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[14 Jan 2005|10:39pm]



puppy dog tails

[16 Dec 2004|05:32pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | oldsum41 ]

i want to meet an emo boy on myspace. but i wanna be his friend because i loveee ryan. :)

anyway, i know people still read this, how the hell are you guys?
<3 i love you all

puppy dog tails

[16 Dec 2004|05:32pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | oldsum41 ]

i want to meet an emo boy on myspace. but i wanna be his friend because i loveee ryan. :)

anyway, i know people still read this, how the hell are you guys?
<3 i love you all

puppy dog tails

[10 Nov 2004|04:36pm]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | coheed and cambria and the vacuum. ]

coheed is amazing.
my friends are amazing.
i love them.

puppy dog tails

[03 Oct 2004|09:26pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | finch ]

ryan makes me feel pretty.

i love him



swed. ?

bonfire was cool. it was really hot. i saw alot of people who i missed. like jason,kellym, and so forth.

high school bbbblows.

puppy dog tails

this is a joke. [16 Sep 2004|02:37pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | brand new ]

im going to neglect my lj for a while.

its like i update it every day and no one reads it.

but whatevv. its not like any one remebers i have one of these things..

its really funny how one day you can be totally fine with some one, and then the next your the one they now hate.

well, i hate you too.

yes, you think i dont know that my dad is dead?
yeah, like i wasnt even there when they buried him.

you have no idea how the fuck i feel. everday i wake up
and every day theres a moment i just want to die.
its not like i havnt ever thought about suicide.
because i have.

and yes. i have going to therapy.
therapy doesnt help you. it just makes you
sadder then you are. >_< i hate life.

i hate high school.
i hate bitches
i hate the fucking losers
at my school.

fuck you all.

puppy dog tails

[05 Sep 2004|08:09pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | brand new ]

i miss my blurty <3

live journal sucks ass.

and blurty is such a cool werd.

wtf is a live journal.



im done.
im emo.
im fucked.

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[15 Mar 2004|11:54pm]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | 311 ]


i hate life.

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[30 Jan 2004|08:08pm]
[ mood | hyper ]
[ music | finch- what it is to burn ]

im switching to livejournal bc im bored =p.

puppy dog tails

[29 Jan 2004|10:47am]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | HIM- ressurection ]

things i should of been doing today..
- getting up for school
- getting dressed
- going to school [ getting my NEW mest cd ? ]
- going to science =\
- going to ablock
- talking in ablock
-listening to music in ablock( HIM )
- going to music =[
- going to lunch and talking [ finally ;) ]
- going to social studies and listening to mr.capo lecture. =[
- kathe comming home with me ?
- playing guitar
-eating...of course =x

so here i am. i kept pressing the snooze button. =p im a lazy ass i noe. im dressed and all...but not at skool.
but im listening to maybe that counts. i dnt feel good anyway. i never feel good ? so maybe lawrence is right. ;) but yeah. im gonna go. and maybe go to school =[. i would be in....ablock...just about to leave for um music. great. later.

puppy dog tails

[28 Jan 2004|09:23pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | offsprings. ]

some one wanna make me a mixtape ? bc u love me ? ;)

yellowcard- far away?
startingline- im real
clash - dirty punk
offsprings- the hangover song
afi - i want a mohawk
nirvana- rape me
brand new - transit glory..gloria fades
brand new - shower scene
used- box of sharp objects
greenday- brat
patent pending - dont quit your day job
patent pending - cheer up emo kid.
mest- fucked up kid
him- razorblade kiss
blink 182- so sorry ,its over

and who ever u are i will love you ;) im gonna go shower. later.

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[28 Jan 2004|10:59am]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | HIM <3 - 6 6 6 ]

kings park school district - - c l o s e d . =)

wooo... ok who keeps commenting me and not leaving their name ? i noe its one of my yeah. its pretty lame if u cant leave your name. but yeah um. im bored...and im gonna go bc im gonna listen to him <3.

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[27 Jan 2004|03:49pm]
[ mood | crushed ]
[ music | billy talent. ]

im starting to hate things. alot of things.

but most of all...i hate how my mom is thinking about getting rid of...well...nala. =x okay.. its MY cat.
why did she have to wait 8 years to finally say shes thinking about getting rid of her ?

and i hate it how im never happy. and im never going to be happy. there is nothing to wake up to in the morning bc nothing ever changes. i wake up and its the same thing all over again. =[


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[26 Jan 2004|03:09pm]
[ mood | how about...UNLOVED. ]
[ music | HIM - razorblade kiss ] it that at lunch..i am always pushed away..i am never talked to..and i just sit there and listen
to you all complain. why ? why the fuck dont i say somthing ? why am i the fucking idiot that i am and listen to all you talk and talk and talk and i dont bother to open my mouth once? no one talks to me..yet no one calls me..
and your my " friends " yeah thats best make me laugh.. you like never invite me over your house. and its like always mine. well guess house isnt the new hang out spot now is it ? ITS GREAT TO KNOW THAT YOU MAKE PLANS ON FRIDAYS BUT DO NOT INCLUDE ME. and u make me sit at home. thanks alot.

KPFairy89: omg sorry kristina. you know you dont make a effort to talk to us.
i mean you are always at another table. i'm sure if you talked to us we'd talk back

none of them care about me. i do talk to them. and then they ignore me. and dont talk to me. there is no more " goons " . or the k whatever it was called. ok ? if u ppl see that im not dont even bother to ask me. you dont and u noe u dont.
thats why i have so much bottled up inside me . i never let anything out to you. bc u people dont care. good bye.

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[24 Jan 2004|12:38pm]
[ mood | high ]
[ music | billy talent. ]

dude. whole basement was like all smoked up. bc im so stupid. and i put somthing in the microwave....and i put it in for 10 minutes =x. and basement smelled like smoke. so i opened the windows...and the put the fan on...and shut the door to upstairs so that the smell wouldnt go doesnt smell like it anymore so im happy =) but yeah. i thought was would be somthing cool to write about. and today..

i h a v e . n o t h i n g . t o . d o.

;[. so it would be nice...if one of my buddies called me. but their not. cousins came..after the whole basement accident.. they went out yesterday and i didnt go bc i didnt feel good and they got me a billy talent shirt...THE ONE THAT MELISSA TOOK FROM ME. =) i might just frame this shirt. and then we watched bruce almighty ? yeah i fell asleep threw it at like 10:30. =x. and yeah. so here i am...nothing to do...( this is ur hint to call me ). later.

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[23 Jan 2004|02:18pm]
[ mood | cold ]
[ music | nofx =) ]

im so cold. ive been like cold since i woke up...i had a very weird dream kim and kathe. UR BAG IS PUNK! and mines well..preppy ;) i hate midterms...=[ i might have passed the math...scoreee..i kinda gave up on science. bc well...i dont really care about energy now do i? english was retarded? how is a whole midterm one essay? well it was. =x social is omg i like guys gay i think >.< i did ok , maybe.
and uh italian. no clue what i was reading..and i hadda write 2 essays in italian...failed. yeah. at like 10..all we did was sit in class and watch ...THE DEAD POET SOCIETY. yeah but i listened to billy talent <3 and played...
PAC-MAN...its new skool...not old skool =p...and even juliet said jason voorhees is hott =]..and then...kathe and kim came over for about 15 minutes. =[ and THEIR GOING TO THE ICE SKATING RINK TONIGHT. =[ i hate that place...but atleast they have somthing to do. im gonna go now. bc i dont feel great. =p later

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[20 Jan 2004|08:46pm]
[ mood | cold ]
[ music | <3 afi ]

=( ive been studing ever since kathe left.i hate math...i smell a 60 ? and im ok in english. im worried about italian. >.< im gonna fail. i noe. =[ is a bitch who i hate...she called my house. fucking idiot. i hung up on her. =p im ok. im better then yesterday. i dunno what was wrong.;p oh well. i do noe what was wrong..but if i write it in here..ill get critized. so fuck it. took my camera to school ;) i didnt know sam was taking pictures of me while i was talking to ms.marchessault. >.< but yeah. its ok.
now im going to study math. =p i talked to joe! i missed joeeee.hes cute. =) but hes about 20. im gonna go and hurt my brain. >.< ill forget by tommorow but oh well.
<3 late

puppy dog tails

[19 Jan 2004|12:57pm]
[ mood | fuck you ? ]
[ music | Lit- u make me complete ]

i hate being emo. i care too much and i shouldnt =[. its my fault for everything. i noe.
and im sorry that i care. im fucking losing every one. and i dont noe why. well im sorry.
and dnt tell me to cheer up emo kid. bc i fucking hate that song. it doesnt help and its gay.

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i am so bored [13 Jan 2004|10:52pm]
001) What time are you starting this?: 10:53 pm
002) Name?: kristina x_x
003) Date of birth?: October 24th
004) Sex?: female
005) Height?: 5'5
006) Eye color?: blue
007) Weight?: 121
008) Location?: NY
009) Where were you born?: saint johns hospital
010) Have you ever failed a grade?: not yet...
011) If you have, what grade did you fail?: =)
012) Do you have crush on someone?: yup.
013) Do you have a bf/gf?: dieeeee
014) If so, what is their name: ur mom.
015) How long have you been together?: > . <
016) What are you wearing right now?: my gangster blue plaid pj pants and my patent pending shirt =)
017) Would you have sex before marriage?: hmm...
018) Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: uh no ?
019) Are you a virgin?: =)
020) Do you smoke?: nottt realllyyyy ;D
021) Do you drink?: nopeee
022) Are you ghetto?: im as black as they get yo.
023) Are you a player?: nope
024) What are your favorite colors?: black,blue,silver
025) What is your favorite animal?: me ;)
026) Do you have any birthmarks?: none
027) Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?: no ?
028) Who are your best friends?: goooooniessss <3333333
029) Have you ever beat someone up?: yupp
030) Who do you talk to most on the phone?: hmm...kathe i think
031) Have you ever been slapped?: nooo
032) Do you get online a lot?: yeah
033) Are you shy or outgoing?: both ?
034) Do you shower?: uh yea .
035) Do you hate school?: yes.
036) Do you have a social life?: i stay at home and read emo poems.
037) How easily do you trust people?: easily i guess.
038) Have you ever lied to your best friends?: no...
039) Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?: yeah...ill never tell =)
040) Would you ever sky dive?: no.
041) Do you like to dance?: maybe.
068) Have you ever been out of state?: yeah
069) Do you like to travel?: not on planes. x_x
070) Have you ever been expelled from school?: a good kiddo.
071) Have you ever been suspended from school?: nope
071) Do you want to get out of your hometown?: yeah
072) Are you spoiled?: no ?
073) Are you a brat?: no
074) Have you ever been dumped?: yeah =[
075) Have you ever gotten high?: lmfao.
076) What's your favorite drink?: jones soda ;D
077) Do you like Snapple?: yup <333
078) Do you drink a lot of water?: ick.
079) What toothpaste do you use?: uhh i dont noe exactly.
080) What color is your toothbrush?: blue and white
081) Do you have a curfew?: nope..well somtimes
082) Who do you look up to?: kurt cobain.
083) Are you a role model?: no...
084) Have you ever been to Six Flags?: yeah =)
085) What name brand do you wear the most?: uhh i dnt noe...JUNK FOOD! ha .
086) What kind of jewelry do you wear?: bracelets,earrings,necklaces
087) What do you have pierced?: only my ears
088) What do you want pierced?: my lip <3
089) Do you like taking pictures?: yeah
090) Do you like getting your picture taken?: nooo.
091) Do you have a tan?: no. im pale.
092) Do you get annoyed easily?: not really
093) Have you ever started a rumor?: no im not mean =)
094) Do you have your own phone/phone line?: yeah ? sorta
095) Do you have your own pool?: yup
096) Do you have any siblings?: a brother...lawrence
097) Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: boxers ;)
098) Have you ever been played?: yeahh =[
099) Have you ever played anyone?: noo
100) Do you get along with your parents?: yeah .
102) How do you vent your anger?: i go around and beat people.
103) Have you ever run away?: noo =[ i have no where to go.
104) Have you ever been fired from a job?: no
105) Do you even have a job?: no? and i never had one ;)
106) Do you daydream a lot?: yeah...all the timeee
107) Do you have a lot of exes?: eh?
108) Do you run your mouth?: to people who deserve it
109) What do you want a tattoo of?: lyrics
110) What do you have a tattoo of?: the paleness of my arm.
111) What are your favorite flowers?: roses <3
112) What does your ex look like?: blond, tall , gay , and retarded ;)
113) What does your most recent crush look like?: <3
114) Have you ever been bitched out?: nopeeee
115) When was the last time you bitched someone out?: today :)
116) Are you rude?: ha..somtimes
117) What was the last compliment you received?: today...i dont noe if it was meant in a good way..." i like your shoelaces" x_x im emooo
118) Do you like getting dirty?: ? sure ?
119) Is your bellybutton an innie or outie?: innie
120) Are you flexible?: yeah
121) What is your heritage?: italian and german
122) What is your lucky number?:13
123) What does your hair look like right now?: its up...and wet...and messy and me.
125) When was your last real heartbreak?: can u shut up ?
126) Describe your looks?: tale...dirty blonde hair blue eyes...and thats it.
127) If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?: blue.
128) Would you ever date someone younger than you?: hmm...sure but not like..2 years younger then me.
129) Would you ever date someone older than you?: yes <3
130) When was the last time you were drunk?: ?
131) When was the last time you went on a date?: dunno
132) Would you rather give or receive oral sex?: .....
133) Have you ever given?: =p
134) Have you ever received?: ;D
135) Have you ever had an eating disorder?: nope
136) Do you have one now?: nope
137) How many rings until you answer the phone?: 2 ?
138) Have you ever been skinnydipping?: nooo
139) If yes, when was the last time?: neverrrrrr
140) Do you look more like your mother or father?: my daddd
141) Do you cry a lot?: im emoooo
142) Do you ever cry to get your way?: no
143) If you had to amputate one limb, what would it be?: what ?
144) What phrase do you use most when on the phone?: " i dont noe " or " yeah man i noe "
145) Are you the romantic type?: i dont noe.
146) Have you ever been chased by cops?: nopeee
147) What do you like most about your body?: my eyes
148) What do you like least about your body?: MY UGLYNESS ?
150) When was the last time you threw up?: uhhh last year ?
151) In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?: both <3
152) What do the shoes you last wore look like?: neon blue converses with cookie monster shoe laces and pink with white stars shoe laces <33333
153) Do you ever wear shirts to show your belly?:no.
154) What about cleavage?: ha
155) Is your best friend a virgin?: yeah.
156) Have you ever fucked someone up?: how ?
157) Have you ever been fucked up?: i dont noeee
158) What color are your underwear right now?: simpsons
159) What theme does your room have?: PINK. its gay. im painting it blue. =)
160) What size shoe do you wear?: 8 in a halffff
161) What jewelry are you wearing now?: braclets,necklaces
162) What is your screen name on AIM?: xxbleeding sky
163) Would you pick a wedgie in public?: lol uh no
164) How are you feeling right now?: cold
165) When was the last time you were at a party?: uhhh new years
166) Have you ever given a lapdance?: no.
167) What do you sleep in?: pj pants =) and shirts ?
168) Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?: yeah
169) What is one of your bad qualities?: i dont noe
170) What is one of your good qualities?: im nice =)
171) Would you marry for money?: nooo
172) What do you drive?: nothinggggg.
174) Are you more of a mama or daddy's child?: in the middle
175) What does your blurty name mean?: help me ? please ?
176) What's your favorite blurty to read?: uh...i dont noe. toms....
177) When was the last time you cried in school: when my grandma passed away.
178) Do you wear Chucks?: <3333333 I LOVE THEM .
179) For two million dollars, would you pose for Playboy?: uh yeah?
180) What time are you finishing this?: 11:15 pm.

now im going to watch.........FREDDY VS.JASON. good night.
puppy dog tails

today was a good day =] [13 Jan 2004|06:18pm]
[ mood | giggly ]
[ music | uhh emo tears. ]

today was okay.

ELA's- x_x ...they were gay. i finished early. i picked converses for the essay =) im gay i noe. after the ELA's we watched some movie..but all me,maria,sam and anthony did was take pictures =) oh yeah...90 pictures.

gym- i actaully uh moved ? yeah. great. i hate ryann and sheena. WOW. OKAY SO I HAVE TWO TYPES OF SHOE LACES...THAT DONT MATCH. i am very aware of that. dont stare at me. >.<

math - only 40 minutes today yayyy ;) i just sat there and did some sheet with sam..and then took pictures of the sun =) and the melted snow.

english- i hate ms.malone =D shes gay. uhhhh i wrote a poem. thats it.

i came home from school in like a blizzard ? and then it stopped and was sunny. weird. then me and my brother went to commack...and we got freddy vs. jason <3333333 so yeah. im gonna go. later

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