[30 Aug 2003|02:28am] [ mood | hungry ] As I look out the window of my bedroom, I open my secret compartment at the bench by the window and take out a fresh pack of cigarettes that I newly bought a few days ago. I tear out the transparent wrapper of the box and quickly discarded it. I take the box and give the top a hard pat to pack the tobacco inside the cigarette stick to make it last longer. As I draw out a stick of cigarettes, I take the cigarette stick and put it to my mouth holding it in place as I reach for my lighter in my back pocket which appears to be missing. "Fuck" I softly mutter a little irritated until I remember the matches. I reach over for them in my drawer by the bench and window. With the cigarette still in place, and the matches in my hand, I open the matches to pull out a stick of matches as I close the matches and turn it over to the back side where I'm able to strike the stick of matches. I give a quick strike as the stick lights up with fire. I bring it close to the cigarette and waited a few seconds before it lit up the end of the cigarette. I quickly diminished the flame at the end of the stick, with the end of the cigarette lit up and in my mouth I begin to inhale the smoke drawing it into my lungs as it traveled down my throat giving my throat a warm recognizable feeling. Seconds later I take the cigarette away from my mouth as I exhaled and drew out the smoke. With my stupidity I forgot to open the window, so I place the cigarette back in my mouth holding it in place as I free the latch and open the window widely. I take another drag of the cigarette which is in my mouth and draw the smoke out when I pull the cigarette away from my mouth. After what seemed like an eternity I take the cigarette butt and put it out. I make way towards my desk and with the programs opened and ready for my on my laptop I figured I'd start my journal entry for today. A contemplate a little, and I place my fingers firmly on the keyboard and I begin to type. Seeing as I've already mentioned I've been busy with working I've been most filming for Tru Calling to be exact. The whole cast has been so wickedly awesome. It insane really. Shawn Reeves, AJ Cook, Zack Galifianakis, and Jessica Collin's are the cast of Tru Calling. I swear never a dull moment with the gang. -Softly chuckles- Lately I've been promoting the show as much as possible. Friday night was especially one of those nights. I hit this roof-top party which was so mind blowing. The party has so many reports and shit all up in my face. I was like woah I'll answer your questions but you gotta slow down a little now for me here. Anyways, I've been getting interviews for some magazines and just doing my thing to let everyone know about the show. With the show airing on FOX in the Fall line-up I'm feeling ready to kick it in gear and continue on with what we've got. Seeing now that the time is like what 2:26 in the morning right now I better end my entry here and get some rest. I left out a soft yawn as I cover my mouth and close my eyes for a second. I crack my knuckles quickly and when I'm through I press the post entry button on my Semagic client to post up my entry. When it's up and posted I logout of the client and shut down my laptop and close my laptop putting it aside. Once aside I walk over to my bed and plop down. I get under the covers and I rest my head on my pillow as I close my eyes and go to sleep. post comment

[12 Aug 2003|02:02pm] [ mood | working ] I step inside the house from doing my work out and yoga as rush over to the frige for some water. I grab the water bottle and take a quick gulp. I head on over to my laptop and start it up with the programs as well. I login and with the progams up and running I start to type up my entry. Where do I begin? Hm.. I'll say this much I'm still in a fucken bad mood, but I'm calming down. Ames let me tour with her for a bit , and I love that girl seriously. She's so wicked. What can I say she's with a great guy, and I wish 'em better luck then I have. Ames did offer to get me a guy, but I think I just wanna be guy free for a bit. Don't think I'm ready for another episode of that. I got to talk to Aly. days ago, and I miss that gal. good to know she's here everything. I told her about what happen with J. and we caught up. Well, sorry to keep this short, but I'll write more later on today or tomorrow. After I finish my entry and quickly scan my entry. Though I ain't exactly to fond of how short it is I press the post entry button none-the-less. post comment

[20 Jul 2003|02:56am] [ mood | busy ] Walks over to the window cupping my Marlburro cigarettes in my hand. I undo the plastic wrapper and discard it. I give the cigarette box a tap on the top and open it. I take a stick of cigarettes and bring it close to my lips and into my mouth. I take my lighter from my pocket and flick it on. The flame touches the cigarettes lighting it up. I inhale the smoke and then I proceed to exhale. I talked to Jessie (Alba) early this mornin'. I'm hoping to catch up with her later on today. She's pretty cool though, so I ain't got any complaints. We didn't talk long, and I got to thinkin' that we should defintely do somethin' about that. Maybe we'll go shoppin' or some shit later if she's down for that. Lately I've been busy as always with production and all that shit. I hear while I was away that Ames missed me though. I so missed that girl as well. I so miss J. and yo it ain't fun bein' all alone here. Seriously with everything going on it's insane. Well, that is all for now. I press enter and once it's posted I continue to smoke by the window. when I finish the smoke I make my way to the couch and lie down and sleep. post comment

My day. [08 Jul 2003|12:48pm] [ mood | busy ] -I get the laptop goig and start my entry. Before I do that Wes jumps up on my lap, so I give him a quick pat and go to the kitchen to get him some food. With that being done I get back to the laptop and start that entry.- Lately I've been busy goin' over the scripts and shit for the show Tru Calling which will be airing on FOX in the Fall line-up for prime time. I've also been filming some scenes with the rest of the cast. The cast is so wickedly awesome it's just insane. With the hetic shit goin' on I spoke with Ames yesterday. We talked and I gave her some advice. I wish I could say more, but right now I'm off 'cause I need to get my ass to the sutdio. I swear I'll update after I finish the first set of filming for today. -I finish my entry and close my laptop. I pack my laptop in the case for it when that's done I walk out the door and hop in my car. I place the case with the laptop firmly on the passenger seat next to be and I start the car. When it's reved up to go I peel out of the drive-way- 2 comments|post comment

[19 Jun 2003|11:09pm] Well, what can I say Faith is just the cutest thing I swear. If you already didn't know Faith was a kid that J. (James) and I found while we were at a park. She had approached us when she saw me playin' with Wes the puppy. I thought she was so adorable when I saw her and J. thought so too. After talkin' to her we discovered she was lost. It was only when she visited me in the hospital later that night that she told us more information about her parents. With the information she gave us we found out she was abandoned by her parents. Well, here we are takin' care of her as if she was our very own. She's currently with Jessie right now being taken cared of until Aly. takes over. Benji will probably get her later on tonight or tomorrow morning so that she could stay over with him for the weekend. I swear people have taken such a fondness to Faith it's so touchin'. She informed me she's got a new screen name though Crayola Faith. That's all for now I'll write later or in the morning. post comment

Try walking a day in my shoes [10 Jun 2003|01:42am] [ mood | pessimistic ] I'm pleased to say Wrong Turn came out, and I found that so satifying. On that day however, I was busy at a radio station and doing a live interview on E! News when it came out. Yeah that's right promoting the movie shamelessly when I can. Other than that I got a huge surprise on monday last week which I'll reveal in due time. -Smirks- Anyways other than that surprise I went to the 2 Fast 2 Furious Premiere on tuesday the 3 of June. Lots of people showed up with was wickedly satisfying. I swear the turn out was so huge. They even had an after party, but I didn't attend sadly enough. I didn't get a chance to catch up with Paul and talk to him. On the 4 of June though J. and I went to the park to let Wes the puppy get some air and excerise. Anyways we met up with this kid, who we later found out was lost. I asked J. if it was alright to bring the kid to the house. He thought was a great idea so we did. At one point I brought the girl to the guestroom and told her a story. When I finished she asked if she could call me mommy. I smiled at her and let her call me that. J. was there at the doorway the whole time, and she gladly referred to him as daddy. Before I left her to take a nap I promised her I'd wake her up for dinner and play with her until we'd bring her home the next day. I asked her what she wanted for dinner and decided to do some groceries.On the way back well, you what the psycho bitch Kat. did. Well, with that shit I ended up at a local hospital. Now ain't that a bitch? I don't know what happen during the time I got hit or what happen on the way to the hospital, but what I do know is that I saw J. and the little girl from the park in my hospital room. The next day however, he went to this convention with the kid named Faith. They we there and surprised me today at the hospital. I even convinced them to break me outta this hell hole of a hospital. I swear I couldn't take another minute I was just goin' insane. Anyways it's good to be home. 1 comment|post comment

My So Called Life [20 May 2003|08:20pm] [ mood | amused ] Well it became official when FOX announced the fall lineup. FOX had set up a special presentation on friday that I went to, and it was so wickedly insane. The countdown to the preimere of Wrong Turn is comin' soon which is so exciting. May 30 is when the movie will be released, and I can hardly wait. Other then the release of the movie I spoke with Hiliary during this past week and went through some whole weird thing where the hotel that J. and I were staying in had suddenly lost it's power. I wasn't gonna trip over that fact, but the thing is we were the only ones the power went out on. At one point we realized that Wes was missing and must have gotten out. We made our way to the front door banging our foot here and there on a coffee table or whatnot. As we got to the hall we saw lights on everywhere but our room, so we made our way to the elevator and tried to proceed to the lobby, but we got stuck in the middle of some floors. It was so unreal to me that all this was happening. After a little bit I tried to calm down and prevent myself from freaking out. I was finding it a little hard to breathe while being stuck in that forsaken elevator. Anyways after some time J. tried to console which helped because he held me close until the elevator got started again. Other then that incident among other things I remembered that tonight is the final episode of Buffy, so I'm hoping that people will watch it. It's the final good-bye to Buffy and I'mma search for Sarah so that we could all watch it together. 1 comment|post comment

[16 May 2003|10:14am] [ mood | accomplished ] C E L E B R A T E Well last night was a call for celebration. FOX has made an announcement on the upcoming shows in their lineup that they'll be picking up, and the pilot "Tru Calling" in which I star in will be airing in the fall lineup on tuesdays. As for tonight be sure to watch for me as I host Interview With The Vampire tonight 8 ET/PT on UPN, not to mention I'll also appear on Last Call With Carson Daily tonight as well. We filmed the episode for Last Call With Carson Daily days ago in Vegas which was too sweet. I'll be the one in the black tank top with the pants meeting people like Fred ReRun from That 70's Show and Carmen Electra. 1 comment|post comment

My Awesome Days [13 May 2003|02:22am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Good Charlotte - Young and the Hopeless ] What can I say? New York has been wickedly amusing. I do, however miss Los Angeles. While I've been in Los Angeles I've kept in touch with some friends of mine whom I haven't seen in such a long ass time. New York's been nothin but fun and relaxation for me. I know that J (James) would agree with me about that. A few nights ago I was sleeping in my bed and J. was in the shower while I was asleep. I was havin' a nightmare that was so vivid. In the dream I had I felt I was runin' away from somethin' in my dream that kept chasin' me. It was like so unseen evil or some shit after me. While I was dreamin' my heart was poundin' really fast as if it was racin' a thousand miles a second. The dream was so intense it was insane. I mean the real felt all the more real to me. What did wake me up from the dream, however was a soft voice callin' out my name sweeping me away from the dream state I was in. I slowly opened my eyes, and I straight sat up on my bed with my heart pounding so fiercely. J. was trying to calm me down while I was trying to get my heart rate to normal. He asked what I was dreaming about, and I explained to him the events in my dream. When I finished explaining I asked "How long have I been out?" J. turned to me and replied "I'm not sure, I took a shower then came in here and just..watched..for a few minutes, then you woke, " I smirked as we went to the living room to take my mind off the dream. In the living room we watched the second season dvd of Buffy in which Faith first appeared. While we were watching I rested my head on his shoulder, and I put my arms around his waist while he put his arms around me and rested his head lightly on top of mine. After some time I noticed that J. looked tired, so I mentioned to him that he should get some rest since he looked like he needed it. The next thing I know J. turns off the t.v and turns to me and carries me to my bedroom while gently resting me on my bed. J. then walks to my doorway and leans on it J. looks at me and says "Hmm..not sure if you wanted that, but..to late now" as he stuck his tongue out at me. I stuck my tongue right back out at him as he left to go to his room. On friday morning I woke up to J. and Wes playing in the living room. I greeted the both of them as went to the kitchen. While I was in the kitchen I thought I'd feed Wes, so I took the doggie bowl and filled it with water and the other bowl was filled with his favorite doggie treats. I called out to Wes and he bolted to the kitchen and started to ravish his food. I gave Wes the last of the food, so J. and I decided to go to the store to get more food for him. In the car on the way we were joking around and at one point J. was just looking outside the window. J. looked like he got somethin' on his mind, so I asked him "What's on your mind J.? Someone went all deep in thought, on me here." His answer to that took me by surprise because he said "What you'd look like in a wedding dress." He blinked then continued " Boy did that sound out of line..sorry., " I told him not to be sorry then I decided to tell him a story 'bout way back in the day when I was around the age of 10. I said "You know when I was a lil girl I remember these girl playin' dress up and talkin' 'bout how'd they want their weddin' ta be when they were older. They'd even play dress up and do those pretend wedding's and all that. I'd always watch them curiously wonderin' what was with the weddin' fascination and I saw it was some fanasty that they swooned over, and now I think I see where they're comin' from. I mean the marriage life seems all bliss and everything, so I can see how'd they want that." With these word he sat up and replied "Yeah" as I continued on with the story. "I mean I thought it was so insane at first, but then I realize that maybe there was somethin' to the insanity. I mean back then I woulda thought marriage isn't for me, but I mean I was like what 10 at the time? The more I think 'bout it I mean it doesn't sounds as insane as it did when I was younger." When I finished my story we ended up talking more about marriage until we got to the store. While we were at the store during one point we got to talking about babies. I don't know how the subject first started, but I do know that it came up. While we were talking about kids a young girl around the age of 10 spotted J. and I getting the dog food. When J. spotted her, he immediately hid behind me. She came towards me and I smiled at her. When the girl got closer she clinged to my leg. (Is it just me or do people feel the need to cling to me? - laughs- ) I smiled down at her and kneeled down to her level and asked her what her name is, which turned out to be April. As we talked J. watched us and moved away from hiding. When April saw him I swear she was drooling and everything it was just too cute. She's such a cute kid it was insane. They started to talk and she asked him if he could talk in his Spike voice in which he did. After a few minutes her mom called to her and both of us watched and waved good-bye to her as she left. As she left we got our things ready and paid for the items we got After paying we hopped into the car and drove back to the hotel where Wes was waiting for us on the couch in the living room where we has left him earlier. post comment

The Publicity Life [04 May 2003|05:21pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Good Charlotte - Young and Hopeless ] The Shivers mag. should finally be out in stores and they did an interview with me. The whole interview that went on was wickedly awesome. The people doing the interview and all that were very out-going and friendly. I hope to do another interview with 'em soon. I think they should get that at least. The whole interview was mainly about my actin' career when I started on Buffy in the 3rd season when I was 18. They also talked 'bout Bring It On; how I did the The New Guy and City By The Sea at the same time; and the upcomin' movie I'm in Wrong Turn. Speakin' of Wrong Turn the movie will premiere in theaters everywhere on May 30, which I'm so lookin' forward to. They've got some publicity goin' already for the movie and it should pick up. Their has been talk 'bout not puttin' out a trailer, because the big shots the MPAA who were reviewin' the trailers said it was too intense. I mean what do they expect the movie is rated "R." They've seen three different trailers and they still won't approve it. With publicity goin' on they've got an official site for Wrong Turn. It's got the story plot, the cast and crew bio, a gallery, wallpaper, and other stuff. post comment

Damn, The Past Two Wickedly Sweet Days [01 May 2003|08:56pm] [ mood | loved ] Thank Goodness It's Friday April 25, 2003 Going To The Chapel And We're Gonna Get Marrrried! An old friend of mine got married, and J. escorted me to the weddin'. It was the weddin' of my friends Jessie and Dean. Jessie was so beautiful in her dress, and Dean was so handsome in his tux. The ceremony was just so beautiful that I'll admit I did have a tear here and there. I was the one that introduced the two since they were both my friends. Those two were just inseparable and didn't realize they had feeling for each other till like some time ago. so the two of them getting' married was such a blessin'. At the reception those two were just too sweet it was so cute. J. and I sat down at one of the tables for the reception when we got there, I gave him the background on Jessie and Dean, and at one point I was called up to the stage to sing to the bride and groom. I got up from my seat and made my way to the stage. At the stage I took the mic. and said "I'm standing here today to congratulate my two friends, Jessie and Dean. They've been friends, lovers, and now husband and wife. This song is dedicated to them and to my best friend J."With that J. smile at me from his seat and, I began to sing. ( For all the times you stood by me. For all the truth that you made me see. For all the joys you brought to my life. For all the wrong that you made right. For every dream you made come true. For all the love I found in you, I'll be forever thankful baby. You're the one that held me up, never let me fall. You're the one who saw me through, through it all. ) When the song finished everyone was clapping loudly, then I walk back to the table where J. was waiting for me. He watched me as I came back to the table and said "Girl, you kicked ass! That was great! " -laughs- I thanked him, and that's when the food came. We began to eat to the dinner that was prepared for us, and J. was just enjoyin' his meal and drowning the rest of his drink. At one point he then went all Dr. Seuss on me and said "Yes.Pig. I am." I then asked him ' is someone getting' all Dr.Seuss on me?" His reply, "like food, I do." -lightly laughs- After that a person made an announcement at the mic. that the bride and groom were going to have their dance. We both look at the married couple dancing and then J. looked at me just watchin' and studying' me quietly. As I watched the married couple I mentioned to J. that they've been best friends for years, and I was the one who introduced them. With that he said, "they fell in love?" I told him that's what happened. J. was curious so he asked, "when did they find out they wanted to be more than friends?" I stated, 'this past year of being friends." With my response he became lost in thought. I asked him what he was thinkin' and, J. then looked back at the couple and said "nothing." With that I asked him if he wanted to dance, so we made our way to the dance floor. ( Someday.. when I'm awfully low, when the world is cold, I will feel a glow just thinking of you, and the way you look tonight! ) With that song came this song: ( You say you've seen too many things, that turn out to be too good to be true. Against your better judgment, opened up your heart, 'til you found the joke was on you. Looking out on the rest of our lives, If we're gonna be together or apart About the only way I know how to come, is right straight from my heart. I want you now, I'll show you how I can be the man you need me to be I've been around, but now I've found that you're the only one for me. ) I put my arms lightly on his neck while he slipped his arms lightly on my waist. I put my head on his chest and we began to sway in time to the song. While we were dancin' I noticed that he would glance at the bride and the groom then at me. I glanced at Jessie and Dean and J. asked, "you think you'll ever get married E?" I answered "I figured someday I would." J. then randomly asked "how long we've been friends.?" We've been friend for a few years" I replied to him. I look up at J. and asked 'can you picture yourself like them?" I was referrin' to Jessie and Dean. J. said 'love like that?" I noded and said "yeah." J. response to that was "depends on the person." I then said 'I'm sure you'll find that person" and to that he softly said "I think I already have." I heard what he said, so I looked up at J. and said "you think you already have?" With that he looked away from me and didn't say anythin'. I asked ' so who's the lucky gal that got you all smitten?" From there he started to stutter "uhh..no..no one..I just..er..meant..uh." I quirked an eyebrow and asked him if he wanted to go for a walk on the balcony. He noded, so I pulled away lightly and took his hand leading him to the balcony. Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't? Or saying nothing and wishing you had? When we got to the balcony I asked about the gal. J. then turned to me and said " She..she doesn't feel that way about me.. " I asked him "did you asked her?" then said "how could she not fall for you? " with a soft smile on my face I gazed at him. With that J. looked at me slowly and said "you tell me" from that point I told him that askin her can't hurt. I he then replied to me " ..what if she doesn't feel like that? There's friendship there, why would you want to ruin that? " With that I said "If you give her a reason to let her know that it'd be so worth it, and she'd probably change her mind" He then glanced down at me and asked if I knew who she was yet. I thought 'bout it for a sec. then J. glances away to not keep eye contact with me. I turned to him and said "come on J. be straight with me because if it is who I think it is I'm sure she feels the same way and is too afraid to admit it." He looks at me and softly says "I love you, I'm in love with you" I was taken back by what he said, so I replied 'I love you too." He looked at me, and trailed off while I noded my head lightly. I told him that all the time together made me realize it. From there J. asked "what now?" I smirked pulled him close and said "this" while I lightly pulled him close I gave him a soft kiss. Well what happened after that came the agreement that we were gonna date and take it slow. The whole night was a shock to him as well as I. I started to fall for him with the time that we spent together and it made me realize what was in front of me this whole time. I've been burned twice and I thought I couldn't open my heart the same way again, but with J. it felt like opening my heart was all I wanted to do. I mean we've been through everythin' together from the joys and heartaches that come along with life and love. I couldn't think of anyone I rather have a relationship with than him. ( Here's some pics. from the weddin' ) Gotta Love Saturday April 26, 2003 I had gone out and when I came back I saw J. on the couch watchin' some movie. He had a bowl of fresh popped popcorn on the livin' room table when I came in. I smiled and asked him what he was watchin' and he told he wasn't watchin' anythin'. I knew him to well to know that he was watchin' something. -smiles- As I made my way to the livin' room he went in front of the television to try to cover up the movie he'd been watchin'. I tiled my head to the left a little and saw my face on the screen wearing a bikini not to mention I heard a very familiar voice which was mine. I knew right away he'd been watchin' Bring It On I thought it was so cute of him to do that. Anyways after having that talk 'bout him watchin' the movie J. decided that he wanted to go to the theater. As soon as he said that we began to head out the door to the nearest theater. On the way there, however J. sang the 'Oh Mickey" song because it was stuck in his head. At the theater we decided to watch Phone booth and get some popcorn along with sodas. While we were pickin' the movie he started to be random. J. raised an eyebrow, looked at me, and said "your hair rocks..why is that? What shampoo do you use? Why doesn't my hair rock like that?" I looked at him and quirked an eyebrow and answered, " Herbal Essence" as he touched my hair lightly. He asked if he was freakin' out 'bout the whole hair thing, and I softly laughed with a slight nod. As we bought the tickets and headed to the movie room he has his arms around my shoulder while I placed my arms around his waist. During the movie J. was getting' all smooth talker on me which was so cute. Well other than the smooth talkin' this guy in the theater was bein' such a major ass I swear he was so gonna get a beat down if J. hadn't convinced me to not kick is sorry ass. Anyways the whole incident made us want to go somewhere else. J. wanted to watch some movies back at the hotel, so we headed back there. As we got to the hotel we raced into the elevator and from there to the hotel door. At the hotel room I set up the movie while J. played with his dog Wes. We both were on the couch watchin' the movie, and I could really tell he was into the movie everytime he saw a certain character named Missy. As we were on the couch he had his arm around my shoulder as I placed myself closer to him. While the movie went on he mentioned about how we'd never meet if it hadn't been for Joss, and with that he looked at me and said "I wouldn't even been able to do this" and he kissed me softly. From there we stayed close to each other and continued to watch the movie and fell asleep in each others arms. 3 comments|post comment

The Big Apple [01 May 2003|08:50pm] [ mood | relaxed ] Our Time In New York While in New York one night J. (James) and I were just hangin' in the hotel and I let Wes, the dog, that J. brought with him out of the hotel, so Wes went out to get some air. J. got totally freaked 'bout it, so I had to explain to him that Wes was just in the lobby getting' some air. By that time it was already late, so I when J. went to get Wes I fell asleep on the couch. When J. came back I was still asleep and later woke up to Wes who jumped onto the couch I was sleepin' on. I saw J. who was almost on the floor, somewhat cuddled next to me. Since I was woken up by the dog he was about ready to wake J. up to the same wake up call. I didn't want J. to wake up, so I took Wes and brought him into my bedroom. Since it was cold I brought a pillow and blanket from my room, and I went to the livin' room were J. was still asleep and wrapped the blanket around him and wished him good night. J. woke up and he said good night back. I thought he was asleep, but he wasn't. I don't remember exactly how it started, but a pillow fight had erupted and feathers were everywhere. Some time later we couldn't sleep. so J. suggested that we go for a walk around Central Park. I agreed, so we got ready and made our way to Central Park. While we were Central Park we took a walk and we ended up on the swings where we'd talk and swing lightly back and forth and he said that he didn't "think he could live without me". After some time we were just layin' on the grass just lookin' up and watchin' the stars up in the sky which was so awesomely beautiful.. At that moment I couldn't think of any place I'd rather be then right there at that moment. The next thing we know we watched the sun come up from the horizon. I was thinkin' shit I can't believed we stayed up all night in Central Park. With the sun risin' we got up and went to the nearest Starbuck for some mornin' coffee because someone went all caffeine happy and took the last of the caffeine. -softly laughs- Earlier that day J. went back to Los Angeles. I was kickin' back in the livin' room watchin' some t.v, when J. came back from Los Angeles late, later on that night. When he came through the door I got up from the couch to greet him. J. had told me 'bout what happened in Los Angeles, and what he did while he was there. He then he asked if I knew the full in dept story 'bout his father. I only knew the basic details, but he revealed everything. After his story was done I got up from the chair that I was sitting in when he first started the story, and I went to hug him. J. then put his head on my shoulder and mumbled "I love you" I replied back "I love you too," and he lightly pulled back from the hug and looked at me and said "I was wrong .. I said I don't think I could live without you .. I know I couldn't live without you .." When he said that my eyes started to water, and I told him it was so sweet that he thought that, and I said I felt the same way. J. then sniffled and said "what would I do without you?" I then said " you'd go on with life because I'd want him to." With that he tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear and kissed me lightly on the forehead. ( Here's some pics taken in New York ) post comment

Todays Events [24 Apr 2003|02:54pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | The Song I Wrote ] Thursday Tonight I'm going to be going out with J. ( james ) We're in New York as of now, and we're having a wickedly sweet time. -Dress up and get ready -Go to a wedding -Go to the reception -Have a wickedly sweet time! post comment

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