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October 05, 05
gots a new blurty..

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October 03, 05
O my goodness...

-- Josh -- says:
megan do you realize that nothing has changed between us from when we were just friends to now?
--megan* says:
yeah, and i wish that it would
--megan* says:
Everytime I try to step it seems like you take it down...
-- Josh -- says:
i dont know what it is...i feel like since we started dating that we have grown apart and that we were better when we were friends
--megan* says:
I don't agree lol...I really don't want to be just friends...
--megan* says:
do u wanna give it one more chance tell me what u want..
-- Josh -- says:
i dont know megan...i mean i feel like we grew apart and that we were closer when we were friends
--megan* says:
well...Josh I'm not even joking when I say I don't want to be just friends, and I will do ANYTHING for us to stay dating
-- Josh -- says:
so if i say that i dont think i want to give it another shot cause i dont see anything changin..then you dont want to be friends either?
--megan* says:
well yeah, but Josh just give it one more chance. I'll do anything..I'm not even joking
-- Josh -- says:
megan i dont see anything changing...and i felt like i was closer to you when we were friends...i mean it just may be me and i may not be able to take it past a friend level with you but i dont know...just nothing has changed
--megan* says:
give it one more chance Josh. Please..
-- Josh -- says:
i dont think i can i mean i dont see anything changing megan...i think me and you are just meant to be friends
--megan* says:
Josh, more chance. And if it doesn't work I'll accept it. Please one more chance
-- Josh -- says:
this is like the second try in a way megan...and still nothing has changed i have waited for it too...but we havent gotten closer...if anything i feel as if we have grown apart
--megan* says:
how has this been a 2nd time?
--megan* says:
I don't see it as a 2nd time. Josh please..
- Josh -- says:
i dont know megan...i'm sorry but i dont think i can...i just see us as friends and if you dont want that then let me know
--megan* says:
Josh..I'm begging you. Just this last time give it one more shot. Please
-- Josh -- says:
megan i cant...i'm just hasnt changed...i'm sorry
--megan* says:
--megan* says:
I guess I can accept it.
--megan* says:
I'm gonna have to

Why the hell can't I ever be happy?
What the hells wrong with me for this to always happen. No matter WHAT I do..
Ah..I'm not as bad off as I thought I would be.
Actually, I'm not that bad.
It feels the same...
how strange.

But I really am ok
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wooooowww! I haven't updated in quite a while. My bad* [Sunday
October 02, 05
-As soon as you get online... whos name do You look for first? When a
Slow Song Comes On The Radio--Whose Face comes To Your Mind first?
When You Hear Your Phone Ringing...Who Do You Hope it is callin? Whose
name Makes Your Heart skip a beat?-

Isn't that cute? You know who its about lol!
Well things are going good I suppose*

Things are ok. Uhm-
History-ah its ok. I got homeowrk I need to do, and we have a test in there tomorrow..ugh*
Science-good..? Its accually one of my fave classes
APE-stil hating it lol!
Geom.-doing a tad bit better..kinda! I failed a test w/ flying colors the other day*
Band-we lost our 1st comp. yesterday, we had to have been cheated out because we were 10 times better than all the others. It really pissed me off.

Things are ok.
I'm a real loner at the house.
Maybe its normal to be a loner at your house, maybe not?
I don't care.

Uhmm..what friends? lol j/p
Ever since recently I have barely hung out w/ anyone from Pennington, well with the exception of Emily.
I have been hangn out w/ Whitney B. Rachel Ott, Sarah Stanton, Sam King, Caitlyn Callahan, Josh, Josh, Spenc, Nic, etc.
I jus don't see the point in hangin out w/ my old friends.
They are such preps and it pisses me off sometimes.

We are doing good *knocks on wood*
physically we aren't really close but mentally we are together all the time.
if that makes sense. I mean when we werent dating we were REALLY close physically.
But now we aren't even close to how close we were.
Like on the bus rides home we barely hold hands.
I did sleep on him

Other than those things theres nothing else to say.

shes scared. scared to lose him. shes scared she'll
do something wrong to make him want to leave. shes
scared that he'll find someone else so much better
then her. shes scared because she finally realized
how much he means to her.
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