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[08 Apr 2004|05:14pm]
whatever, ya know, whatever.

i know i'm in love with him. he actually might feel the same way back. i knew that day when we looked in each other's eyes, something happened. i couldnt have been the only one to feel it. couldnt have. what the fuck is the age difference anyway. i think we've proven it doesnt matter. what the f is wrong with all the people around us? its them. we could make it.

don't think twice, its alright.

i think i might get so attached to people because that's all i need, a person.
people, people who need people are the luckiest people in the world.
hmmm, not too sure i agree. i dont want to need somebody, i want to have somebody. there's a difference

if theater ever doesnt work out i'm going into marketing.
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F you [08 Apr 2004|05:05pm]
i love how you just brush by me in the hall, as if you've got some place great to be.
i love how you don't eat lunch with me anymore.
i love how you ignore me and run to pretty miss perfect. her smile, her fakeness.
i love how you only pay attention to me when you need me, OLD MARRIED COUPLES don't act like that.
i love how you are willing to throw away one of the only things you have going for you, for just one night out

i loved how we could laugh for an entire lunch period about how u burped
i loved how we could talk on the phone for hours on end about the same things over and over
i loved how we always knew what the other one meant, what the other one was trying to get out
i loved how we were all each other needed
i loved how we were friends

i love you.
the goods cancel out the bads
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hey hey [23 Mar 2004|07:57pm]
i'm home now. all i have to say:
fuck SG. her and her little friend... goddamn. "oo i wanna be a teacher" MAYBE CAUSE YOU ONLY RELATE TO CHILDREN, YOU ACT LIKE A THREE YEAR OLD. stop being a bitch. o wait, thats all you know how to be.

but no, actually i dont care. high school is only part of life... not saying it sucks, cause it doesnt... just saying that some people really suck.

BUT i'm too good to waste my precious time caring about them.
So do whatever... waste your time... YOU AREN'T GOING TO GET A BIT OF MINE.

anyway... how bad would it be if i got married? i've been thinking about that for some reason lately. I just want to be done with all this work. I dont have the time or the patience to date or to find a college... I just want to be married and find the right college.

Is it the college or the person that makes an "experience"????
I think its the person. I could go to freakin goldy beacom and be as successful as if i got into NYU. WELL, maybe not... but i am the one doing all the work. what the hell is new...
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today, yesterday,and tomorrow [22 Mar 2004|04:05pm]
okay. i'm not sure i really see the point in like giving you my life story or even telling you how i'm feeling... but a couple things are necessary.
I'm going to be writing a book soon. I feel that people need to hear me... the world would be a better place dammit. There are too many things that just spin aound in my head.
I'm a damn smart person. I really am.
I'm not a typical teenager... by ANY account. I recently looked at a poster of "statistics of 17 year olds" (I work at a children's health media center) and only like 4 of them apply to me. I'm not too upset about it though. I don't sit at home and wonder why I don't have backstabbing friends or if my boyfriend thinks i'm pretty or if i need to get my roots dyed again. NOPE... that just not me. and i'm sort of proud of it actually.
My life is theater. It really is. I've never been so sure about something in my entire short life. I can't say what it is, its just like a disease, i can't help it... I love theater.
I have minimal friends. I have really none that i completely trust or cannot live without or whatever. 2 of my best friends however are adults. my life seems to work like that. the people that i am most comfortable with aren't who they should be.
And that is who i am and who i shall stay.

my parents are pretty cool. i love them both dearly and get along with them fairly well. no, not even any of my mysteriously absent teenage angst goes towards them. I spend all the time i can at home. I dont have much time though. any of you in theater know exactly what i'm talking about.

speaking of theater... I'm starting another show. It's about damn time. We just got done our school show (GUYS AND DOLLS) which really sort of rocked. I was so proud to be a part of it. ANYWAY...A.D.D.... i'm starting Tom Sawyer at DCT. I don't really know how to feel about it... i'll soon find out though. ohhh man

i dont want any of you folks to get the wrong impression of me. But then again i dont really giva a damn. HAHAHA

sometime later i'll go on and on. my fingers hurt now...
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Happy Birthday :) [21 Mar 2004|07:28pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

YAY!!! i'm technologically advancing in the world. Now that it just took me like 45mins to set up this freaking journal. HAHAHAHAHA. Anyway... I'm at the beach right now. Thank God for laptops. More later.

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