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    Thursday, October 16th, 2003
    1:07 pm
    you made freshman year rock for me!!
    this entire entry is dedicated to memories i have of kayley and me.
    remember when:
    me and you had a "secret" alliance against the family; the freshman semi; going home after the freshman semi and movie and ice creaming it up(which was funner then the semi itself); anthony nipples; you fighting with nipples mom; KAYley, emphasis on the KAY, fade out with the ley...sound like anyone?; "the man"; dr. dre and eminem; kay, what if i ate a blackhead? well, you might have. no, kay, what if i ate a BLACKhead, lol; 2gether; lights up, old jewish women...; twinkies and watermelon winecoolers; pulling a chad; church; stars in the shape of a penis on the ceiling; i can grab a bulls balls; whats that smell? sarah close your legs; your a big fine women, wont you back that ass up; "fish..."; cockeyed girl; radio shows on 114; wheelchair girl; liiiiiiiiiiisa, get back in your cell girl!; koolaid hair dye; do you know kayley leblanc? yeah shes my girlfriend. well im her aunt and shes not your girlfriend anymore, im breaking up with you; mr. potato; higbee curl; planning to sing "my heart will go on" in the talent jam, complete with the iceberg; sex talks with laura; dude, i think im paralyzed; fufuberry soda; trust me, mushrooms taste like shit; im not calling her aunty...ill call her mrs. todisco if i have to; grundle bed; im not using the phone, im just checking my voicemail; why do they call you special k? well chad, it is a ceral. ew, why would they call you a cereal, i wouldnt eat my cousin...haha (i almost DIED that day, literally); singing mandy moore loudly and off key on the top bunk; higbee told you the talent jam was rigged and you should've won ( what can i say your ethnically challenged); "undies only"; you better watch out...im...a...petifile!; bowling in canada; canada in general; road trips(it'll happen) aww shit thats all i got...kay i love you so much and i miss you!

    Current Mood: nostalgic
    Current Music: juvenille:back that ass up :)
    12:50 pm
    all up in my gut nigga what? oww...lol
    thats trina. dont judge. cause you have no clue what im talking about. ok so i had the most awesome fucking entry written a little while ago and some pop up killed it. now im pissed and im coughing. but other then that things are going great. we got over the hump day. (aka wenesday) speaking of humping, big mike slept through the best humping of his life last night. but he was like moaning and making all these noises and saying explicit things that i cant write here, if you wanna know though ill tell ya. maggie and rachel and i enjoyed it. i think mike did too, he just doesnt remember enjoying it. sigh. yep so i guess with that im spent. love me!

    Current Mood: drained
    Current Music: trina ft. ludicris: be alright
    Tuesday, October 14th, 2003
    12:28 pm
    survey says
    writers block. help.
    8:55 am
    and thats what you get for falling again, you can never get him outta your head...
    so here i go again. i finally got my computer back which is so splendid! lol yes i just said splendid. fun times huh? so remember when me equals sick and feeling like shit? well thats right now so you should remember. ellen just asked me if id be alright without her and i said i might die and she said, ok bye. hello? so i was like oh thanks alot, and she hadnt heard a word of what i said. i was like ok wacko, lol. but anyways. mad libs are the funnest thing ever. nervous about future events, meh a little sketched out actually. even though i probably shouldnt be, right? i mean, im just over reacting right? of course i am, totally over reacting. phew. ok. well with that im spent. ttfn.
    Thursday, October 9th, 2003
    9:14 pm
    and on that note...
    long weekend equals me going home. not so sure how i feel about that. hmmm. i dont know. oh well, feeling kinda sad...love me please.

    Current Mood: blank
    Current Music: dashboard confessional: bend and not break
    Wednesday, October 8th, 2003
    12:57 pm
    i never understood what it ment until now...
    when people are looking for themselves, where do they go? thats what i used to think. dont you always know where you are? cause if you are you then you are always with yourself, right? i mean correct me if im wrong. they should say im going to figre out who i am and why i am me. thats what i decided. and thats what im doing. last night i was laying there in my bed just wondering why i think the way i think and why i do the things i do. why do i react to somethings a certain way and a differant way to other things. i dont really know how im gonna do it, but im determined to figure me out, to like what i find out and to become better from it. on another note im so confused with my life right now. i like everything to be cut and dry. the truth hurts but lies hurt worse, and with holding the truth is a lie by default, right? well, then why cant i be honest with myself? i cant lie to anyone else, i cant stay mad at anyone else, but i can lie to myself left and right and i cant forgive myself for the smallest things. what am i gonna do with my life? i dont even have a major. i cant even manage better then a c on a freshman skills math test. where is my drive? i dont know. when i was in the 2nd grade mrs. collins told my mom that if i could just apply myself and not talk so much and try to tone down my social side i could graduate validictorian. well, i dont know how to take that. my mom told me that a little while back to make me see that other people dont think im stupid like i told her they do. but i dont think it worked. i still feel like people dont take me seriously. just be cause i think of things in a differant way it kinda always made me look like the dumb one. what the hell am i talking about right now? no one cares about this anyways. you know something crazazy. i hated high school, but i kinda miss it now. i miss walking down the halls and seeing all my friends, knowing that in everyone one of my classes and every one of my classes im gonna have at least two people to talk to and sit with. i miss daves lap dances, and di's pink hair, and leanne and josh being wrong on so many levels. i miss sex talks with colleen and megan, and pineapples+tuna=gross, and ninas advice that always makes me cry in a good way cause she always knows what best for me. i miss scully and k8y and mike always being there to make me smile. i miss katies really aweful slow grandma driving in the minivan, even though she cant tell which side to drive on in the winter cause "the sand confuses me". and i miss emily. presidents st is a five minute walk. eastern ave is a 3.5 second drive, but bridgewater is a 3 hour train ride. lol not really, but you know what i mean. dont get me wrong. i love it here, when i go home i miss it. but today i was thinking about what happens in 4 years? after that i have to move on again. is there anything i can count on to always be there? is there anyone who will always be a few steps away? i dont think so, and thats what scares me the most. when you get to know people and you see who they are and you love them, how do you make it without them when they are gone?

    Current Mood: contemplative
    Current Music: dmb: gravedigger
    Tuesday, October 7th, 2003
    11:07 pm
    wow...remember when too much porn?
    so yeah. really missing my computer right now. its just not the same without it in my room. why is porn so cheesy? and people just stare at it. its not so bad, but watching it with so many people is just strange. why is it that with some people its not embarrassing but with others you get this unbelievablly wrong feeling? lol. when it was suggested by a certain two people over that awesome weekend, we thought it was the best idea...but suddenly right now it doesnt seem like a good idea. but then again everything is always a super good idea when its me and emily, although i think that we scared steve, fernando and john. oh well, just keeping it real. im real sorry i missed dicks last resort on sat. lil em. wow. all these comments are suddenly making me self conscience. yeah. fun times. birthdays for your best friend when your not there arent fun. hey mike, thanks for letting me use your computer! i still feel a little violated...but im sure ill get over it. what can i say, you made my leg really wet tonight ;) ;) lol. today i was thinking about how genes are so unfair. like, ok i came first, so youd think that i would've gotten the best outta the gene pool, right? nope. theres vanessa. she was born second, and she got all the good genes. i think i've always knowen on some level, but today (this past weekend actually) i really realized it. i mean dont get me wrong. i love her and im really happy for her, but it just doesnt seem fair. first of all shes a fucking genious right and everyone knows. everyone. then she suddenly got all gorgeous. not just cute, not just pretty, im talking gorgeous. and shes all driven and joins all these do-gooder things. and she rocks out at field hockey. you know what my theory on all this is? i got the test them out genes from the pool and john got the left overs (not that hes not awesome cause he fucking rocks out! hes my hero!!) but vanessa got all the good genes. like all the good ones stuck together and formed an alliance and were like oh lets make this super wonderful baby. and they did. only shes not a baby anymore. well thats pretty much all that i have in the bitching department for tonight. i dont want anyone to take what i just said the wrong way. i love vanessa, that was just me venting. so please dont anyone yell at me, ok? and with that, im spent.

    Current Mood: lonely
    Current Music: the who: behind blue eyes
    Sunday, October 5th, 2003
    10:46 pm
    not only was i called ugly, attempted to be lured into sexual activities...but im in a room w/satan.
    all and all a normal night for me. although i must say my friends dont normally call me ugly. kidding or not, sometimes you just gotta draw the line. and no...winking at me in a coy way and cocking your head toward the elevator and saying, nikki wanna go upstairs? is not going to get me to have sex with you. or even get me to think about having sex with you. and mike is somewhere flying in the sky. hope hes safe. 143 leave me something to think about.

    Current Mood: annoyed
    Current Music: here i go again on my own...banah!
    Saturday, October 4th, 2003
    11:53 am
    wish it was warm so i could go to the beach and get a tan
    hey. fun times at the paul pratt library in cohasset. visiting my mom this weekend. which is cool cause john and vanessa are at pappys so its just me and my mom. i cant even remember the last time it was just me and my mom, so im excited. so yeah we went on a long ass walk at castle island in southie this morning, which was good cause i havent excercised in god knows how long. her dog is mad annoying though and he has wicked bad breathe. but ill forgive him cause hes only a dog and cant really control what he smells like. so i think i may be getting a new banking job, cause im totally poor and need some dough. i think im pretty much in there, but you can never be too sure. so today is emilys birhtday...happy birthday emily!! and yesterday was kayleys birthday! happy birthday kayley! and thursday was maggies birthday! happy birthday maggie!! wow all these birthdays to remember. fun fun fun times. all i can say is that cake was so good on thursday, i wouldnt mind a piece of it right now. without drunk people who i dont know standing over me asking me if its my birthday and are you maggie? ok, how many times do we need to go over it. its maggies birthday, im nikki, i have blonde hair and maggie has red hair. its not that hard to tell us apart. lol. so someone annonomously left me this crazazy comment. who are you? i hate annonomous comments. they make me confused, cause i just want to know who you are. but then again, any comment is better then no comment, right? so would whoever wrote that nice comment to yesterdays entry just throw me a line with your name in it. or email it to me. whatever works. well i guess im gonna go and find my mom. im hungry, being that its lunch time and all. byes!

    Current Mood: confused
    Current Music: dave matthews band; sattilite
    Friday, October 3rd, 2003
    1:21 pm
    3 days in a row on the commuter train is just too many for me
    so its friday. nothing like a test in math that you didnt know about to get ya going, huh? oh i know it made my whole day, lol. and now in approximatly 39 minutes i have a test in history, which, yeah, i didnt study for either. so im doing well with the whole college thing what can i say. so after that its off to work. at least charlene will be there until 4, after that when im alone with the old ladies i get so bored that i want to shoot myself. in the face. so after that guess what? im going to find a second job. sucks to be poor, huh? yeah i think so. thanksgiving is coming up pretty fast, which is exciting. cause i get to go and see all my friends who i havent seen in ages. hopefully it wont snow this thanksgiving, you know? and besides that it will be nice to have good food...like potato stuffing. yum. and i suppose seeing the family is good too, right? lol, trying to convince myself? no i really do miss the fam. at least they pretend to understand the strange things i say/do. the boy doesnt love me anymore. which is sad. tramatic even. sigh. im so glad that its friday. i wait for friday all week. i want to go to the movies. who wants to go to the movies with me??? anyone, anyone? come on you know you wanna! lol. i dont know. so yeah i guess im gonna jett, cause im prolly boring everyone outta there minds. :)

    Current Mood: busy
    Wednesday, October 1st, 2003
    10:02 pm
    i stole this from kayley, cause hell if its cool enough for her its sure as fuck cool enough for me. :)

    LAYER ONE:
    -- Name: nikki
    -- Birthplace: dorchester
    -- Current Location: bsc...aka the middle of no where.
    -- Eye Color: blue and green
    -- Hair Color: blonde
    -- Height: 5' 5"
    -- Righty or Lefty: righty
    -- Zodiac Sign: cancer...lol big mike

    LAYER TWO:
    -- Your heritage: mostly italian, like 75%, and a lil bit french canadain and a lil bit portugeous
    -- The shoes you wore today: flip flops
    -- Your weakness: i cant lie
    -- Your fears: being alone and death
    -- Goal you'd like to achieve: being truly happy

    LAYER THREE:
    -- Your most overused phrase on AIM: lol
    -- Your thoughts first waking up: where am i and how did i get here?
    -- Your best physical feature: ive been told my eyes, i dont know you tell me
    -- Your bedtime: whats this bed time you speak of?
    -- Your most missed memory: the truck with pappy

    LAYER FOUR:
    -- Pepsi or Coke: coke
    -- McDonald's or Burger King: mcdonalds all the way
    -- Single or group dates: single if you know the person, group dates if you dont, easier to converse that way
    -- Adidas or Nike: nike
    -- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton
    -- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
    -- Cappuccino or coffee: frapichino

    LAYER FIVE:
    Do you:
    -- Smoke: not anymore
    -- Cuss: fuck no, who fucking cusses???
    -- Sing: in the shower, in the car, to my friends, when i see the moon, yeah i love singing, too bad other people dont feel the same way about me singing, lol
    -- Take a shower everyday: mostly, unless im going for that natural pheramone smell
    -- Have a crush: not at the moment, its more of a dent, lol....no im just kidding im carousing in the men department at the moment
    -- Do you think you've been in love: well there was this one time...
    -- Want to go to college: oh i own college
    -- Liked high school: um...the dances and skipping classes and social aspect...but do you really think someone who missed 28+ days jr. year liked high school?
    -- Want to get married: only if i have a guareentee that he wont cheat on me and we wont end up divorced...
    -- Believe in yourself: sometimes, i try really hard to
    -- Get motion sickness: all the time, even when im not moving
    -- Think you're attractive: well at least one person in the world has to, right? might as well be me
    -- Think you're a health freak: oh god no
    -- Get along with your parent(s): most of the time...who could stay mad at a pappy?
    -- Like thunderstorms? yes
    -- Play an instrument: tryin to learn guitar

    LAYER SIX:
    In the past few months...
    -- Drank alcohol: yes
    -- Smoked: weed? no way jose!
    -- Done a drug: nope, im high on life
    -- Had Sex: im gonna have to go with a big old no
    -- Made Out: ... i defer the question...
    -- Gone on a date: yeah
    -- Gone to the mall?: have you met me?????
    -- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no, and i dont think i ever will either, who could eat that many oreos?
    -- Eaten sushi: god no, that stuffs so bad for you
    -- Been on stage: yea
    -- Gone skating: naw
    -- Made homemade cookies: maybe? prolly i cant remember
    -- Gone skinny dipping: not since new hampshire when marysas swallowed a guppy and nana drank too much...lol kaykay...hows you twinky...fine grampy hows yours?
    -- Dyed your hair:yep
    -- Stolen anything: maybe a few hearts ;) ;) lol j/k j/k

    LAYER SEVEN:
    Ever...
    -- Played a game that required removal of clothing: padidle
    -- If so, was it mixed company: um,thats the point
    -- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: id never do anything like that...unless i was alone or with somebody anyways, lol
    -- Been caught "doing something": im gonna have to go with no
    -- Been called a tease: naw
    -- Gotten beaten up: negative, im a lover not a fighter
    -- Shoplifted: nope
    -- Changed who you were to fit in: no im too lazy to pretend to be something im not, that requires effort

    LAYER EIGHT:
    -- Age you hope to be married: when its right
    -- Numbers and Names of Children: i love the name olivia noel
    -- Describe your Dream Wedding: it would take way to much space, lol
    -- How do you want to die: i dont
    -- Where you want to go to college: bsc is good for me
    -- What do you want to be when you grow up: a milf...lol
    -- What country would you most like to visit: italy

    LAYER NINE:
    In a guy/girl..
    -- Best eye color? meh...dont mattah
    -- Best hair color? same as above
    -- Short or long hair: short is good, and it has to be messier then mine, lol
    -- Height: taller than me
    -- Best weight: gotta have some love handles, a lil something to hold on to...if you know what i mean, lol
    -- Best articles of clothing: boxers
    -- Best first date location: um...an amusment park
    -- Best first kiss location: after an intense rollar coaster ride...as long as neither of you barfed

    LAYER TEN:
    -- # of drugs taken illegally: 1
    -- # of people I could trust with my life: a couple
    -- # of CDs that I own: meh, not that many
    -- # of piercings: two
    -- # of tattoos: none, i HATE tattoos
    -- # of scars on my body: a couple
    -- # things in my past that I regret: one very large thing... and a few minor ones
    and thats all she wrote ;)

    Current Mood: cold
    Current Music: justin timberlake: senorita
    Monday, September 29th, 2003
    11:15 pm
    missing the joe schmo show makes me very sad...
    sad. such a little word with soooooooooooo much meaning. and it can be used to serve so many differant purposes. like right now for instance im sad for a few reasons, but they are all differant kinds of sad. sad that i have to go to two doctors appointments on thursday, sad that i missed the joe schmo show, sad cause king kongs gonna fuck me up and give me v.d.'s. yeah other shit too, but i cant talk about all that. emily and kaykay and maggie all have birthdays coming up. did you ever get the feeling someone was trying to not so subtly tell you something and you know they are and you choose to aknowledge them and it ends up hurting you. old people in love is the sweetest thing ever. like they've loved each other for so long and have been together forever and its just real. it seems like no one has that anymore. when i look around me and see the attitude that everyone i know has about love and sex it makes me wonder if its even worth trying. doesnt anyone have any respect for themselves anymore? i mean its obvious that most people definatly dont have respect for other people. and you know what? it sickens me. it truly makes me want to throw up. all these people going around having sex and not even caring about the person, all they care about is making themselves feel good. and you know what? thats the most selfish unromantic thing ive ever heard. so maybe in hopeless and unrealistic, but id rather search for whats important to me and be respected then to settle for the scum that surronds us on an everyday basis. wow. suddenly feel so much NOT better. leave me love, i really need it.

    Current Mood: indescribable
    Current Music: "can you feel the love tonight" lion king soundtrack
    Sunday, September 28th, 2003
    11:59 pm
    you can try to break me but you wont win mike!!!
    so. that was totally not me who just wrote that last comment. that was mike. and its not the fact that he wrote that that angers me. its the fact that he lied. why lie? huh? and im not angry...im just disapointed. <----- lol remember when that was me being my dad?? lol its so hard for me to keep my mad face on. if only i could be like mr. potato head and had angry eyes i could put in. then it would be convincing that im mad. ok. i dont know, im too relaxed right now to even try to care. lol. peace.

    Current Mood: relaxed
    11:45 pm
    i love donkeys
    balls are gross. i love big mike. hes hot. mmmmmm......like chicken
    10:13 pm
    will the fucking bitch who took a showa please wipe up her water!!!!
    going home on the weekends makes me remember why i moved to college in the first place. yeah. i love my family to death, dont get me wrong, but sometimes i really wish that the death part...lol im just joking. but seriously why is it that your family knows exactly what to do to completely drive you crazy????????? meanwhile, have no computer to my name, luckily i have this really cool friend maggie who is letting me us hers. score! big mike is soooooo rude. yeah thats right, and what??? ok. gotta go watch lord of the rings. big mike says hes a pervert. like we didnt know already.

    Current Mood: enraged
    Current Music: that aweful song...i gotta get through this...
    Friday, September 26th, 2003
    8:48 am
    but im not drunk, i had punch...the punch that was made with grain alchohol? so im drunk? cool!!
    as you read this you may look at the time its written(8:27am) and wonder to yourself, hmmm doesnt nikki have an 8 o'clock class m,w,f? and if you asked yourself that question you would be very much correct. i do have child psych at 8 on this lovely morning. but since i woke up five minutes ago i didnt grace dr. ***** this morning. i was going to tell you who my professor was right there, but then i remembered when erin wrote the peer mediation ladies name in her journel last year there was some kind of scandel or something. so ill just keep names outta this. so im going home today. yeah! im gonna see all the people i love love love. some im more excited to see then others, but once again lets not name any names. you know whats weird though? when im here(on the weekends) im so bored and what not, but when i go home i kinda miss it and wonder whats going on here and what not. so last night i spent so much money on laundry, so not cool. when i go to the bank this weekend i have to get more rolls of quaters. how fucking gay is it that they dont have quater machines in the laundry room? hello, obviously a laundry room should have quarter machines. just like the stamp machines, right. in the school "post office" (where they dont sell stamps) they have these stamp machines outside and they only take coins. but there is no coin machine to be found. and they cant give you change in the post office. so ypu have to go to the commuter cafe and buy something and get them to give you change. which they will if they are in a giving mood. hmmm. my room is a complete mess and i have to pick it up this morning cause this afternoon right after my class im going home. maggies friend is so nice that shes letting my bum a ride off of her so i dont have to lug my shit on the train, which costs 5 whole dollars! unreal...lol. so the reason i need to pick up a little is that on sunday my mom is bringing me back here with my computer and i dont want her to think me and ellen are slobs. well mostly me, but you catch me drift. oh well im catching maggie for breakfast at ecc in like fifteen so i gotta go get dressed. catch y'all on the flip side. have an awesome weekend everyone.

    Current Mood: busy
    Current Music: jessica simpson: sweetest sin
    8:27 am
    but im not drunk, i had punch...the punch that was made with grain alchohol? so im drunk? cool!!
    as you read this you may look at the time its written(8:27am) and wonder to yourself, hmmm doesnt nikki have an 8 o'clock class m,w,f? and if you asked yourself that question you would be very much correct. i do have child psych at 8 on this lovely morning. but since i woke up five minutes ago i didnt grace dr. ***** this morning. i was going to tell you who my professor was right there, but then i remembered when erin wrote the peer mediation ladies name in her journel last year there was some kind of scandel or something. so ill just keep names outta this. so im going home today. yeah! im gonna see all the people i love love love. some im more excited to see then others, but once again lets not name any names. you know whats weird though? when im here(on the weekends) im so bored and what not, but when i go home i kinda miss it and wonder whats going on here and what not. so last night i spent so much money on laundry, so not cool. when i go to the bank this weekend i have to get more rolls of quaters. how fucking gay is it that they dont have quater machines in the laundry room? hello, obviously a laundry room should have quarter machines. just like the stamp machines, right. in the school "post office" (where they dont sell stamps) they have these stamp machines outside and they only take coins. but there is no coin machine to be found. and they cant give you change in the post office. so ypu have to go to the commuter cafe and buy something and get them to give you change. which they will if they are in a giving mood. hmmm. my room is a complete mess and i have to pick it up this morning cause this afternoon right after my class im going home. maggies friend is so nice that shes letting my bum a ride off of her so i dont have to lug my shit on the train, which costs 5 whole dollars! unreal...lol. so the reason i need to pick up a little is that on sunday my mom is bringing me back here with my computer and i dont want her to think me and ellen are slobs. well mostly me, but you catch me drift. oh well im catching maggie for breakfast at ecc in like fifteen so i gotta go get dressed. catch y'all on the flip side. have an awesome weekend everyone.
    Thursday, September 25th, 2003
    11:46 pm
    blonde is a state if mind...and yes i can change a tire...
    tonight was an interesting night. i like getting backrubs better then giving them. not that i mind giving them that much, its still ok, but it makes my thumbs hurt a bit. not that its that bad. but how does on work their thumb muscles? i mean correct me if im wrong, but in all my trips to the gym i've never seen a machine that works out any of your hand muscles, let alone the fingers and thumbs(which are not by definition fingers). i hate when people take your stuff without asking. thats not cool. i dont take your stuff without asking, and im the most unselfish person, and i definatly let anyone have anything in my room if they really needed it, but just have the common courtesy to fucking ask. so the blue notebook...yeah its gonna take me a while to digest that one. i dont know, some of the stuff in it just baffles me. i guess thats why im not a guy, huh? so i dont get it. if you believe society then you think that all guys love big boobs right? but why is it that almost every guy i know is like, naw i like "just a handful". ok, how insulting is that? is it our fault if our mother and all our aunts and our grandmother had large boobs and naturally we were also born with them too? it brings me back to the night of the "pool party" lol emily you know what im talking about. was it really necessary for john to say it out loud? i mean do guys who actually like big boobs, and im sure there must be a few out there, make a point of saying that they dont like small boobs? i dont think they do, cause it would hurt those less endowed girls feeling right? well big boobied girls have feeling too thank you. meanwhile still waiting for a cuddle...yeah fun times. had the most fucked up dream last night. wherein i got the shit kicked out of me. yeah thats always nice huh? oh well i guess i should think about my nice comfy bed sometime soon. sigh. someone leave me a nice message so ill smile when i read it!! p.s. lots of girls own pink underwear, people dont always know cause they arent sluts who let their pantys hang out for the world to see and only let the privalidged know about them...chew on that for a while...

    Current Mood: confused
    Current Music: r. kelly: thoia thoing
    Monday, September 22nd, 2003
    7:18 pm
    haven't you ever met me? i LOVE poptarts...
    hey hey hey! yeah so im just having such a happy day today. i dont know why im just in such a good good good mood!!!!!!!!!!!! my nails are all spakly from this beatiful nail polish that i have, which is exciting. luckily im going to get a new computer this weekend, which is such a score, cause this one sucks me ass. yeah. i guess on sat. were going to this party for this guy that my dads in the coast guard with right. and my sister tells me that c.t. from the real world is franks cousin or something and hes totally gonna be a franks party and shes freaking out. i guess she like talked to him on the phone and she was totally flipping out. lol marysa kills me. so i havent decided if i want to go or not, cause to be honest with you c.t. wasnt exactly my favorite one anyways. besides im going home for the weekend so i wanna chill with people, so if anyone wants to chill let me know, kk? cause i gotta have some fun fun fun. you know what im talking about, lol. so yeah i dont even know. i just cant wait to drive my car and i think maybe some umi chicken is in order...or as marysa and sarah and i like to call it in honor mike boggie chicken...lol mike you know you LOVE it! ah! you've got mail is the best movie in the whole world. i just saw a commercial for it and relized just how much i love that movie. now i want to watch it. oh well. so yeppers...thats my lil story for the day. im outty!

    Current Mood: bouncy
    Current Music: 112: anywhere
    Sunday, September 21st, 2003
    1:02 am
    howard stern then anna nicole smith...what else could you possibly need in your life??
    its sunday morning. barely, but it still counts. i think that i might go home next weekend to go and purchase a new computer and see people. like emily cause its almost her birthday and kay kay cause ?its almost her birthday first. the day before actually. and i have no money and i dont know what to get either one of them. way to be. weekend is a very strange term when you think about it right, cause when you think about weekend you think of friday night, satuerday, and sunday, right? well....isnt sunday the first day of the week? how can it really be part of the weekend if it's really the week beginning??? yeah, chew on that for a little while why dontcha? i really in all seriousness need a job. like as in i have absolutely no money and need a new computer and a winter jacket and some boots and i need to pay my phone bill in a monthly basis and yeah. idk. i love how i paid the car insurance for my car until march right? and i dont even get to fucking drive it. its so ridiculously stupid. talk about a waste of fuckin money. oh well at least ill get to see him when i go home next weekend right? what did we name the car again kay kay? white sexual chocolate right? we definatly the coolest kids ever. yeah. you know what i was thinking about earlier? driving around, barnes and nobles comes to mind, rt. 114 and a certain radio show...you know what im talkin about. lol. we had some fun times...why dont we chill any more? you should take my car and come and visit me. thats the best idea i ever thought of on my own, lol. and you can bring little laura too, if she wants to come, which she better or ill kick her ass. lol. emily are you up for some birthday cake ice cream this weekend? lol, come on i really do want to get food at the mall this time, lol its not a ploy i swear. and we can go to walmart and get shit to decorate my room for halloweeny. are you coming to visit soon? cause im going through withdrawels and i really want you to come and see what its like to live here. cause its really not that exciting, but i know youll find excitment in it somewhere!! lol. so, emme, to tell you something in a code of sorts that only you would understand...lol...im still waiting for my september 17th and my hands down. being here isnt helping it look like its any closer. is it??? huh emily is it??? lol. cause your a mind reader and all. we should go and get massages this weekend. or facials. omg thats the best idea i ever had. that is so what i need right now. you up for it? do you have to work on satuerday? i hope not. i told the parentals i wasnt going to that party, you know the one that t.c. from the real world is gonna be at? cause i want to chill with you. i really hope that you dont already have plans. cause that would be sooooooooo aweful. so aweful. oh well, im so mad mikes telling me how sheree dunwells crazy ass mother was talking about how sheree and i used to be best friends and how i screwed sheree over. i dont really understand that one. oh wait yes i do, sherees mom is a crazy fucking psycho? tell me, if i was such a bad friend to sheree, then why was i invited to her surprise 18th birthday party a few months ago? when sheree and i had only seen each other when sheree came to my window at the bank. yeah mike, i was there i saw your dad and stepmother and joleen. so i dont quite understand how my name came up when she was at your house last night, but like i said i really hope you stood up for me. she tells everyone her daughter is so wonderful and all that shit, which yeah sheree is a really cool perosn and shes super smart and she can sing and all...but the truth is that her mom treats her like shit. nothing sheree does is ever good enough. for christ sake i remember when we went to st pius she was afraid to bring home an 87% cause her mom was going to ground her. wow. now i may not be as smart as sheree, but im smart enough to figure out that her mom needs some counsling or drugs or preferably both. and with that im spent. sheree if you read this you know i love you, jen and abby for life. and you know everything i just said is the truth...and if you feel like i did you wrong in some way i really wish youd tell me so i dont have to hear it when im talking to mike about how your drunk mother made me sound like an asshole to his whole family. considering the fact that im already working against the tide, this really pisses me off. the bed looks nice i think im gonna go jump in. peace.

    Current Mood: sleepy
    Current Music: lil jon: get low
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