Monday, October 2nd, 2006
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3:23 pm - thought of waiting till it was ready...
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Tuesday, September 26th, 2006
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4:54 pm - e journey ends...
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Close to a year ago, on 2nd November 2005, I wrote…
“I must say I am looking forward to the year 2006. Yeah it’s definitely going to be an eventful year. It could in fact be a turning point in my life.
Some events:
*Germany 2006 (I must confess that as compared to France 98, my level of excitement/ interest is somewhat bleak)
*Turning 21 (ahh…yes…the inevitable…I can honestly say I have not started freaking out about it YET…however discussions have already started…not on my part)
*Being eligible to vote (well it comes with the territory of turning 21)
*Getting my driver’s license (already signed up…I reckon I should be getting it sometime early 2006…hopefully…*crossing fingers*...its my personal aim to pass it the first time ard)
*Continuing studies abroad (still in application process…hopefully everything turns out fine…a critical decision…hoping it turns out to be the right one)
*If application goes through will miss out on:
Celebrating Deepavali with family(a definite first),
Hari Raya visiting with cedar peeps,
New Year (07) with family(another first…actually new yr 05 I spent it alone on a train…but then again…that cannot be counted),
my first yr-end bonus(that would be 2 yrs in a row that I’ll be missing out on that…drats!),
after August babies’ bdaes…
* A whole load of firsts to experience”
And now a year or so later…
Germany 2006 has ended…Italy, being e deserving winner I must say…My favourite teams, namely Argentina and Holland, were disappointing…only consolation was that Argentina’s performance was much appreciated by all…
Yea I turned 21…had a party and all…e entire day was pretty much a blur to me…went thru it numb…but e presents were awesome…some really left me speechless…for a gal who doesn’t usually receive that many presents(or even a few for that matter), I was overwhelmed…I’m not sure how e party turned out…gotta ask those who turned up…I’m just glad my parents were happy at e end of the day…since e party was more their thing anyway…I am after all, a rather simple and boring gal…he he…
Voting…insignificant for e time being…
Driving license….Ahhhhh….after god knows how many years(I’ve wanted one since I know what a car is I think)….i finally got it…on e second try tho…drove terribly on e first try…1st Aug 2006…a day to forget….5th September 2006…a day never to be forgotten!!!! He he…
Studies…ahh well…I am writing this from UK aint i…ha ha…how surreal…
I din really miss e aug and sept babies as I had predicted…actually I did miss them…since I wasn’t physically present for both and I even forgot that e day was actually 6th sept…sry yanie!...sry shrini!...i still can’t believe I din realize what day it was…
Other than that, I am definitely gonna be missing out on all the others that I had mentioned…
And with that, I end my journey on blurty…
Au revoir…
current mood:  exhausted
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Tuesday, August 15th, 2006
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12:07 pm - truth is...
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this is NOT an emo entry...
i repeat...
THIS IS NOT AN EMO ENTRY...
and so...here goes...
*masquerade* or *facade*
how does one live with the fact that he is an utter phoney...when every single action of his is a contradiction...how can he go about helping others (or atleast trying to) when he can't even help himself...even worse...how can he simply sit by and watch and be fully aware of his mistakes/hurt he is causing others and do absolutely NOTHING about it...
*priorities*
y can't everyone just respect the fact that everyone has their own priorities...and not doubt them...and that sometimes its only the ORDER that is different...
*messed up*
that i am...
wait...
did i mention that this was NOT an emo entry?
he he...
current mood:  rejected
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Wednesday, July 26th, 2006
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12:00 am - destiny...
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do you believe in destiny?
hmmmMMMMmmm...
so what is mine?
a passing cloud...
go figure...
current mood:  gloomy
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Sunday, July 23rd, 2006
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5:14 pm - juz a thought...
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as i was waiting for the bus to get to work today morning, i wondered...
y is it the double-digit buses are called exactly the way they ought to be called while the triple-digit buses are called by each digit individually...i tried to crack my head to think of a triple-digit bus that was called exactly the way it should be called and a double-digit bus that was called by each of its digit individually...but could come up with none...
hmmMMMmmm...
current mood:  contemplative
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Saturday, July 1st, 2006
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10:46 pm - it's soon...
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Saturday, June 10th, 2006
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12:01 am - brilliant...
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" I think prime numbers are like life. They are very logical but you could never work out the rules, even if you spent your time thinking about them."
- Christopher John Francis Boone (The Curious Incident of THE Dog in The Night-Time)
ps* A MUST READ!!!!
current mood: exhausted
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Wednesday, May 31st, 2006
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1:17 am - i want milo....*hint*
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hAPpY BiRthDay AZILA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he he...sorry huh din manage to write this on the 30th itself...busy day...just got back an hr back...and had to settle something b4 finally getting down to writing this...
k i haven't been giving my journal much attention for some time now...so some of the online bdae greetings are loooong overdue...thus, gonna give em a skip...those concerned, pls dun be offended k...
alritey back to the bdae gal...altho you did something illegal sometime back...which i didn't bother to even tho i wanted to very much...ur FINALLY legal to do it now...he he...
oh well, i'm really glad your chosen path is what you want and that you are very much enjoying it...i certainly hope everything works out for ya just as you want it to...
take care gal...
current mood: exhausted
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Tuesday, May 16th, 2006
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4:51 pm - d-day...
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Saturday, May 6th, 2006
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12:18 am - what a bummer...
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you have to think the way i think, in order to understand why i feel the way i feel...
current mood: crushed
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Tuesday, May 2nd, 2006
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9:36 pm - it's been a loooong road...
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i was bored...
so...
i started consolidating pictures and clips from poly years...
hmmMMMmmm...
we've been through a lot eh...it all started coming back to me...especially when i saw the tribute videos...law inc years...all the events...we may not have seen it then and may have even been in denial...but all those events were US...pure US...can't say much abt the 3rd year...but 2nd year...woah...that sure was one helluva year...
i'm definitely honoured and grateful to have had a part to play in that year...all the events...the various teams...though it more or less was the same people all the time...but what we failed to acknowledge was...it was quite a large number of people...
dunno whether we made a difference to others...but there was definitely a difference made to those involved...we had fun din we?...we definitely aggravated each other to the core at times...but still stuck together and gave each other a pat on the back after each event or competition...
it was not only abt the main committee...e committee comprised of more than 20 people...everyone involved had a part to play...and played their part they did, very well indeed...
its been a loooong road...
current mood:  nostalgic
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Tuesday, April 18th, 2006
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11:58 pm - i miss it A LOT...
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woke up today in cold sweat...totally queasy...had a horrid dream...would be wrong to classify it a nightmare since it does not quite fit the usual stereotype of one...
as if my thoughts haunting me weren't enough...now i have to dream abt it...what next? it becoming a reality???
oh boy...
current mood:  sick
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Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
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3:15 am - dazed, confused...
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it's 3:16am...listening to class 95...on my bed with mr lappy...(ala carrie bradshaw???)...wishing it would rain...just love the sound of rain and the sight of raindrops trickling down the windows...
aite now that i've got the ambience out of the way...let me get down to writing an entry...
let me start by shouting out to all that...i'm UNEMPLOYED!!!
yea...it's over...after 6 mths...i walked away...i suppose most (as good as ALL) wanted me to leave like 4 mths ago...but i stayed on...
coz back then i wasn't convinced that there was reason enuf to leave...and thus i stayed...even through the breakdowns (FIVE in total)...i stayed on...
and one fateful day...it happened...i saw no more reason to stay...i tendered the next day (after a sleepless night of pondering over it over and over again)...
even after all that...leaving was hard...really hard indeed...especially when i'll never know what i could have done differently...oh well...
tts the end of that chapter i guess...
not knowing it at all...
is far worse than knowing it...
i was watching this movie about child abuse earlier...and it made me question my chosen path...one which i have questioned on numerous occasions...one which i still question actually...
social service...hmmmMMMmmm...i know deep down...that's what i want to do...hmmmMMMMMmmmm...
i'm disappointed...
1 mth 29 days...gawd, that's SOOOOOON!!!!!!!! yikes....
current mood:  disappointed
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Sunday, April 9th, 2006
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12:42 am - love this song...
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"The Way You Look Tonight"
Some day, when I'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you
And the way you look tonight.
You're lovely, with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.
With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fears apart
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
Touches my foolish heart.
Yes you're lovely, never, ever change
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it?
'Cause I love you
Just the way you look tonight.
With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fears apart
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
Touches my foolish heart.
Yes you're lovely, never, ever change
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it?
'Cause I love you
Just the way you look tonight.
Just the way you look tonight.
Darling
Just the way you look tonight.
- Harry Connick Jr.
current mood:  thankful
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Friday, March 31st, 2006
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10:45 am - in the words of rosita..."GOOD MORNING SUNSHINES!"...
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I was at Watsons yesterday with Shahana…basically walking down every single aisle and all…she was checking out the products…and then we came the section called “sun care”…so I asked her…does it mean all the products are like for the sun to care for itself…Well needless to say, she thought I was crazy and felt my forehead to see if the temperature was normal…
But of course I did not back down…So I went on explaining my observation…take a look at how all the aisles are labeled…”skin care” is the section where products on display are meant for applying to your skin…”hair care” is the sections where products on display are meant for application to you hair…so coming back to my point…wouldn’t “sun care” basically be implied as PRODUCTS ON DISPLAY MEANT FOR APPLICATION BY THE SUN….
Oh well…bottomline….I think they should rename that section…ha ha…so that weirdos like me will not raise questions and make ‘intelligent’ observations…then again they can just choose to ignore me…which is probably what they would do anyway…
current mood:  chipper
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Wednesday, March 8th, 2006
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9:50 am - bored as usual...
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Got this off dila’s blog…
ha ha ha ha….
turnips eh…hmmMMmm…
lol…hahahahahaha….the song is soo running thru my head…”TRANSFORMERS, ROBOTS IN DISGUISE!”
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Tuesday, March 7th, 2006
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12:31 pm - killing time...
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30 mins to lunchtime...
and NOOOO...i'm not slacking off...i just haven had much work to do these past few weeks...
not too sure what to write actually...oh well...let's see...yesterday, driving din go too well...was rather pissed at myself...not sure whether was it coz i was tired, the car being very hard to get used to, the instructor(first time getting him), my mind elsewhere(eeeks i soo hope i wasn't stoning...actually i was feeling rather zombified), or...or...oh well...perhaps it was just a bad lesson on my part...shall make amends on wed...
the weekend was...hmmm...pleasant?
fri was nice...great company....first time combi i realised...worked...sat was productive...had a fun and pleasant time(on both instances)...sun...oh darn lazy sun...driving...tv...cleared out all my tp notes...went out in the evening...company was great yet again...
ha ha...bottomline...the weekend left me :)
i took 20 mins to write the above...gosh...i'm getting bad at this...
take care!
current mood: thankful
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Tuesday, February 28th, 2006
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10:07 am - unloved...nah...just 'unloved'...
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today marks the last day of my 'unloved' mth...
is it sheer coincidence? i'm not sure...but february has somehow never been kind to me over the years...most of the most emotionally draining issues in my life occured in the month of february...
ha ha...ironic how feb is supposed the month of 'love' or so they claim but yet its the total opposite for me...
anyway i'm looking forward to march...gonna be drained physically and mentally...but like i told yanie...it's prolly what i need...
i am reading Nicholas Sparks' ' The Wedding'...and as i read it...i'm starting to realise what i have to do...yeah...i'm of course applying the message behind the book to a totally different sort of situation...but i reckon it still applies...
current mood:  sore
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Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
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9:13 am - lalalalala....
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i drove a car for the first time ever!!!!!!(technically...coz there was once when i was a young young lil kiddo, my uncle let me steer all by myself from the passengers' seat)
but this time...woah...the feeling you get when something expected happens is great...bbuuuuuuuuuuuut...when its something unexpected...it's simply euphoric...
oh...and i killed no one either...ha ha...
btw...did i mention i had my first practical lesson yesterday?
current mood:  awake
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Friday, February 17th, 2006
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11:16 am - lunchtime...
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My colleague came over to my desk during lunchtime yesterday. What started out as a reprimand for what I had bought for lunch, which was kind of pathetic I must admit (she had reprimanded me (I’m the youngest around) for paying $4.20 for something which could have been purchased half the price elsewhere), turned into a conversation about education and then to marriage. She did most of the talking. I had my own views but wasn’t in much of a mood and also didn’t have that much energy to turn it into a total two-way conversation.
Why did I bring this up? There was something that she had said which I found journal and public worthy. “I’m married to ****** Tan. Not to Tan family.” (I am not using the real name and chose Tan as it’s one of the most common family names around.)
My views?
Well, it’s one of those statements which can be contested either way. And I do not dispute both ways.
And with regards to which way I would follow…still early days to tell…ha ha…
current mood: thoughtful
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cranky