Well lunch was okay. In religion we took a test and I went to the library three times to sharpen pencils, then get the michigan catholic for bro marty, and to copy something for myself. Michigan Catholic=epitomy of evil *I think I really royed up the spelling...why the fuck did I say royed...hmmm...now I'll so ROY OFF! :)* French was kinda boring I think. Charlie is kinda insane. I mean, sometimes he's annoying but I can't stop myself from laughing. Today he was like ARE YOU DOING ANYTHING SATURDAY NIGHT! *big pause...* I'm going to a really cool concert! yadda yadda about the concert and how cool it was. And I just learned that later in the class he asked me if I had wedding plans already. LUCKILY he asked KT the same thing but he is starting ta freak me out. But he serenaded Allison yesterday. It was great! :) Science was okay. Mr. Klick said that Heath was an MCP and Heath agreed and he didn't know that it was a male chauvanist pig. Learned about sugars and stuff. *eats a pile of sugar* Then in english we started Oedipus which is pretty boring. We went to Kt's house, changed, ate and then went to Driver's Ed again. It was okay yet again. The chick behing Amanda was being annoying. Owwwie...for some reason my organs in the flab area that is called my stomach keep popping. They've done this for the longest time. Maybe I have a friggin baby growing in me. o.O Why the roy did I even say that... Checklist... Clinically Insane...CHECK! Help Me Please....CHEK! I'm Screwed...CHECK! Ludicrously Moody...CHECK! Disturbed...CHECK! Oi vey... post comment

As long as you're alive I'm waiting [24 Apr 2004|12:52pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | Here I Am? *annoying guy on the radio still* ] Well I guess I screwed up and forgot what *really* happened in French on Friday. Woops. Okay so the finger puppet theatre happened on Thursday. post comment

Is it worth it? [24 Apr 2004|12:49pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | I don't know...annoying singer on the radio ] Hi there. I didn't update about yesterday. It was a pretty good day. Nothing really happened except we took a test in Science and French. I think it was when Allison was trying to act out the situation of Laverne (me) and The Fonz (joe). So I just countered it with what is really happening (nothing). There was also something else rather amusing and funny but I can't remember it. Argh. Well my mom took me to Taco Bell after school and got food *yummy*. Then she started talking with a southern accent on the way home. It was amusing but kinda weird. Hmm...well I wish I could go to the play this weekend but I don't think that I can. Oh well :( I went to be last night and slept for...maybe 8-10 hours. I can't wake up later than like 10 because of stupid school. If they want us to do better then why don't they make it start later in the day? Silly people. I had really good dreams though. Unlike Thursday night. There was this stupid dream that I've had a couple of times and it's like a *GIANT* glass elevator and the sides move or something. I always get stuck and get pulled to the top and I have to keep fighting to go back down so I won't like die and everyone in the elevator is laughing at me. Then the elevator goes to a stop and I plummet 30 feet to the floor. post comment

Where should I go? What should I do? [22 Apr 2004|06:17pm] [ mood | self esteem reaches new low :( ] [ music | U2-Sunday Bloody Sunday ] Hi there. Well you know how I probably said that nothing happened yesterday. Well that was like 10 times better than what happened today. Once. And distraction and stuff >.< Urg. Oh well. There were only 2 things that were amusing today. That was in french when Allie and I worked together. We had to ask if you were going somewhere, say yes, ask to bring back something, and say that they would. So we used the words that we knew. :) I asked if she was going to the zoo and she said yes and I asked if she would bring me back a live chicken and she said gladly :) Oh and we acted out Laverne and the Fonz the the likingness of them and the *never gonna happen *tears** of them. Oh and there was science where we got to go outside. Anna tackled the blue football thing and her skirt went up a little but you couldn't see anything then she did it again and her skirt just went completely up and we saw everything. It was very amusing and funny. Well we just watched a little bit of Romeo and Juliet and took a test. Jue Jue picked me up and Dana and Tim were there *they're so cool*. post comment

I will love you always and forever [21 Apr 2004|04:47pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Dave Matthew's Band-Everyday *all songs on kazaa* ] Hi there. Well I've been feeling yeck all week and I wanna stay home :( :( Of course I can't :( Well today was okay. The morning was absolutely horrible. I just came into school crying which wasn't fun so I seperated myself from people and didn't really speak to anyone until geometry. The geometry quiz was okay. We watched a movie in health which wasn't fun. Jarco sucks. Religion was really boring and I was partially sleeping. French was okay but Charlie and Adam sat behind me and allison again. Ugh. Science was blah because we now have a test on friday. I'm screwed. Oh and we started Romeo and Juliet *the movie with leo decaprio*. It's really funny. I love it :) My stupid film isn't ready until tomorrow after 5. Man these places are slooooowwww. post comment

Sex is a weapon, It's like a drug. [20 Apr 2004|07:21pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | Some crappy song on the radio ] Hello there. Well today, at school, was good. I was all smily and giggly during church which was very weird. I had to sit through an interesting conversation between charlie and adam during french. Science wasn't fun either. Mr. Klick tried to explain how to name the hydrocarbons or something which I didn't get. We watched an interesting spoof sort of thing at the rennisance festival (92). So I went to pick up my film and stuff and I didn't get a yearbook :( :( :( :( I hate Mrs. Eaton--she's such a fucking bitch. Oh and my lovely sister told me that I smelled like a sick person (ie throw up). :( :( Oh and guess what--I realized that I'm "happy" at school but it's my family that's made me depressed. Well mainly my mom and dad. Julie and Bryan haven't done anything bad--they're cool. post comment

Everyone I know goes away in the end, why do I not leave before them...? [19 Apr 2004|07:19pm] [ mood | depressed and pissed off ] [ music | Johnny Cash ] Oh goody...school started again and it's worse than before. The only *okay* class is french. The rest are horrible. Nothing from anyone else either. Boring and more boring. I didn't get my film either because my mom is, as usual, being a dick and she decided to waste all this time trying to cash my fucking traveler's checks. And my stomach is shredded as usual. Oh and guess what, she has alzheimerz. That's what I've decided. Or she just chooses to forget whole conversations *WHICH HAPPENED 10 FUCKING TIMES*, names...like I don't know...MY FUCKING NAME!...maybe she's just mentally retarded. I really hate her right now. She's the stupid catholic american mother that I hate. post comment

margarita, love and destory...margaritaaaaaaaaaaaa [18 Apr 2004|08:02pm] [ mood | really needing a margarita ] [ music | FRANZ FERDINAND!-Love and Destroy (AWESOME BAND!) ] Hello...well yesterday Mr. Comcast Guy came and hooked up the internet and wooh I'm in my room on the internet. Julie was bugging the shiznit out of me for like...an hour and 1/2...she's insane... Well we woke up and went to the mall at like 9:30 'cuz we didn't wanna go to mass so we just walked around the mall. It's really cool when nothing is open and there's like no one there...it's shaweet. Well...uhm...then we came home at like noon and Jue Jue Bee went to a play. Oh and I got a picture of the Metro stop...Abbesses for the France theme of my room :) Well I'm really bored and such now so bye bye post comment

DAMNIT I WANT MINT CHOCOLATE CHIP ICE CREAM! [17 Apr 2004|04:23pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | some crap on the radio ] Well this is me typing up all of my entries from when I was in Paris :) It is currently Friday at 4:59pm and I'm in my room on the computer typing up the stuff on notepad. The comcast guy is coming tomorrow *Saturday* to hook up the connection up here :) WOOH! I added some things in the journal entries 'cuz I remember them as I was typing the entries out :) 04.06.04 8:20pm--Approx. exiting Canada heading towards Greenland-the map thingy on the screen is awesome! :) Wow this paper is noxiously white. I'll tell you all about what's happened so far! Well we got at the airport at like ten to 2. Julie and Dad parked the car and took forever to get to us *me and mum* then we went and got all of the stuff like NWA flyer miles and my ticket. Allie, Amanda, and KT then came. Wooh Wooh. I don't remember when we went to get our carry-ons checked bt we did and I was scotch-free :) We got through all fine and then went to the "lobby" area to wait until 5:05ish. We were bored so we just rode on the little flat escalator thing *I call it a crazy moving sidewalk* which is really nifty :) Then we boarded the plane *I was a crazy mess. I was just like maybe this will collapse--AAAH! Well I was spastic for a while longer. We switched seats so me and KT were next to each other and we were behind Allie, Manda, and Manda's mum. Well I spazzed for take-off and when the plane started moving. As soon as it was done I wanted to go again. It was effin awesome! Well there's been turbulence for a little bit and it's kinda bleh. Not really annoying but not SUPER! either. *I like it lots now* Well I switched seats with Amanda's mother like 1/2 way through the flight and I'm watching Mystic River now and there's nothing else to say so bye bye! Hope we don't crash. Like...10? more hours to go. Au Revoir! --I realized how no way could there be 10 more hours to go...I suck at math... 04.07.04 Holy Shiat. A LOT happened today. I got like 2 hours of sleep on the *UBER-NICE PLANE* and blah blah the plane ride ended. Landing was pretty nifty. I think that the landing gear was right under me 'cuz I felt something. Let's see...we went to the Amsterdam and it was nice, clean, cool, and smelled a little like dope of course ;) We waited for our next flight. Me, Kt, Mrs. Merlo and Lisa *Mrs. Merlo's daughter* went to the bathroom. Kt and I just went to put our contacts in. I was asked for a smoke. Like some dope. Very interesting. Their airport security is very lax. Well probably just for a group of 14-17 year olds going to Paris...who knows...We then went on a rather shitty-like plane. It was like 20 years old. Scary sandwhich and me and KT looked at Teen Prom and it was over. The plane ride was really short *oh and the right wing wassmoking when we were descenting and landing. We arrived at the CDG airport in france and got our luggage. My luggage was all beaten up and then we got on the bus to go to the hotel. It was a really nice bus. :) I tried to not close my eyes at all because I wanted to see all of the outside of Paris and such :) We passed all of the stuff--it was mainly big business buildings or the slums sort of. It was really cool. So then we got to the the hotel (Hotel La Serre on Rue Cler *I believe*). The street was awesome. There's a fruit market outside of it, it's on a cobblestone street, a walk away from everything you'd ever need. The hotel is small and cute. I thought our room would be smaller but it was bigger than I'd expected. The architecture in Paris is awesome! We settled in for a bit and then took the metro to Notre Dame. It's a really big church. There's a visitors area thingy around the mass area that you walk around. Some people went up the stairs but my teeth and head were really hurting. Oh and I had *REALLY* bad cramps. Stairs + Cramps = a world of no. So we waited for like 2 hours and I took a wee little nap in Notre Dame. Churches make you so sleepy... It was really chilly outside and raining on and off. I was shaking a lot then and everyone thought that I was uber-freezing. After Notre Dame some of us went to Sainte Chapelle which was just this little, old, two story stained glass chapel. After those I decided it would be easier to write the highlights of the day because I didn't have a lot of time to write down the play by play things of the day. 04.08.04 Highlights of today: -Allison puts money in her pants *not waistpouch* and later finds money and a receipt in the leg of her pants -Saw the Eiffel Tower and went up it in the elevators -Graffitied the Eiffel Tower and took a picture :) -Allie told the people in the elevator that when KT goes #2 it smells like a dead person -There was an accordian player and a guy talking really loudly about how he didn't have a job and no food and stuff like that on the metro -Napolean's tomb -"the couple" Alex + Jason-bleh. -Rodin's art *Mrs. Broderick taking pictures of butts for Sean* -Musee D'orsay -*in the evening* KT's #2 smelling like an army died -period chat -hearing of "the sex" *Seriously it couldn't have been sex 'cuz it was too quiet. I think they were all just playing cards* post comment

The tale of the 7 fat rolls [05 Apr 2004|05:57pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | The dish on 89x ] HOLA AMIGOS! I'm going to France TOMORROW! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! *dances* So this will probably be my last entry online until I get back. *still contemplating the little call that I may make while I'm there* WELL TODAAAAAAAAY! Uhm me mum actually let me listen to the Killers on the way to school today which was cool and she said that it was a wierd song because it says you had a boyfriend that looks like a girlfriend that I had in Feburary of last year. Hee hee. Well let's see...I just sat in front of my locker pretending to go through my stuff but I just didn't wanna go sit on the floor--I think I should have gone to the library to see my dear friend Kaitlyn and my lova. o.O Okay well I didn't go so blah blah OH! and then we went to homeroom and we had Mamma Metz as a teacher and she wrote our work on the board so me and kt started it early which was nifty. Then geometry and the moving of me to my geometry seat. Well we just worked on the work again. Geesh I need a thesaurus. Then blahity blah and I went to health and then we got in the square of power and worked on a little assignment that we had. NO JARCO! WOOH! We had yugovich as a substitute. Well then there was lunch. Before then I was at my locker and Rachel pretty much yells HI MELISSA! and then in a true moment of ADD she yells HI MRS. DUKE!...it was kinda wierd. Then I went to lunch and I ate-go me! Boy Religion was a hoot. Bro Marty has been a crabby jackass for the past week. It's starting to piss me off. Cheer up stupid monk. So we started watching Unbreakable and we have to answer questions about it. Hmm...then we went to French and got outvoted and are watching Antwoine Fisher *hey I tried to spell it right...*. I voted for Legally Blonde. Only the three of us :( I bet you Amanda would have voted for it too but she was out taking a test. So onto science which was fun 'cuz we played with Playdough. AGAIN! Mr. Klick needs to get his ass on the correct teaching train. >.< Hmmm...I made the Mackinaw Island Bridge, a pin ball, and a turtle :) Uhm...didn't work with allie, kt, and amand with the building of the tower and just built whatever I wanted with playdough. Shane made a ghost to haunt my bridge. It was twice the size of the freakin' bridge...Oh yeah! We got to take the playdough. I have a container of playdough now! WOOH! Then ENGLISH which was just boring Romeo and Juliet stuff. And blah blah onto Big Lots. I sat in the van while me mum went and got some washcloths. I am a binge eater. I eat like 800 calories in 5 minutes--it's horrible. >.< Oh and I gave Bryan a hug and talked to Ju and mum. Mum is really snippy and pissy about France. post comment

Cause heaven ain't close in a place like this [04 Apr 2004|06:51pm] [ mood | scared ] [ music | *So come on papa, let's do the drumma* BEP-Hey Mama ] Aloha! I'll tell ye all about my Saturday. Well I think that I FINALLY GOT TO SLEEP IN! WOOOOOH! Well by the time I got up and such Julie came home and I took a shower and we went to Great Lakes. It was okay except that Julie likes to walk really fast like almost jogging or running pace and that wasn't good 'cuz I was feeling really sick. So uhm...let's see...we went in Marshalls, FYE *used part of a gift card Bryan got me for Christmas--turns out he gave me a 40 dollar gift card! I LOVE MY BRO! HE ROCKS!*, uhm..., Claires, Icing, Afterthoughs *all my sisters plan*, and a nifty t-shirt store that I love. There was a green lantern shirt that I wanted to get but there was only one out and I was being a stupid chicken wuss and not asking the guy if they had any others. Then I wanted to get the sweatshirt but it was a wee bit too much for me at the time. So I was feeling sick and I snapped and we went home. And I went in my bedroom and just layed there for a bit and was all BLEEEEHHHH! *barfaroonie* FF to Sunday... A pretty shitty beginning to a pretty good day. Pa, Jue, and myself went to 9:30 mass. Ugh. We were in the 3rd row from the front and I was smack dab in the center of the row. Guess how much space I had between me and julie and the lady next to me....about 1/2 inch on each side. So my shoulders were all up and hunched 'cuz I couldn't even put them down and I was getting sick and it was the really long mass too because of the fucking Palm Sunday readings. So during the little 'acting' out of the passion I had to sit down and then I had to stumble to the bathroom where I barfed. Yeck. And of course I had to go back which also sucked. Another hour of that shit. God, did you make the mass so long and boring? Can you fix it PLEASE! Oh and then Julie says when we're going out that I shouldn't wear that shirt to mass. It was the 'for good luck rub my tummy shirt' that's like 5 sizes too big. I DON'T HAVE ANY OTHER FUCKING CLOTHES! I packed them all for France... Well then we went home *ALLELUIA!* And then later I went out with me mum for some stuff for France. We went to the Dollar Store, Payless, Fashion Bug, other Dollar Store, and K Mart. It was a pretty good time. This is one of those days where I can actually say I like me mum. Well I got some deodorant, q tips, tennis shoes, converse black low tops...are they called low tops...hmmm...I guess not. A black shirt, a cute green hat *completes my army look :)* ..and probably like one or two small things that I needed that I can't think of now... post comment

SOMEBODY TOLD ME YOU HAD A BOYFRIEND [01 Apr 2004|05:02pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | The Killers-Somebody Told Me!!! *awesome song* ] Well I guess that yesterday didn't suck that much. Yesterday was wednesday, ya know? Well except for the fact that MARGE FOLLOWED US ALL FUCKING DAY! Plus she smelled. And of course she was annoying. I had to sit next to her in the lazer show-presentation-thing. Whenever there was anything over to the right she'd lay her head back and her eyes were really big and it looked like she was either dead or staring at me even though I knew that she wasn't. But there was a hemoglobe thingy and it was like a rollercoaster and she was just like woaaah oooh aaaah I'm getting dizzy ugghhhh man that was bad. I'm really dizzy now. *goes and murders someone* Well all of the parts with KT and Allie were good. Just try to ignore or get rid of Marge. I think that she tried to replace Amanda for the day because she was sick :( *sympathy pills fly to manda* post comment

I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now [01 Apr 2004|04:56pm] [ mood | severely depressed ] [ music | The Killers-Somebody Told Me!!! *awesome song* ] Well hi there. I haven't updated about...wednesday...or today...maybe not even tuesday but I feel like I did tuesday...well this week has been majorly sucking. Last night I started a very bad habit that I need to stop. I'm not telling you what it is but it's not anything creepy, just so you don't get any wrong ideas...well last night I went shopping with jue jue bee and mum at kohls and pennys for clothes. Talk about making me feel like shit at kohls with stupid padded bra crap. This week has really sucked. I hate it. Then some stuff with my mom thinking stuff that didn't happen with these guys in the store saying something...and blah blah...well I got some clothes... Today was also a major suckfest. Everything this week has just sucked. Plain and simple. post comment

Hold Me Down [29 Mar 2004|06:13pm] [ mood | slap happy ] [ music | YYYs-Maps ] ELLO ELLO ELLO! Monday was pretty nifty. *homeroom-assigned seat :( So I just studied for English with Kt's cards *geometry-*REALLY* boring crap. I didn't even start the homework. Oh and of course I zoned out today. She was waaaaay over on the left of the left bored and then I snapped out of my day dream and was wondering how she managed to get all the way over to the far right of the right bored...turns out like 10 minutes passed... *health-BITCH! JARCO SUCKS! I HATE HER! She's going on about this 'your class is pretty good 'cuz there aren't a lot of obese people!' JACKASS! BITCH! I HATE YOU! Oh and then she was looking at our little diets for the weekend or whatever and I was looking at allison and talking to her for a bit so then her eyes go really big and go above my head and I know that Jarco is behind me looking at my paper and then I keep mouthing stuff like 'where is she!'' 'what is she doing!' and I move my head around to the left and she is right there! Like hovering right over my head and like inches away from me. AAAAAAAAAH!!! *dies* *lunch-baherm...WHY THE HELL DID I JUST TYPE THAT!...I get so lost when I type...okay well lunch was okay except that I got some of Allison's brownie and had a crazy little allergic reaction to it and had this funky rash on my hand/arm. *religion-uhm...boring stuff...study guide...placed some tiny cootie catchers on kt's head... *french-WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH HAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! Well we moved seats. I'm in the back left corner and I sit next to allison. Charlie is in front of me and McFarland is in front of allie then in front of them are kt and amanda. But aaaah! Charlie and Adam were doing partner work and such and it was insane. I had a hersey kiss on my desk so like "CAN I HAVE A KISS!" and blah blah then they were handing out paper like cards...oh and there was the part where Charlie stuck his hand in my book cover and just kept saying TOUCH IT! JUST TOUCH IT! POKE IT! COME ON! o.O Allison just had a straight face and I was cracking up. I just can't help myself. Oh and Allison got up to ask Mrs. Merlo something and then they're like 'good, now that your friend is gone...you're hottttt' And they said that in the beginning of the class to one of us and to Allie when I got up to do something...it's going to be very scary for the rest of the quarter... *science-crazy isomeres and buth, meth, eth, yl crap...wow that didn't make *ANY* sense...*EDIT*: I forgot that I had to pee! The whole freaking class I was like bouncing up and down with my legs crossed 'cuz I didn't wanna miss anything and I FINALLY GOT TO GO! WOOOOOH!!! *english-we took a Romeo and Juliet test and then wrote Dear Lady Abbey letters...uhm...I guess that's it. Talked to Shane about some stuff for a bit. He was making the meaning of life in a square of pins... Then the quest to find Jet's Pizza and yummy bread sticks. The End. post comment

I didn't go and visit my carnie family :( [28 Mar 2004|08:24pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | Jingle Bells-ME! ] Well hi there. I'll just tell you all about Sunday. I hate Sundays. Mum is always a total bitch. Well...Julie and I went to 9:30 mass. It was packed so we stood in the back. Well blah blah and then we went to Payless and Big Lots. I got Easter Mike and Ike's *yum* and Queen Anne's *YUMMIER!* and hair dye. So we went home and then Julie dyed my hair. Go Julie. I love you! She's the best sister ever. Hmm...oh well then more bitching from mum and we went to Grandma's. *Julie had to go to work so it was mum, pa, bryan, and me* Well I got to see Uncle Bob, Uncle Joe, and Aunt Kathy. Oh and my g-ma. Well it wasn't *that* depressing this time 'cuz she only repeated things a couple of times. It was one of her better days I guess. Oh and she ate the food which was also good. She turned 88 today. Well...hmm...nothing else really... Then we went to go and close the gates and pa's work. So we did that and then we went in the 15 MILLION DOLLAR mausoleum. It's the shit! I wanna move in there. I mean...get rid of all of the *cubby holes* and put like actual rooms in it and it would be the best house ever...well then blah blah and we went and drove and saw Eminem's new house--the one that they're building for him now. It's the shit also. But not as cool as the mausoleum. Uhm...then we went home and I saw PRECIOUS DANA and PRECIOUS JULIE! They are the shit also! Way better than the 15 million dollar mausoleum! :) And yahdah yahdah...they left to go to the carnie and I didn't go 'cuz I have homework *that I still should be doing...I will by...10:30, I swear* and I am still afraid that I'd puke 'cuz I've had SO MUCH SUGAR today. post comment

Sailormoon rocks! [27 Mar 2004|09:17pm] [ mood | is a mood having to pee? ] [ music | 311-Love Song ] I feel so stupid now 'cuz I didn't tape the episodes when they were on UPN. I'm gonna buy every single tape. I'm going back into my childhood. And I'm realizing that Sailor Moon is actually a really adult show with adult themes. I mean...not really for kids. And *gasp* I love the art and the plot and the characters...I love it :) Hee hee. Okay well today was nifty. Uhm...well we went and played tennis *me, kt, amanda, and allie* and that was fun. We "played" from like...3-5:30. And then Kt went with her aunt at 5:30 and then we drove Allie and Mana home. But not before we stopped at Wendy's!! *gasp* There was this guy with crazy ass pants! The back of one leg was like blue and the front was green and the back of the other leg was red and the front was yellow. It was hilarious! Talk about mid-life crisis! post comment

"Don't MAKE me touch your butt!" *quickly gets away* [26 Mar 2004|02:05pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | "Dawn we now our gay apparel FA LA LA LA!"-me! ] Hi there! I guess that I should update about yesterday....This bowl-a-thon stuff really messes your internal calendar thingy. I keep thinking that it's Saturday even though it's Friday. Well THURSDAY was okay. I don't think anything really interesting happened. I know that we had a arguement/disscussion about religion. Boy it was great fun! Hee hee. Bro Marty has no control over us, it's rather amusing. I can't really remember anything about the rest of the day...good fonzness while walking out. Oh and then I went to KT's at like 4:20. I got there early 'cuz at the time we only had 2 cars and 4 people who needed to go diff. places. Well I can't really put in *everything* that we did 'cuz that would just be pages and pages of stuff. I'll say...hmm...smelled each others socks, talked about guys, normal girl stuff. But we're not normal so it had a large bit of a twist. Oh yeah...I forgot that I ate about 2000 calories of Kt's food in like 15 minutes and was SO sick to my stomach. I thought I was going to puke. Uhm then Amanda came after we did the very scary abs thing. Kt and Allie know that I really have a *HUGE* stomach and I just suck it in all of the time. *skips ahead* We...more like they...made tacos and brownies and then we ate and had more fun and went to bed at like 11. Ugh. I can't sleep at other people's houses. I woke up about 10 times at Kt's! From 2-6 I woke up like twice or more an hour and it was really pissing me off. Well I woke up again at like 6 and Al was up so I asked her if she was gonna take a shower and she went and did so and then I took a shower and KT woke up. *Talk about a run-on sentence...* Well then the three of us went on a walk in the neighborhood which was really interesting because of Kt's "difficulties". And we came back and then Amanda was up and then she took a shower and uhm...talking and...waffles and such *YUM*. Oh and the whole brushing of teeth ordeal with me. Well then we left to go bowling for the BOWL-A-THON! WOOT WOOT. Well Marge was part of our team. Boy...fun. I mean...she only said/did a couple of *really* annoying things but her presence was just annoying...And she bowled so fucking slow! It took like a year to get it down to hit some pins. Well it was pretty okay. The positioning of lanes wasn't what I wanted but...eh. It was still okay. Not SUPER fun, but okay. Well then...at 11 we left and went to Big Boys and ate lunch. The...8 of us. Pam, Kt, Amanda, Allison, Rachel, Allison's mum, Kt's mum, and myself. Well...then we ate and Allie's mum drove me home and I got to see Bryan's new car. IT KICKS ASS! I LOVE IT SO FUUUUUUCCCCCKKKIIIINNNNGGGG MUCH! It's a black stratus and OMG OMG OMG! It ROCKS! I love it. *swoons to the car* 1 comment|post comment

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