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Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
8:41 pm - I remembered..
I'm proud.

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Sunday, April 4th, 2004
7:16 pm
Hmm


Check it out. Lets just say I got bored.

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Wednesday, March 31st, 2004
2:54 pm
almost forgot I had one of these...

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Wednesday, March 10th, 2004
8:46 pm

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Monday, January 12th, 2004
4:12 pm
Yet another..
You are Dani Filth of Cradle of
Filth!..Handsome,gruesome..and dark..you like
to see blood... and a lot of it..you enjoy
mocking vampires and watching the Munsters.
Sodomy and lust is a must in your life.


!!What Vocalist Are You?!
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You Belong to Cradle of Filth! You and frontman Dani Filth are very much alike. You cast a dark shadow everywhere you go..along with hate and greed. They are without doubt Britain's most ou
You Belong to Cradle of Filth! You and frontman
Dani Filth are very much alike. You cast a dark
shadow everywhere you go..along with hate and
greed. They are without doubt Britain's most
favoured Black Metal band. Your fascination
with Vampirism and all things that belong in
the forbidden outrageous and controversial
love to new heights..are of unbridled
intensity.


What band are you a member of?
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current mood: apathetic
current music: Opeth - Harvest

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Friday, December 19th, 2003
9:20 pm
[cochise] im australian
[xmarkusx] really?
[cochise] yeah
[cochise] what about yourself?
[xmarkusx] white australian?
[xmarkusx] I'm not going to do anything if not
[cochise] yeah im white im not an aboriginal
[xmarkusx] alright
[cochise] i have the english blood in my veins
[xmarkusx] alright
[cochise] so what about you?
[xmarkusx] also Australian
[cochise] really!? hahahaha i thought you were german
[xmarkusx] I have german blood in me
[xmarkusx] but born Australian
[cochise] so what made you rasit in the first place?
[xmarkusx] racist? Nothing really
[xmarkusx] I got some of it from a mate of mine, I guess
[cochise] but whats the problem with the black society
[xmarkusx] they're slowing us down
[xmarkusx] colonies should stick to colonies
[xmarkusx] think of the black colonies in africa and shit... they're still wearing animal skins, they don't evolve, they don't grow as a society
[xmarkusx] and look at white people over the same period of time, we're constantly making scientific and medical breakthroughs, constantly getting smarter and better
[xmarkusx] and the blacks are trying to integrate themselves into our society, taking away our jobs and our women and all
[xmarkusx] and ultimately slowing us down
[cochise] but as a society they adapt to their own ecological environment... many black people have contributed to the greater development of mankind
[xmarkusx] with the aid of white people
[cochise] no one's develpment is without aid
[xmarkusx] they would still be in colonies hunting animals with fucking spears if it wasn't for us
[xmarkusx] and we have all these white people giving blacks our jobs
[xmarkusx] putting our money towards them
[xmarkusx] and all they do is slow us down
[xmarkusx] if we hadn't brought some of them into our society, they wouldn't have contributed at all to the greater development, I think. It would have been a white person, and we wouldn't have made the development a lot quicker than black people would
[xmarkusx] in my opinion
[xmarkusx] it's nothing personal to them
[xmarkusx] but they take our jobs, our money, our women, our medical facilities, everything that we've built for ourselves
[cochise] but the black society have other means of development... just because it is not portrayed in your immage of the future doesnt mean that they do not contribute to society
[xmarkusx] you can tell they're not benefiting us.. think of all the black people in low, shitty jobs, and compare that to the number of them in high jobs
[xmarkusx] they contribute very little
[xmarkusx] and what they do contribute, they've learnt from white people
[cochise] how can you take one oppion and place it on ever man who has a different race
[xmarkusx] if we left them on their own, they wouldn't develop nearly as much as we do
[cochise] dont live in a stereotype
[xmarkusx] mate, I'm not trying to change your opinion, I'm merely stating mine. I'd appreciate if you didn't try to change my opinion.
[cochise] ok thats fair enough
[xmarkusx] thank you
[cochise] but i dont see why youtreat them without compasion
[xmarkusx] All I'm saying is I think that we should be taking care of our own people, before we try and let other people into our community who are only slowing it down
[xmarkusx] I treat those who deserve compassion with compassion
[xmarkusx] If there's a black man of status, I'm not going to disrespect him, because he's trying to better our society
[xmarkusx] but all those black fucks cleaning diners and doing garbage collection isn't doing shit all for anything
[xmarkusx] the people who sleep with our women, who take our money, they are the ones I have a problem with
[cochise] but every race contributes to all society... its not just science that is developing
[xmarkusx] and I have every reason to, I want to see our own race taken care of before other ones.
[xmarkusx] If you were with your family, you would want them looked after first before other people you don't know
[cochise] what about culture... thats just as important as science
[xmarkusx] similarly, I want our race looked after before another
[xmarkusx] I'm not only talking about science
[xmarkusx] I'm talking about all aspects
[xmarkusx] we have our own culture. We know enough about the other ones.
[xmarkusx] In my opinion.
[cochise] but culture is spead through multiculturalism
[xmarkusx] i know. We can find out about cultures without them trying to take what is rightfully ours
[cochise] how can we find it out if we dont experience their lifestyles... if you dont socialise with other races their would be no knowledge of these cultures
[cochise] no development of exploration and further knowledge
[xmarkusx] we can know about them without them trying to integrate themselves into our society
[cochise] no we cant... tell me how
[xmarkusx] we can. we can talk to them, we can find out things, but that does not give them reason to try and take what's ours
[cochise] taking knowledge... thats what we are taking
[xmarkusx] we aren't taking knowledge, we'd be finding things out for ourselves.
[xmarkusx] We can find out things without having to share what we have.
[xmarkusx] We should be worrying about our own
[cochise] dare to dream
[xmarkusx] rather than thinking about handing out benefits for those who can't get things themselves
[xmarkusx] do you understand where I'm coming from though?
[cochise] but we can better ourselves in the process
[xmarkusx] not by letting themselves into our society
[xmarkusx] we can better ourselves without them.
[cochise] i mean bettering the world as a whole
[xmarkusx] we can better the world without them.
[xmarkusx] They should stick to their own kind.
[xmarkusx] You don't see us trying to get ourselves into their society
[xmarkusx] You don't see us trying to form camps out in the sahara and running around in animal skins
[cochise] what are you talking about ... we do the same
[xmarkusx] no we don't
[cochise] yes we do.... every culture does the same
[xmarkusx] no they don't
[xmarkusx] we don't run around acting like primitives
[cochise] doctors, scientist, explorers, writters, journalists, athletes... the list goes on
[xmarkusx] um. I'm not following, I was telling you how we don't try and get into their societies. You don't find us trying to be like them. Because what they have is not desirable.
[cochise] we dont try to be anyone... we become ourselves... others just help our development
[xmarkusx] lol I think we're better off agreeing to disagree
[cochise] yeah i can agree with that

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1:30 pm
I can't see the meaning of this life I'm leading
I try to forget you as you forgot me
This time there is nothing left for you to take, this is goodbye
Summer is miles and miles away
And no one would ask me to stay
And I should contemplate this change
To ease the pain
And I should step out of the rain
And turn away
Close to ending it all, I am drifting through the stages
Of the rapture born within this loss
Thoughts of death inside, tear me apart from the core of my soul
At times the dark's fading slowly
But it never sustains
Would someone watch over me
In my time of need
Close to ending it all, I am drifting throught the stages
Of the rapture born within this loss
Thoughts of death inside, tear me apart from the core of my soul

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Sunday, November 23rd, 2003
4:42 pm - holy fuck..
there's no one online that I really want to talk to, so I'v decided to fill out one motherfucker of a survey... 237 questions. Go me.


....


Time: 4:45pm




About You




1. First Name: Mark




2. Last Name: Davies




3. Do you like your name?: sure..




4. Nicknames: Marky, Sparky, Sparkman..




5. Age: 19




6. Birthday: August 18




7. Where do you live?: Sydney, Australia




8. Do you like it where you live?: yeah it's cool




9. Where were you born?: here




10. Height: last time I measured, 6'2"




11. Do you wish you were a different height?: no I'm fine with this one...




Favourites




12. Food: fried rice




13. Number: 13




14. Date: wouldn't have a clue...




15. Day of the Week: Thursdays




16. Day of the Year: New Year's




17. Candy: I don't like sweet stuff that much




18. Ice Cream: Anything with as much chocolate as possible




19. Place to shop: I don't like shopping




20. Place to shop for clothes: see above




21. Song: At the moment, anything by Disturbed, Slipknot, Adema, Mudvayne or Spineshank




22. Movie: Fight Club




23. Band/Group: Disturbed




24. Sport: snow boarding




25. Subject in School: PE




26. Holiday: New Year's Day




27. Color: Black, Dark Red, Grey




28. Color of clothes to wear: Black




29. Type of clothes to wear: Baggy, gothic, black, with spikes and shit




30. Shoes: boots




31. Fruit: blueberries




32. Veggie: Broccoli




33. Animal: Tigers




34. Magazine: Twisted or Blunt




35. Game: Sonic the Hedgehog




Least Faveorites




36. Food: greek food




37. Number: 14




38. Date: wouldn't have a clue




39. Day of the Week: Monday




40. Day of the Year: Christmas




41. Candy: honey flavoured shit




42. Ice Cream: pistachio




43. Place to shop: anywhere




44. Place to shop for clothes: anywhere




45. Song: Nikki Webster - Strawberry Kisses




46. Movie: The Spice Girls Movie... though Victoria Beckham is hot..




47. Band/Group: The Backstreet Boys




48. Sport: luge




49. Subject in school: Maths




50. Holiday: all year is a holiday...




51. Color: yellow




52. Color of clothes to wear: anything fluro




53. Type of clothes to wear: glittery or lacy.




54. Shoes: don't know




55. Fruit: bananas




56. Veggie: asparagus




57. Animal: hippos




58. Magazine: I don't know.. I don't pay much attention to magazines I don't like, so I wouldn't know the name of them..




59. Game: tetris






More About You




60. Shoe size: hold on.. I have to check.. 10 1/2




61. Hair color: irridescent blue




62. Do you or have you ever dyed your hair?: um.




63. Hair length: short




64. Most embarrassing moment: too many to name.. though most things don't embarass me.. I'm not fazed by much. Like waking up in Hyde Park naked.. wasn't that big an obstacle for me




65. Are you getting bored or annoyed yet?: I was bored to begin with




66. What time is it?: 4:55




67. What do you want to be when you grow up?: I'm relatively grown already




Have you Ever...




68. Hiked a mountain?: Yes




69. Walked a mile?: How long is a mile? I imagine so..




70. Really walked a mile in someone elses shoes?: what the fuck?




71. Ate a whole box of oreos?: no I don't like oreos




72. Been in love?: Yes




73. Stayed up all night?: Yes




74. Broken a bone?: Yes




75. Pulled a muscle?: Yes




76. Fractured something?: Yes




77. Sprained something?: Yes




78. Watched the show Happy Days?: No




79. Cried because you've missed someone?: Define miss. Missed meaning that I will see them again, no. Missed meaning that they are gone forever, yes.




80. Had a party?: Yes




81. Been on a boat?: Yes




82. Been on a plane?: Yes




83. If you were on a plane, was it scary?: No, I prayed it would crash.




84. Done the chicken dance?: Probably




85. Been on a train?: Yes




86. Ate so much chocolate and/or candy that you puked?: No..




87. Had a food fight?: Yes




88. Jumped on a trampoline?: Yes




89. Played spin the bottle?: Yes




90. Been in a fist fight?: Yes




91. Been in a hospital?: Yes




92. Been in a hospital(not to visit someone but as a patient)?: Yes




93. Had a falling dream?: Yes




94. Been out of the country?: Yes




95. Played baseball with a bunch of friends?: not baseball, soccer




96. Took a Bubble Bath?: Yes, not out of my own free will...




97. Made a web page?: Aided in making one, yeah




98. Been in a car accident?: Yes




99. Driven a Car?: Yes




100. Woo hoo This is 100, how do you feel?: Still bored as fuck




101. Tried smoking or drugs?: Yes




102. Laughed so Hard that you peed in your pants?: Almost...




103. Lied? Yes




104. Fallen asleep in class?: Yes




105. Played with Barbies?: No




This or That




106. Campfire or fireplace?: Campfire




107. MMs or Skittles?: Neither




108. MTV or VH1?: What the fuck?




109. Movies or Music?: Both




110. Stay up late or sleep in?: Both




111. Sun or Moon?: Moon




112. How sick are you of this survey?: Not very, it hasn't required much thought so far.




113. What Time is it now?: 4:59




114. 10 acquaintances or 1 bestfriend?: 10 acquaintances.




115. Short or Tall?: short or tall what?




116. Vanilla or chocolate?: Vanilla




117. Cat or dog?: Dog.. a gnarly motherfucker




118. Newspaper or Magazine?: Magazine, I don't have the patience to read a newspaper




119. Is the glass half empty or half full?: Half empty, of course




120. McDonalds or Burger King?: Burger King




121. Fish or Mice?: Mice




123. Happy or Sad?: Sad




124. Serious or funny?: Funny




125. Happy or sad ending?: Sad




126. Scary movie or Funny movie?: Scary




127. Scary movie or sad movie?: Scary




128. Funny movie or a sad movie?: Funny




129. Brother or sister?: Brother




130. Barbie or Skipper?: Eh?




131. Bikini or one piece?: Bikini.. on girls..




132. Snow or rain?: Rain




133. Candy or Fruit?: Neither




134. Plane or car?: Car




135. Run or walk?: Run




136. Swim or skate?: Swim




137. Pepsi or Coke?: Coke




138. A house in the woods or a house in the City?: City




139. The dark or light?: Dark




140. Rainy or Sunny?: Rainy




141. Duct tape or scotch tape?: Duct




142. sneakers or sandals?: Sneakers




143. Lions or Tigers?: Lions




144. Mustard or ketchup?: Ketchup




145. Rap or Rock?: Rock




146. Party or stay home?: Party




147. Skates or Bike?: Skates




Other Random Stuff




148. How many siblings do you have?: Can't be certain




149. Do you like your siblings?: Probably not




150. Do you have any pets?: The guy I'm living with does. A snake. It's cool.




151. Do you like your pets?: his pet. Yeah.




152. Who is your favorite family member?: None of them.




153. How are you liking this survey?: Indifferent.




154. What time is it?: 5:03




155. What's the last thing you ate?: I can't remember, it was a few days ago




156. Are you hungry right now?: No




157. What would you like to eat right now?: Nothing




158. Have you ever went on a diet?: Not exactly. But I've gone long amounts of time without eating.




159. Do you believe in God?: No




160. What do you think about Diet Coke?: What the fuck?? ... who cares??




161. How are you feeling today?: Shit, thanks for asking, what are you intending on doing about it?




When was the last time that you've...




162. Cried?: A long time




163. Laughed?: Last night




164. Danced?: Last night




165. Watched TV?: This morning




166. Hugged someone?: This morning




167. Stayed up past midnight?: Last night




168. Jumped on a bed?: Can't remember, I usually sleep on them




169. Been happy?: Truly happy? Fucked if I know




170. Been sad?: It's the natural state for me




171. Drank bottled water?: About two minutes ago




172. Went swimming in a lake?: Years




173. Been to the beach?: Weeks




174. Hung out with some friends?: Last night




175. Took a shower?: This morning




176. Took a bath?: Ages




177. Went for a walk?: This morning




178. Went for a bike ride?: A few hours ago




179. Played a board game?: Can't remember




180. Been bored?: I am currently




181. Eaten Birthday cake?: Years




In your opinion




182. Do fish have feelings too?: How the fuck would I know...




183. What do you think of diet coke?: this has already been asked.. and I still don't give a flying fuck...




184. Should ants be kept in ant farms?: Should humans be kept in human farms?




185. What time is it?: 5:07




186. What do you think of black nail polish?: I love it




187. What do you think of pink nail polish?: On chicks it's fine




188. What do you think of no nail polish?: Fine




189. What do you think of shopping?: Hate it. Unless it's CD shopping.




190. Are people who talk to Animals crazy?: Ask them.. I don't think you can call someone crazy, just because they talk to a loved pet.




191. Are you a good person?: Fuck no.




192. Are you funny?: Ask someone who knows me




193. Are mice cute?: No, they're snake food.




194. Are snakes scary?: No.




195. Does jelly taste good?: I can't remember




196. Is the color black beautiful?: Yes




197. Is black even a color? Yes




198. Is pink pretty?: It can be




199. What do you feel about the color blue?: Nothing. It's a colour.




200. Woo hoo This is 200, how do you feel? Indifferent.




201. Are you getting sick of the color questions?: Yes.




202. How many chocolate chips should a cookie have?: As many as it's made with




203. Is Nintendo better than Playstation?: No




204. Is bottled water really better than tap water?: Yes




205. What pizza place has the best pizza?: One that I'm yet to discover




More About You




206. Okay, what's the time right now?: 5:09




207. How are you feeling right now?: Tired. Hungover. I have a headache.




208. How many cookies do you think you could eat?: None, I'm not hungry




209. How many pieces of pizza can you eat?: As many as it takes to fill me up




210. How much chocolate can you eat?: I don't like chocolate unless it's chocolate ice cream.




211. What kind of shoes do you wear the most?: Boots. Chunky fuckers.




212. What kind of clothes do you wear the most?: Black. Gothic. Chains. Spikes. Leather.




213. What color are your nails painted right now?: Black




214. What are you listening to?: Disturbed




215. Do you like ironing your clothes?: No




216. Do you like to read?: Sometimes




217. Do you like school?: No




218. What grade are you in?: I'm not




219. What's the best part of the school day?: Leaving




220. Why?: Because I'd be out of school.




The Last Section




221. This is the last section of the survey, how do you feel?: Nothing.




222. Did you like this survey?: Not particularly, but I had to do something to pass the time.




223. Was it the longest one that you have ever completed?: This one. I think.




224. Do you like filling these surveys out?: Sure. It passes time.




225. What do you want to do now that you are done with this?: Find something else to do.




226. Any last words?:




227. That's nice, but we're still not done: Great.




228. How many people did you send this to?: Did I send this to? a) I haven't sent it to anyone, this is a journal. b) even if this was an email, I wouldn't have sent it yet, dumb fuck.




229. How many of those people do you think will send it back to you?: This is a journal.




230. Who is most likely to send it back?:




231. Who is least likely to send it back?:




232. Do you care if anyone sends it back?:




233. Do you like the person who sent this to you?:




234. Okay, what's the time now?: 5:13




235. So, how long did it take you to finish this?: I haven't finished it yet




236. Was it a waste of your time?: No, I had to do something, it may as well have been this

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2:33 pm - Linkin Park - Easier To Run
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face this pain here all alone

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
These secrets I’ve kept locked away no-one could never see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they've played

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all the shame to the grave

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so, there'd never be a past

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don’t feel misplaced
It’s so much simpler than change

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

It's easier to run

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made

It's easier to go

If I could change I would
Take all the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all the shame to the grave


current mood: depressed/pseudo-suicidal

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12:26 am - Disturbed.Bound
Darkness cover me!

I'm not ready to die girl
Because of what you don't tell me
I'm not willing to walk inside of where you're taking me
I'm not ready to die girl
Because of what you don't tell me
I'm not willing to compromise the man i want to be

Think you're a little bit closer to changing me
You're never winning me over you're wasting time
Leave me be

I'm not ready to die girl
Because of what you don't tell me
I'm not willing to tow the line of your conformity
I'm not ready to die girl
Because of what you don't tell me
I'm not ready to leave the realm of anonymity

Think you're a little bit closer to changing me
You're never winning me over you're wasting time
Leave me be

Get away from me

Think you're a little bit closer to changing me
You're never winning me over you're wasting time
Leave me be

current mood: pseudo-suicidal
current music: Anything really motherfucking loud..

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Saturday, November 22nd, 2003
11:40 pm
So far, in the past month, I've recieved this from 17 people.


The Dandy Warhols - Not If You Were The Last Junkie On Earth

I never thought you'd be a junkie because heroin is so passe.
But today, If you think that I don't know about depression and emotional pain,
You're insane.
And you're a fool who hasn't paid attention to a word that I say.
In a way,
I can't help but feel responsible, I always knew that you were insane.
With your pain.
But I never thought you'd be a junkie because heroin is so passe.
Heroin is so passe.
Heroin is so passe.
So passe. Nowaday,
You never thought you'd get addicted, Just be cooler in an obvious way.
I could say,
Shouldn't you have got a couple piercings and decided maybe that you were gay.
In a way,
I can't help but feel responsible, I always knew that you were insane,
With your pain .
But I never thought you'd be a junkie because heroin is so passé.
Heroin is so passe.
Heroin is so passe. Ahh, ahh, ahh. Heroin is so passe.
Heroin is so passé. Heroin is so passe. Ahh, ahh, hey, hey.

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Tuesday, November 18th, 2003
9:40 pm - And another one. Can you tell how fucking bored I fucking am...
Name: Mark

Nicknames: Sparky, Sparkman, Marky, Mrak, MD

Screen Name: marked ¤MD¤ mrmark

yahoo: none

When is your birthday?: August 18

Eye color: It changes.

Hair color: Navy blue

Natural Hair Color: Brown

Who do you love/like: Not many

Who is your best friend?: Justin would be the best I have

Who is your girl crush?: ...

Who is your boy crush?: Brandon.. haha

Your favorite people? (Up to 10):

x -- Caitlin
x -- Samara
x -- Justin
x -- Lisa
x -- Brandon
x -- Dave
x -- Luce
x -- Steph
x -- Jonno
x -- Woodeh



~RIGHT NOW~

Outfit: Black cargo shorts, black t shirt

Hairstyle: Spiked

Jewelry/Accessories: Metal bead necklace, spiked collar and wrist bands, fuck bands, celtic ring, tongue pierce

Underwear: Boxers

Do drugs: Yes

Wear dark colors: Yes

Dye your hair: Yes

Shave strange places: Define strange...

~HAVE YOU EVER~

Kissed someone: Yes

Killed someone:

Been raped: No

Smoked: Yes

Gotten Drunk: Yes

Worn rainbow: ?

Talked on the phone for over 3 hours: Yes

Left the country: Yes

Had a party with over 30 people: Yes

Taken nude pictures: Of?

Stolen something: Yes

Caught something on fire: Yes

Cheated on someone: Yes

Wanted to cheat on someone: Yes

Asked someone out: Yes

Been dumped: Yes

Dumped someone: Yes

Had a dream, then the next day it happens: Yes


~PICK ONE~

Cat/Dog: Dog

White/Black: Black.

Hot/Cold: Cold

Far/Near: Far.

Water/Land: Water.

Kiss/Sex: Sex.

Online/Phone: Online.

Beer/Book: Beer.

Novel/Poetry: Novel.

Music/Silence: Music.


~DREAM MATE~

Short/Long Hair: Long.

Preppy/Dorky/Druggie: All.

Freckles/No Freckles: It doesn't matter.

Hair Color: Doesn't matter

Hat/No hat: Either.

Fat/Thin: Doesn't matter.

Makeup/No Makeup: Black eyeliner on guys and girls = hot.

Dressy/Casual: Either.

Holding hands/Holding 'other body parts': Both.



~LAST PERSON~

You Touched: Brandon

You Talked to: Lou

You Hugged: Brandon

You Kissed: Brandon

Had sex with: ...

You Instant messaged: Lisa

Who broke your heart: ...

~ARE YOU~

Understanding: Usually

Open-minded: Usually

Arrogant: Can be

Insecure: No

Interesting: Depends

Hungry: no

Smart: At some things

Moody: Usually

Childish: Can be

Independent: Very

Hard working: Sometimes.

Healthy: No

Emotionally Stable: No

Shy: No

Difficult: All the time

Attractive: ...

Bored Easily: Yes

Thirsty: Yes.

Obsessed: No. Addicted.

Angry: Yes.

Sad: Yes.

Happy: No.

Trusting: No.

Ill: No.

Talkative: Somewhat.

Ignored: Yes.

Reliable: No.

Self-disciplined: Somewhat.

Sleepy: Yes.

Lonely: Somewhat.




Word Association
-dog- collar
-brown- water
-hot- flame
-water- cool
-bed- rest
-flower- alive
-cold- autumn
-love- broken
-cow- spots
-car- red
-sex- healthy
-phone- disconnected
-ring- bind
-God- bullshit
-friend- fake
-swim- breathe
-rock- dirt
-sweet- candy
-bad- punishment
-tree- broad
-school- boring
-summer- hot
-picture- frame
-fast- life
-boat- oars
-shower- long
-feather- light
-ear- deaf
-vomit- bolemia
-baby- new
-light- dark
-blood- warm

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Have You Ever...
-puked on someone you really liked?- Yes
-eaten pure sugar?- Yes
-mixed sodas together?- Yes
-hung up on someone?- Yes
-had the cops called on you?- On multiple occasions
-stayed up for more than 24 hrs straight?- Yes
-stood on your head and drank milk?- No
-cried during a movie?- No
-swallowed gum?- Yes
-said, "I love you" and not meant it?- Yes
-eaten glue?- Can't say that I have
-slept for more than 15 hrs?- Yes
-been on a train?- Yes

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Finish the Sentence
-I would like to go to... sleep
-I want... a purpose
-I need... psychological help o.O
-more than anything I... want to get away
-If I won the lottery... I'd be rich?
-I love...
-I see... emptiness
-My dream concert would be... Korn/Disturbed/Adema
-The last thing I did was...Answer the previous question
-The last person I hugged was... Brandon
-I yelled at... Dave
-I cried when... I didn't cry
-If I could have one pet it would be... a bear
-Last night... I tried to kill myself again. I should really stop doing that.
-Right now... is tedious
-Love is... a pain in the neck
-I hate... liars
-My favorite phrase is... It is better to burn out than to fade away
-The last person I saw was... Dave
-My parents... are fucked. I don't even know where my mum is... what can I say, I feel loved..
-God is... mass-media propaganda.
-My favorite sport is... fencing
-My favorite band is... Korn/Disturbed
-I last ate.. four days ago
-I'd like to... rest
-On a scale of 1-10, I rate this survey... I don't rate this survey, it was merely me passing time...

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8:35 pm - Can you tell how bored I am...
You and Yourself
1) What's your name? Mark
2) Do you like your name? Sure
3) What other names were your parents going to name you? Michael or Philip are the only one's I remember.
4) And if you were born the opposite sex? Isabel
5) What is the most annoying name? It's just names...
6) What is the most attractive name? see above.
7) Ever wish you were a member of the opposite sex? No, not really
10) How do you relax? Different ways. Get pissed, get high, sleep.

You and Others
1) Who is your best friend? Dave.
2) Why are they your best friend? Wouldn't have a clue
3) Do you have many enemies? More so than friends
4) Do you find it easy to get along with other people? No.. people generally tend to annoy me
5) Do you talk to strangers? All the time
6) Prefer to talk to people younger or older than you? Either
7) Are you patient when talking to others? Not often
8) How to you deal with people that annoy you? Avoid them, hit them, annoy them back.
9) Would you say you are polite? Depends on who I'm talking to

You and Love
1) Are you in a relationship with anyone? I tend to avoid this question.
3) If not, are you currently looking?
4) Would you ever have an affair, and why? Yes, it's part of my general nature.
5) Do you agree with casual sex? For the most part, yeah.
6) Would you have a relationship with someone that already had children? It depends on the kind of relationship, but no, I don't think I would.
7) How old do you want to be when you marry? I don't want to marry
9) What would you call your future children? (Male and Female) I'll get back to you on this one.
10) Would you ever marry an 80-year-old millionaire? No, I don't want to marry
11) What is your age limit for relationships? There isn't one, exactly.. though I don't think I'd be going over the 30 years mark.

You and Life
1) What do you want as a future career? I don't.
2) What are your ambitions? What ambitions?
5) How would you want to die? Any way, as long as it's relatively soon.
7) Would you kill yourself if a loved one died? I'd probably kill myself anyway, so sure. An easy excuse for it, I suppose.
8) If you had one last request, what would it be? That no one dies because of me. The person knows who they are.
9) If you only had a month to live, what would you do? Sulk, as it's probably two months too long.
10) What is the point of life? Wouldn't have a clue, it's different for everyone.
11) What are you living for? I really don't know. The vague hope that there might be more.

What is your opinion on...
2) Discrimination? I'm an avid participator.
3) Smacking children? If they need to be disciplined and nothing else is working, then sure. But it should be justified.
7) Online dating? Depends on the situation
8) Adultery? Each to their own.
10) Vegetarian diets? I'm vegetarian usually.. when I can be bothered.
11) Self harm? I should teach it, I'm that qualified.

You and Situations
1) If you could save only one person from a burning building, your favoured parental figure or a doctor with the knowledge to cure a disease such as HIV or cancer, whom would you save? The doctor. I don't have a favoured parental figure.
2) If you (or your other half) were expecting a child, but were told that due to unfortunate complications, only the mother or child could be saved, which would you let die? The mother
3) If you were trapped in a lift that was about to collapse with a elderly lady and a young boy, who has the right to escape first? Depends on the people. If the young boy had a day to live, I'd say the elderly lady. If the boy had his whole life to live, I'd say the boy.
4) How would you react if you came home and caught your best friend cheating on your trusted other half? It would be old news.
5) Would you sacrifice your own life for a loved one or family member? It depends on the person.
6) Would you ever donate any of your organs to anyone, either a loved one or a total stranger that needed it? Depends on the person, and which organs...
7) Would you ever abort your own child, or place them up for adoption if they were disabled or unplanned? No
8) If your best friend's other half was cheating on them, and you knew, would you tell your friend, or confront his other half? Both, and bash the fucker that was cheating on my mate.
9) How would you react if your own child was a murderer and placed on death row? Would you campaign for or against their life? What fucking parent would campaign against their own child's life?
10) If a family member or loved one were killed either through an accident or murder, would you demand justice, the killer’s death, or try and forgive them? I'd go after the murderer myself.

When is your birthday?: August 18
Eye color: It changes
Hair color: At the moment navy blue.
Who do you love/like: Not many.
Who is your girl crush?: dunno
Who is your boy crush?: dunno
~RIGHT NOW~
Outfit: black cargo shorts and a t shirt.
Hairstyle: spiked.
Jewelry/Accessories: metal bead necklace, spiked wrist bands, fuck bands, spiked collar.
Underwear: boxers
Do drugs: constantly
Wear dark colors: constantly
~HAVE YOU EVER~
Kissed someone: yes
Killed someone: not a suitable question, so I'm not going to answer it.
Smoked: yes
Gotten Drunk: yes
Talked on the phone for over 3 hours: yes
Left the country: yes
Had a party with over 30 people: yes
Taken nude pictures: of who?
Stolen something: yes
Caught something on fire: yes
Cheated on someone: yes
Asked someone out: yes
Been dumped: yes
Had a dream, then the next day it happens: I dont dream

~LAST PERSON~
You Touched: Brandon
You Talked to: Caitlin
You Hugged: Brandon
You Kissed: Brandon
Had sex with: none of your business
You Instant messaged: Alee
Who broke your heart: ...
~ARE YOU~
Understanding: sometimes
Open-minded: most of the time
Arrogant: can be
Insecure: at times
Interesting: /fucked in the head
Hungry: not right now
Smart: if the occasion calls for it.
Moody: always
Childish: sometimes
Independent: yes
Hard working: depends on what I'm working at
Healthy: no
Emotionally Stable: no
Shy: no
Difficult: yes
Attractive: no
Bored Easily: yes
Thirsty: yes
Obsessed: no
Angry: always
Sad: always
Happy: not often
Trusting: no
Talkative: depends on who I'm talking to
Ignored: yes
Reliable: no
Self-disciplined: no
Sleepy: no
Lonely: no

Do You...
-have a pool?- I do now
-have cable?- yes
-watch MTV?- no
-sleep nude?- sometimes
-have a waterbed?- no
-have a watch?- yes
-sing in the shower?- sometimes
-keep a photo album?- no, but I keep some photos
-drink water?- yes
-like roller coasters?- they bore me
-drive?- I use a motorbike usually.
-have a best friend?- no

Food (do you like...)
-tacos?- no
-bread?- no
-veggies?- yes
-pizza?- yes
-doritoes?- no
-pretzles?- no
-chocolate?- sometimes
-garlic?- not by itself
-veal?- no
-hamburgers?- yes
-chicken?- yes
-hot dogs?- no
-ice cream?- yes
-popcorn?- no
-pop tarts?- no
-coke?- yes
-pepsi?- yes
-gatorade?- sometimes

Online Journal
-How many times do you update your journal?- Whenever I'm bored or feel the need to
-How many hours do you spend on here?- I don't time myself
-How does your journal look?- I can't remember
-How many icons do you have?- Wouldn't have a clue
-Can you do any of those cool LiveJournal overrides?- haven't tried
-Do you have music on your journal?- no
-Do you update your journal with font colors?- no
-How many communities do you belong to?- can't remember

Have You Ever...
-bunji jumped?- yes
-gotten a tattoo?- yes
-sky dived?- not yet
-skinny dipped?- yes
-gotten your tongue stuck to a cold pole?- yes
-played truth or dare?- yes
-kissed for more than 10 minutes at one time?- yes
-made a prank phone call?- yes
-flashed someone?- yes
-set anything on fire?- yes
-eaten snow?- yes
-mixed sodas together?- yes
-had sushi?- yes
-worn a thong or speedo bathing suit?- no
-had dejavu? - yes
-hung up on someone?- yes
-used all cuss words in a sentence?- yes
-had the cops called on you?- yes
-stayed up for more than 24 hrs straight?- yes
-cried during a movie?- no
-swallowed gum?- yes
-said, "I love you" and not meant it?- yes
-slept for more than 15 hrs?- not that I can remember

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6:49 pm - And more.
HASH(0x87f0bb8)
Yaoi.
All you want is hardcore yaoi. It doesn't matter
who the couple is and it doesn't matter how
they got together as long as they screw. ^_^
Good for you, you're a yaoi fan.


What kind of yaoi do you like?
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heroin
.:What's Your Drug of Choice?:. (with pictures)

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You aRe COKE
You Are COCAINE you are hated by alot of people but
why?You arnt so bad now are you?


WHAT DRUG ARE YOU (with images)???????????????
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and I can't be fucked doing more. Peace.

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5:44 pm - Lucky You. Here's More.
HASH(0x86ca724)
You'd be a gun, the ordinary, o so common weapon,
easily concealed yet you pack a big punch


?! What Murder Weapon Would You Be!?
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file:///C:/My%20Documents/63.jpg
You are.....MOTHERFUCKER, I DON'T CARE!
"I hope and pray every day, I'll get the news
that you passed away. So take your life and
turn it off, good-bye, so long, get lost, fuck
off"


.+.What Murderdolls Song Are You?.+.
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You are.....DRESSED TO DEPRESS!
"My mommy don't love me, and my daddy don't
care, NO. My sister's a slut, and my brother's
a drunk. And I'm standing in the mirror now
getting myself all dressed up."


.+.What Murderdolls Song Are You?.+.
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Congrats! You are Acey Slade!
You are Acey Slade!


???Which Murderdoll Are You????
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stab
...STAB TO KILL.....you love the way the knife
splits the skin...as it seeps into every
poor...drawing blood to the surface.....and the
way they scream and writhe......yay stabby
stabby.....


how do YOU KILL? (part one of the trilogy of murder quizzes i want to make)
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Shooter
BLAM! You use a GUN!


What is your murder style?
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eminem
Suicider


What Kind Of Murderer Are You?
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Ooo..sexyass Eric Griffin -drools-
you are Eric Griffin.
you play bass, although you prefer the guitar.
people sometimes mistake you for a
vampire(people are weird). you played a vampire
for a brief second in Static-X's vidio for
"cold". you got some good hair. i
love you.


what sexy bitch from Murderdolls might you be?
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Papercut

Here To Stay



The hurt inside is fading
This shit gone way too far.
All this time I've been waiting
No I can not grieve anymore.
For what's inside awaking.
I'm done, Im not a whore
You've taken everything and oh I can not give
anymore.


What koRn song are you??
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sarcastic korn fan


what korn fan stereotype are you? huh?
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HASH(0x86f6ec4)
Wake Up Hate


What KoRn Song are you ~pics~
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falling
You are "Falling Away From Me". You're
suicidal, but you really shouldn't be. You have
a little box, and everytime you open it, KoRn
pops out of it and starts playing songs for
you. We would give our houses for that box, you
lucky bastard!


What KoRn song are you?
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You are "Pretty". Not nececcerally pretty in physical features, however. Pretty as in.. I'm honestly not sure actually. Smashing a 12 month year old girl's face into the bathroom floor isn't exactly what I'd call pretty.


Ok, you really do like Disturbed, im proud of
you...Quotes can be hard....but if you made it
here, you must really like Disturbed as much as
me.. >:-P


If You Like Disturbed...
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orgy
You're a sexcrazedmon!

wow, are you always this horny? well that's okay,
we all love orgies.. but probably not as much
as you. you enjoy mosh pits, flavored condoms,
and drinking a couple beers here and there.
you're pimptastic and you know how to slap dem
ho's!


What disturbed pokemon trait are you? x_x
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Numb
Your song is Numb.


Which Disturbed Song Are You?
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David Draiman: The voice: You are
intellectual, spiritual, soulful, insightful,
philosophical, goal-oriented and never
satisfied.


You are DISTURBED.


Your quote: "My brothers, my sisters, my
blood.... SPEAK TO ME!!!!"


Which Member of Disturbed Are You?
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current mood: pseudo-suicidal
current music: Disturbed.Numb

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Monday, November 17th, 2003
9:33 pm - here's a treat for you. Not for those with a weak stomach, or those who can't handle the truth.
These seem to be the current trend. So here are some treats for you.


Slit wrist
You are going to slit your wrists.


How are you going to Commit Suicide?
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HASH(0x8470b84)
Gun: The most popular method of suicide. Ernest
Hemingway, Adloph Hitler and Vinecnt van Gogh
all chose to leave this world accompanied with
a bang.


How will you commit suicide?
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knife
Death by slitting of the throat...good choice as
long as you aren't squirmish and can cut deep
and fast...this is for all you blood lovers...


How will you committ suicide?
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HASH(0x871dc70)
WOW some people just have all the luck!
You will die of an overdose, cutting, hanging, and
drowning all at the same time! need I say more?


how would you commit suicide?
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You're a goth...you're kinda creepy...you act
really evil and hate everything and
everyone...the general population pisses you
off and you just wanna be left alone...but hey
I can understand that cuz ppl suck


Which Social Class Can I Violently Shove You Into?
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You're beyond bisexual. Your weirdness factor goes
off the scale of this test. You might be a
hermaphrodite, an alien or even a furry. If you
are sexy, please send us a picture.


How Bisexual are You?
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Kurt Cobain
Kinda angsty, pretty laid back. You're Kurt
Cobain. Remember to ask for help.


What Heroin Addict Are You?
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current mood: aggravated
current music: Papa Roach - Last Resort

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Friday, November 7th, 2003
5:48 pm - Placebo. Joy.

"Nancy Boy"


What's Your Inner Placebo Song?
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current mood: amused
current music: punchdrunk

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Tuesday, November 4th, 2003
5:10 pm - Fuck off you doss cunt

Which Trainspotting Character Are You?


current mood: angry
current music: KoRn - Here To Stay

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Monday, November 3rd, 2003
6:45 pm - whoop dee doo.
I have a new journal. Joy of Joys. Though probably not for long, no doubt I'll forget the password within a week... And for those who read this... you might want to remind me that this exists...

-Mark

current mood: suicidal-ish
current music: Jerk - My Friends All Lie

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