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Blurty for little boy blue.
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| Tuesday, August 15th, 2006 |
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What Have I Done? These words I ask myself as I stare at the picture that you have left behind. Am I crazy or just plain stupid that I am waiting for a response from a picture? I am crazy. I had let you walk away from me. Why have I done this? How could I have thrown away the best thing that had happened to my life? Why did I let you go? Why couldn't I show you how much you've meant to me? Why can't I say to you how much I need you? Why haven't I told you the words "I love you"? Why is it so hard for me to say "I'm sorry"? I want you, I like you, I need you, and I promised that I would never again let you go for you complete me. You are my reason for living. Please remember that I need you, you are my love and my life. |
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| Monday, August 14th, 2006 |
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| I had been looking at you for a long time and I think that there was something that had changed. Something that was there and now, it is all gone. Was it I to blame? If I was the reason for the change, why is it that things never came back the same after you had gone away? Have I really lost you? I still couldn't believe that I lost you. I lost the friend that I had cherished, the love I have found and my only reason for staying alive. Have I really lost everything that I have found? What would I do after I lost everything? Would I ever hold your hands again? When will I hear your sweet, soft laugh? You are so near but you seem so far, are you really there? Have I really lost you? | ||||||||
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| Monday, August 7th, 2006 |
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As I stare at the window thinking about you, I remembered the times when were together. I remembered how much I love you. Time had passed and you had gone away. Now I know how much I miss you and how I wish that I hadn’t let you go. Now you’re far away, far away from me. You are gone and you took my heart with you. Everything had changed and I still miss you. I miss your gentle touch, I miss your sweet smile, I miss your lovely voice, I miss your cute laugh, and I even miss your sad good-bye. How much had changed because you’re gone. How hard is it to be alone after finding you. Now as I rest my head, I remembered the time . . . the time that I had given you the reason to say good-bye. If I could only change that time, you may still be here by my side. I miss those memories, I miss those times, and most of all . . . I miss you. Remembering the moment when love was with me, it had reminded me of you. I could still fell your warm love that had comforted me through those cold days of despair. You had been my inspiration ever since. You completed me. Now that you're gone, I could never be whole again. You took my heart with you. The heart that had loved you so much. I think I could never again love someone as much as I loved you. I know that I would never find someone as loving as you. |
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| Friday, June 23rd, 2006 |
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Staying up late, thinking about the 'plan', I realized that I could not do it, It's not that I'm giving up nor is it that I don't love her anymore, It's just that I don't want to do the same mistake I had done some time ago. I remember it all so clear; it was all perfect until I had took our friendship for granted. I had lost it all. I had chased her away. I don't know if it was reality or was it just me being so paranoid that I think that she was trying to avoid me after the 'thing' had happened. Being a hopeless martyr in-love, I couldn't stand seeing her trying hard to avoid me. To help her in relieving this burden, I stayed away from her even thou I wanted so much to hold her near. To worsen things up, I kept pretending that things never change. I could never accept the fact that she was gone and I was the one who had chased her away. I tried so hard to hide this fact for I know hard the truth hurts. No one can say that I hadn't tried to fight for her, I had given it all, I had given my best but I was fighting a losing battle. I never wanted to accept the fact that I lost her but it really tears me apart to know that I was the one who had cause myself all this pain. How I wish to bring things back to the way they used to be. I'm just hoping… hoping against faith and reality. I'm starting to think that this is really how things should be… us being just friends. The 'plan' was just perfect… too perfect. The only problem is that it is not the way I really wanted it to be. This might sound crazy that I'm giving up this one of a kind opportunity for three reasons: First, I made a vow that I wouldn't make the same mistake of taking our friendship for granted; Second, I don't want to received her love for what I shall do, I wanted to received her love for whom I am; Third, the last reason is that I loved her so much that … I don't want to lose her again. In life things could happen so fast that my love, my hope, and my everything was lost in a blink of an eye. Everything had happened so fast, I had lost her with one line. Things had changed and everything was all gone. I’m so foolish that I had blown up the friendship she gave me, the friendship that I had cherished so much. Why did I ask her if we could be more than friends? How could I have thought that I have nothing more to lose? Now, I have lost my heart, my love, our friendship, and most of all, I have lost her. Why wasn’t I satisfied on what we had? She was always there for me, she supports me, encourages me, and cared for me. She had shown out the best of me, the real me. She was everything for me and I chased her away. Now I’m back . . . all alone, feeling sorry for myself, pretending that things will work out when they are falling apart. I had blown out the best thing that ever happened to me. Now, I’m back to where I had begun . . . all alone. |
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| Thursday, June 22nd, 2006 |
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wow gulat ako at natagpuan ko na lang ang aking sarili na nag-update ng blog ko... ibang klase..... akala ko tinanggal na nila toh kasi hindi na ginagamit... oo nga pla itong latest post ko ay courtesy of dada. nainggit kasi ako at sinubukan kong sagutan at ayun natuwa ako... tnx... |
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| Thursday, June 30th, 2005 |
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| Wednesday, June 1st, 2005 |
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after so long................... only this? |
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| Sunday, March 20th, 2005 |
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If you see me walking down the road with someone else It's not because I like her company It's because your not brave enough to walk with me If your hear me talking about her all the time It's not becasue she pleases me It's becasue your to deaf to hear my heartbeat If you feel me falling for someone else It's not because I love her It's because your not there to catch me fall If you feel lost I, too, am nowhere I, too, don't know where the road is going Are we going to cross each others path or just completely turn around? Will we just let go of what we had or go to place w her love is bound Don't let me walk with her It's you i want to walk with Don't let me talk of her; It's you I want to walk with Don't let me fall for her It's you I want to fall in love with... |
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Alone again naturally so sad to think that even my friends won't go with me Sad it is... In reality when somebody said they would be there come what may... Believe me and trust me in this one... The only one you can turn to when everybody else walk away is yourself... no one but yourself and of course God if you believe in him. |
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| Thursday, March 10th, 2005 |
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Oo nga pala bago ang lahat nais kong ipahayag ang aking natutunan. Yup! Kahit papano may natututunan ako sa eskwelahan namin. Hehe. Dapat medio matagal ko na itong na-post kaso as usual busy sa skul, nwei may bumisita kasing writer dun sa klase namin sa literature adopted writer namin sya dapat susuportahan namin ung na-publish nyang book kaso lang kalahati lang ng klase ang sumuporta siguro dahil may incentives ang mga bumili aba isipin mo un one step higher sa grades di ako bumili kasi una wala akong pera pangalawa ayokong tumaas ang greyds ko dahil dun sa librong binili ko kasi parang binili ko na rin kasi ung one step higher na greyd, un siguro ang tinatawag na PRIDE. Hehe. Ang dami kong paligoy-ligoy noh ang sabi talaga nung writer/professor/president ng isang institute na dapat daw sumulat tayo ng katulad ng pagsasalita natin in english "WE SHOULD WRITE LIKE THE WAY WE SPEAK" sa ganoong paraan malalaman mo daw kung sulat talaga niya un. Na-realize ko na tama ang sinabi nya kaya ngayon medyo nagbago na ako. Alam kong di ako manunulat at di rin ako magaling magsulat at medyo kalait-lait itong ga toh pero at least alam kong ako ang nagsulat nito at galing sa akin ito. Un lang po... |
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It's been a long time since i've written something on my blog. Anyway. Help me... Anyone out there... |
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| Friday, March 4th, 2005 |
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Nawawala sa sarili, kinakabahan, bumibilis ang tibok ng puso at ang pawis nag-uumapaw pag palapit na sya. Lahat na ng gusto mong sabihin kinabisado mo na bago pa man ang dumating na araw na ito. nagpraktis mag-isa sa kwarto at naghanda ng mabuti sa mga sasabihin. Buong puso mo prinamis sa sarili na magagawa ko ito, kaya ko ito. Ayan ilang hakbang na lang at kayo’y magkakaharap, sobrang tagal ng panahon na hinintay mo itong pagkakataon na ito. Hinanda mo ang iyong sarili; sinuklay ang buhok, pinunasan ang mukha ng panyo at inamoy ang sarili. Malapit na siya at ayan na sya at sa inaasahang panahon nasa harap mo na siya. Naisip mo na ang kinabisang sasabihin, naririnig mo ang kalabog ng dibdib mo sa wakes naibuka ang bibig ngunit… Nakalimutan ang sasabihin, ang dila parang naputol o kaya umatras, wala ka na namang nagawa lumagpas siya ng hindi mo lang kinakausap hindi man lang nakapagpa-kilalala. Nanghihinayang ka sa loobin mo pero naisip mo “May iba pa namang araw eh” un nga lang kalian pa ung araw na un? Huwag kang mag-alala alam kong insane nangyari ito sa inyo mga katulad kong TORPE…! |
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| Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005 |
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You went away because you mistook my silence for indifference. But silence, my dear, is the language of my heart. For how could I essay the intensity of my love when silence speaks a more eloquent tone? But, perhaps you didn’t understand…. Remember, I came, because the gnawing loneliness is there and will not be lost until the music is sung, until the poem is heard, until the silence is understood ……. until you come to me again. For you alone can blend music and memory into one consuming ecstasy. You alone…….. |
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| Friday, January 28th, 2005 |
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| Thursday, December 30th, 2004 |
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Those who have hurt you in the past cannot continue to hurt you now unless you hold on to the pain through resentment. YOUR PAST IS PAST! Nothing will change it. You are only hurting yourself with your bitterness. For your own sake learn from it, and then let it go. The Bible says, “To worry yourself to death with resentment would be a foolish, senseless to do.” -exerpt from the book Purpose-Driven Life |
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Blurty for little boy blue.
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frustrated.
uncomfortable.
nostalgic.
sad.
working.
drained.
gloomy.
blank.
impressed.