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Friday, July 11th, 2003

Time:12:10 am.
okay god damn life sucks.
Comments: catch me as i faLL.

Monday, June 30th, 2003

Subject:driving school
Time:05:37 pm.
well i started driving school today with mandi. i think im ending this journal.... come visit me on melo.


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Comments: catch me as i faLL.

Wednesday, June 25th, 2003

Subject:i took for granted all those times we were happy together
Time:09:10 pm.
Mood: amused.
Music:love songs.
gosh, i never update this thing. cus of melo. but its okay. i am right now. ummm today is mandis berfday. woo hoo. shes gonna come tonight and chill with me. ummths week ive been working. got 200$ yay!

i really like some one so much it kills me that reality is such a threat. i just want one more chance

anyways. heres my schedule for the rest of the week:

thursday- work at 7:30, go to mall with mandi at 2:30, go to cheer meeting at 5:30
Friday- work, come home, performance at 6, sammies party at 9
saturday- come home at 11 from sammies, get ready, go to emilys party at 3, and maybe babysit that night
sunday- chill with mandi and maybe emily. go to swap meet?
Comments: catch me as i faLL.

Sunday, June 22nd, 2003

Subject:i think im turning japenese i think im turing japense i realy think so
Time:09:38 pm.
Mood: anxious.
Music:oliver beene.
my dad found my melo. he was pisttttt

ima miss allison. i love her. she better love me back

watchen the rest of pulpfiction and seven tonight

tomororw working. getting up at 6. boo hoo!!

i love you... even if you dont love me
Comments: catch me as i faLL.

Thursday, June 19th, 2003

Subject:i dare you to take a look
Time:08:16 pm.
Mood: cold.
Music:flock of seafulls.
My phobia has got me and I dare not leave the room
I stare out of my window in my lonliness and gloom
I tried to call you and I tried to call you from a phonebox down the hall
I'd like to see you and I'd like to meet you won't you please give me a call

oo take a look out my window
oo take a look out my window

I close my eyes and think of you a million miles away
of where you'll be tomorrow and where we were yesterday
I tried to call you and I tried to call you but I just can't find the words
I'd like to see you and I'd like to meet you isn't this thing so absurd

oo take a look out my window
oo take a look out my window
a look out my window
a look out my window
a look out my window
a look out my window-ow

I stare out of my window at the empty streets below
behind a sheet of painted glass and I've nowhere else to go

so I take a look out my window
I take a look out my window
a look out my window
a look out my window
a look out my window
a look out my window
a look out my window
take a look out my window
take a look out my window
Comments: catch me as i faLL.

Subject:i hate you
Time:02:36 pm.
FUCK ALL YOU 949 BITCHES FUCK YOU ALL

I

HATE

YOU
Comments: catch me as i faLL.

Wednesday, June 18th, 2003

Subject:dont you wish...
Time:02:20 pm.
Mood: curious.
I saw your eyes,
And you made me smile;
For a little while
I was falling in love.

I saw your eyes,
And you touched my mind.
Although it took a while,
I was falling in love.

I saw your eyes,
And you made me cry;
And for a little while
I was falling in love.

I was falling in love.

Falling in love.

Falling in love.

Falling in love.

Falling in love.
Comments: catch me as i faLL.

Tuesday, June 17th, 2003

Subject:today sucked
Time:06:27 pm.
Mood: scared.
Music:no doubt- sixteen.
ahh i never update this anymore. tday was just not so great. i had a doctors appt. and i had to get a blood testand crap. uhhhhhhh. i think something is wrong with me. i hav to go back soon. it fucking sucked. i took a hot ass bath and i almost fainted. and i turne don the cold water and stood up and i fell. it didnt hurt but i felt so weak. it was scary. iwatched smeone like you and that was a good move. and then my dumbass watched turbulance2:fear of flying or whatever. why did i have to watch that? im going out of town in auguest to acapulco in mexico. and my biggest fear is death/planes-flying. yeah icried my eyes out duringthe movie. im like soo tramatized. ughh. my dad came home and i begged him. but i dont know whts gonn happen. i dot wnat to take a place. im so scared. im so scared to crash or anything. i kno the chanses are 1 in a million but im so scared still.
Comments: catch me as i faLL.

Wednesday, June 11th, 2003

Subject:i think this is beautiful
Time:08:04 pm.
Music:bright eyes.
meaning is sometimes hard to spot
it begins with the flickering of cigarettes
in the darkness of a dorm room
somewhere in the suffocated mid-west
and if this is real then i was mistaken
and if there is truth then why can't we find it?
beauty comes to those who have been waiting for something
bigger than themselves
this is the sound of the hopeless kids
as they scream from the basements of the houses of their parents
and this is the sound of the hopeless ones
as they stare down at their books
and realize they have been lied to
but if this is real then i was mistaken
and the vision fades as quickly as it came
consistency like that which i have craved
is that people change so unexpectedly
and realization finds you in a drunken airport
some planes depart and others never arrived
so with this in mind i don't plan on waiting
if its time to leave and break these old ties
without something else this vision is fading
but until its gone the pain will make us try
but this is the hope
i have been searching for
as the wings catch the sunlight of this cold Nebraska skyline
this is the dream i am dying in
i will wake to find tomorrow
be content without perfection
but if this is real then i was mistaken
and if the vision is gone then i was not aware
Comments: catch me as i faLL.

Tuesday, June 10th, 2003

Subject:you make me happy when skies are gray
Time:04:27 pm.
Mood: cold.
Music:bright eyes- the calenay hung itself.
went to school. took an english final. did pretty well on it. woo hoo. i realised why i hate some one so much. becaue they are just like me. everything i hate about myself they are it. they are like my fucking twin. and i hate you. actually i DONT hate you.. i just envy you. yet your just like me, your life is so "peachy". i hate you go to hell! im so cunfused. i know what i want anymore. i have goals but ive just liek killed them all. i hope this summer is gonna be what i want it to be. i want a fling. i want to have fun. i want to be beautiful.
Comments: catch me as i faLL.

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