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| Friday, July 11th, 2003 |
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| okay god damn life sucks. | ||
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| Monday, June 30th, 2003 |
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well i started driving school today with mandi. i think im ending this journal.... come visit me on melo. www.melodramatic.com/users/shakeshakexkill/ |
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| Wednesday, June 25th, 2003 |
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gosh, i never update this thing. cus of melo. but its okay. i am right now. ummm today is mandis berfday. woo hoo. shes gonna come tonight and chill with me. ummths week ive been working. got 200$ yay! i really like some one so much it kills me that reality is such a threat. i just want one more chance anyways. heres my schedule for the rest of the week: thursday- work at 7:30, go to mall with mandi at 2:30, go to cheer meeting at 5:30 Friday- work, come home, performance at 6, sammies party at 9 saturday- come home at 11 from sammies, get ready, go to emilys party at 3, and maybe babysit that night sunday- chill with mandi and maybe emily. go to swap meet? |
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| Sunday, June 22nd, 2003 |
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my dad found my melo. he was pisttttt ima miss allison. i love her. she better love me back watchen the rest of pulpfiction and seven tonight tomororw working. getting up at 6. boo hoo!! i love you... even if you dont love me |
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| Thursday, June 19th, 2003 |
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My phobia has got me and I dare not leave the room I stare out of my window in my lonliness and gloom I tried to call you and I tried to call you from a phonebox down the hall I'd like to see you and I'd like to meet you won't you please give me a call oo take a look out my window oo take a look out my window I close my eyes and think of you a million miles away of where you'll be tomorrow and where we were yesterday I tried to call you and I tried to call you but I just can't find the words I'd like to see you and I'd like to meet you isn't this thing so absurd oo take a look out my window oo take a look out my window a look out my window a look out my window a look out my window a look out my window-ow I stare out of my window at the empty streets below behind a sheet of painted glass and I've nowhere else to go so I take a look out my window I take a look out my window a look out my window a look out my window a look out my window a look out my window a look out my window take a look out my window take a look out my window |
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FUCK ALL YOU 949 BITCHES FUCK YOU ALL I HATE YOU |
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| Wednesday, June 18th, 2003 |
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I saw your eyes, And you made me smile; For a little while I was falling in love. I saw your eyes, And you touched my mind. Although it took a while, I was falling in love. I saw your eyes, And you made me cry; And for a little while I was falling in love. I was falling in love. Falling in love. Falling in love. Falling in love. Falling in love. |
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| Tuesday, June 17th, 2003 |
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| ahh i never update this anymore. tday was just not so great. i had a doctors appt. and i had to get a blood testand crap. uhhhhhhh. i think something is wrong with me. i hav to go back soon. it fucking sucked. i took a hot ass bath and i almost fainted. and i turne don the cold water and stood up and i fell. it didnt hurt but i felt so weak. it was scary. iwatched smeone like you and that was a good move. and then my dumbass watched turbulance2:fear of flying or whatever. why did i have to watch that? im going out of town in auguest to acapulco in mexico. and my biggest fear is death/planes-flying. yeah icried my eyes out duringthe movie. im like soo tramatized. ughh. my dad came home and i begged him. but i dont know whts gonn happen. i dot wnat to take a place. im so scared. im so scared to crash or anything. i kno the chanses are 1 in a million but im so scared still. | ||||||||
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| Wednesday, June 11th, 2003 |
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meaning is sometimes hard to spot it begins with the flickering of cigarettes in the darkness of a dorm room somewhere in the suffocated mid-west and if this is real then i was mistaken and if there is truth then why can't we find it? beauty comes to those who have been waiting for something bigger than themselves this is the sound of the hopeless kids as they scream from the basements of the houses of their parents and this is the sound of the hopeless ones as they stare down at their books and realize they have been lied to but if this is real then i was mistaken and the vision fades as quickly as it came consistency like that which i have craved is that people change so unexpectedly and realization finds you in a drunken airport some planes depart and others never arrived so with this in mind i don't plan on waiting if its time to leave and break these old ties without something else this vision is fading but until its gone the pain will make us try but this is the hope i have been searching for as the wings catch the sunlight of this cold Nebraska skyline this is the dream i am dying in i will wake to find tomorrow be content without perfection but if this is real then i was mistaken and if the vision is gone then i was not aware |
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| Tuesday, June 10th, 2003 |
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| went to school. took an english final. did pretty well on it. woo hoo. i realised why i hate some one so much. becaue they are just like me. everything i hate about myself they are it. they are like my fucking twin. and i hate you. actually i DONT hate you.. i just envy you. yet your just like me, your life is so "peachy". i hate you go to hell! im so cunfused. i know what i want anymore. i have goals but ive just liek killed them all. i hope this summer is gonna be what i want it to be. i want a fling. i want to have fun. i want to be beautiful. | ||||||||
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amused.
anxious.
cold.
curious.