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Ug. [11 Feb 2005|01:14am]
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Everything these days seems to be depressing... [20 Jan 2005|07:41pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

There are 78 days until the last day of school.
Subtract the weekends from that and there are 56 days left.
Then subtract reading week and Easter long weekend and there are 49 school days until I am free from hell.
Then subtract all Tuesdays and Thursdays because I don't have class on those days and there are only 36 real school days for me to get through.

That hardly seems like a difficult task, but at the moment I am just not feeling it. I just don't want to do it and I'm pretty sick and tired of commuting every day. I never thought I would say this but I want it to be summer so I can WORK. Wow. I never thought school would do this to me, but alas, I was wrong.

First year is pretty much a joke. Not in the sense that it is really easy, because it certainly isn't, but because the classes I'm taking are ridiculous and are going to have no relevance to my future career. I want to be in third year RIGHT NOW, because by then I will have chosen my major and will actually have a focus.

I hate not knowing what I am going to do with my life and not having a specific subject to focus on. At least now I think I know what I want to do, which is a lot more comforting than the lost feeling I had less than a month ago. I figure that choosing a career path pretty much comes down to a process of elimination because quite honestly I would be happy never having to work a day in my life. Since I know that that is not an option, it's a matter of deciding which job is the lesser of all the evils. In my case, I've pretty much narrowed it down to high school social studies teacher. I know I want to major in History, and teaching it at high school would allow for awesome vacation time and reasonable working hours of marking, but whatever.

So now that I have made that decision I'm ready for first year to be over, as well as second year for that matter. After second year I'll be done my science credits and my language credit (thank god...I don't even know how I am going to get through first year Latin, let alone second year, especially considering my stellar 52% exam mark - which brought my overall mark down to 63% from 80% - grrrrrr I am a failure at life).

Why does everything suck these days? The rain sucks. It's killing people and flooding homes. The tsunami sucks. I don't even need to explain that one. School sucks. I don't want to do the work. The future sucks. All it involves is working every freaking day until I'm too decrepit to work any more and by then I won't even want to do anything fun like traveling. When am I going to find the time to travel and do the things I want to do? I don't have the money for it now...and the money I will be making will have to go towards school. It's just so frustrating when I can't figure things out.

Oh well, life goes on and I'll probably be over it by tomorrow. Until then I'm going to be angry at the way the world is.

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[01 Dec 2004|12:27am]
[ mood | happy but tired ]

Well I haven't posted in quite a while, but the only update I really want to make is that I got 92% on my Religious Studies term paper! I finally have some validation that I belong at UBC, yippee!

Yes, bow down.


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Wow, so I hate people. [05 Nov 2004|08:48pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

My history class today was probably the worst thing I have ever had to sit through in my life. There is a really annoying, stuck-up, prissy girl in my class who thinks she knows everything about the world. She also seems to think that because she is going to university, that automatically makes her superior over the majority of the population in regards to every aspect of life. Today in class we were discussing the Putney debates which took place in the seventeenth century between people who wanted voting to be opened up to all men born in England, and those who wanted to keep it as it was; restricted to the upper-middle class. So this girl (I shall leave her nameless) decides that she would like to share her opinions on the subject with the class. Now that is fine, because that's pretty much the point of the class, but she also decides to go on a rant about what she thinks about voting today. Her idea about both situations was essentially the same. She believes that there should be restrictions on voting because poor people aren't educated and therefore they are mentally incapable of voting for a good leader (or the "right" leader - that was the impression I got from her).

Alright then Mrs. I am better than all poor people because I am educated...tell me how things are supposed to change for them if they can't even vote for someone who has their own interests in mind? Basically what she was saying was that only middle and upper class people should be able to vote. Alright why don't we just implement a fascist government, make Harper our dictator and get it over with? Certainly that would be a better alternative than having the uneducated masses voting. Yes...we have chosen a Liberal government - the apocalypse is upon us!

But then on the other hand, she was complaining about Bush being elected, so in reality she was mostly just voicing her opinion about the people in the Southern states and the Midwest and all that…but still. Denying the right of people to vote, no matter how unintelligent, just goes against everything that we stand for. I may not like Bush but I can respect the fact that people support him, the Republican Party, and what they stand for. We are creatures of habit…many people vote Republican because they have always done so. Others vote for them because they think that terrorism is still a looming threat and they truly believe that Bush is the best man to deal with it. Perhaps others just don’t want to take the chance on a new President. In my opinion, Kerry would make no better a President than Bush, he just hasn’t had the chance to be in the international spotlight and screw up on anything. I’m quite sure that if given the chance, Kerry would be entirely capable of making an equally royal mess of things. Finally, many people vote for the Republican Party because they hold many of the same values in high regard. Though MANY people might not agree with these reasons for voting for Bush, I think these Elephant voting right-wingers need to be given the same respect as anyone else. Just because they hold different beliefs and value different things, does not mean that they are wrong and Kerry supporters are right.

I figure that it comes down to this: if you have two broken toys, which one do you pick? In the case of the United States, it’s the one that you’re used to playing with.

Ok back to the story. Here is part two: so girl number one previously said indirectly that uneducated people should probably be restricted from voting. Girl number two says, “That’s just like people who vote for the NDP.” As an avid NDP supporter I was taken aback and quite offended by this comment. She proceeded to overly generalize about people who vote for the NDP by basing her entire argument on one experience. She said that she was talking to a group of guys who voted for the NDP and they said that the only reason they voted that way was because the NDP would legalize marijuana. Now first of all I don’t even know if that is a statement of truth. Would they legalize marijuana? I don’t want to say yes or no on that topic because I really don’t know. But secondly, and most importantly, she said that they were some of the “dumbest people” she has ever met in her life.

Well to you Mrs. I ALSO hate unintelligent people…thank you so much for making that insightful and educated statement of your opinion…oh I’m sorry was that sarcasm? Why yes it was.

I hope to never hear such a blatantly ignorant and generalized comment such as that again, because the person who utters it will experience an unprecedented level pain inflicted by yours truly.

I thought we lived in Canada; commonly thought to be one of the most diverse and accepting nations in the world. It is times like these that I question people in general and their seemingly deep-rooted anger towards all things “different” from themselves and their own beliefs. If I can find two cases of this in my history class of twelve people, then clearly this problem is bigger than I thought it was. As for these people who believe in voting restrictions; move to Cuba or something. It may be Communist, but heck, you certainly won’t have to worry about any problems involved with voting and its outcome.

In conclusion, people know what they want individually, and that should be enough knowledge to be able to choose a leader who will satisfy their needs. Looking at the bigger picture is also important, but I think that most people, whether intelligent or not, have a tendency to focus on their own self-interest more so than what is best for the nation. Sorry to all you non-believers in fundamental constitutional rights, but I strongly support the right of ALL people to vote for the individual who will be in charge of running their homeland. This is the beauty of a democracy people; we can vote for whomever we want and if people don’t like it, screw ‘em.

Just imagine if your right to choose was taken away. Yeah. It would suck.

Thank you for listening to my rant, I feel better now.

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what a day, what a day [20 Oct 2004|03:43pm]
[ mood | working ]
[ music | a really crappy cartoon in the background ]

Here I am,
Avoiding my history paper that is due in two days.

This is reminding me of something...oh wait, I know what it is...
The way I used to do the exact same thing in high school. Some things never change.

Except, I never really skipped class in high school, which is what I did today to write this paper. Well...I'm about 400 words in out of 1200-1500, so that's a start - not a total waste of a day.

Yesterday when I was busing out to UBC (and on my day off too) I am pretty sure I saw a dead person. Yup..never taking the downtown bus again...what a sketchy ride. On the corner of Hastings and something or other (I dunno if anyone knows the corner with all the benches where creepy people and bums hang out), there was a guy sitting on the bench holding a dead-looking woman. There was a group of people gathered and some people had their hands over their faces, so I assumed the worst. It's really sad. I know that people die all the time around Vancouver, but I've never experienced it before this.

To make the situation even more disturbing and weird, there was a man/bum lying on a bench nearby and he had his shirt up and he was caressing/groping/feeling himself up with his eyes closed. He looked really into it.

Not only was that bus trip horrible, but I got off at Granville to exchange buses, and I am sure that the UBC bus I got on was the grungiest bus in the whole of the city. I definately got at LEAST two diseases from it.
So when I arrived at school, I headed over to my Latin tutorial that started at one o'clock. Turned out the TA didn't even show up, and neither did Alex because it turns out he thought it was at two. That really sucked because we were going to study afterwards. So I went to the library to find some books for my Religion paper and do some photocopying. So I did that. I photocopied about 30 pages of shit...only to leave the copy room without them. On the seabus I realized that I left them there. I still don't know how I managed to do that, I am such an idiot sometimes.
Yesterday just wasn't my day.

And neither was today for that matter. I had my Latin test (the only class I went to today) and I will be lucky if I passed it. Not so good. But oh well, I honestly just don't care. And that leaves me where I am right now - avoiding my paper. And I should get back to that. I want to get as much of it done as I can so I don't have to freak about about it at the last minute tomorrow.

Good day.

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Let's give thanks [13 Oct 2004|07:16pm]
[ mood | dorky ]
[ music | Fleetwood Mac - I Don't Wanna Know ]

I hate it when I rant to my friends in emails and then have nothing to say on here.
Well, now that I have had time to think about it, I do have something to say:

I have finally realized just how important my friends are to me. I used to go through times when I couldn't care less if I moved away at that very moment, and other times when I felt like I would die without having my friends around for support.

That was more around grade 10...I kind of stopped being so hormonal and crazy after that.

But anyways, right now I am going to take the time to be corny and "give thanks" seeing as it was just Thanksgiving.

And I would like to thank all my friends for being the funniest, coolest, funnest, and most awesomest people on the planet!

I miss everyone!
I love you all!

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Jihad! Jihad! [29 Sep 2004|10:32pm]
[ mood | giddy ]
[ music | Freestylers - Push Up ]


This morning on the bus I thought I was going to die. I almost threw up afterwards, that is how bad it was. There were so many people on it that I thought I was going to pop a cap in someone's ass. To make matters worse, the lady who stood in front of me FOR THE ENTIRE TRIP looked like a prostitute and had a distinct aroma of smoke and cabbage.

Okay not cabbage. Cabbage is just funny so lay off!

So the rest of the day was rather uneventful. I got my Latin test back and I got 82% which I am very happy with, considering Alex got 59% and Justine got 62%. But the sad thing is I really don’t understand this crap any better than they do. But this other guy I know, Denis, got 91% and I wanted to murder him because he was all like “Oh I bet I did so bad.” I shouldn’t complain about that though, because I know I have been one of those people before.

So on a more personal note, there is this guy in my History class who I have taken a liking to. Now I haven’t actually talked to him (wow this is reminding me of something…oh right, high school “crushes”)
But anyway, for the sake of me getting this out of my system I might as well just dish about this. Well his name is Yuri and he is from the Ukraine and he is very cute. He sat behind me in class today. Oh my, I need to be shot, I am giddy like a schoolgirl. Which I suppose is kind of what I am….okay now I am just babbling. I will stop that now.

Tonight I am doing nothing with my time because I am feeling very lazy. But tomorrow on my day off I plan to get a haircut as well as dye it.
I am thinking of a dark brown this time. No more sissy medium brown/reddish crap for me! I am going hard core all the way.

Oh and to update everyone out there, I have started Atkins again. This time I am very serious about it and I hope to lose 20 pounds before everyone comes home for Christmas. This is achievable seeing as that is about how long it took me the first time I did it. So if I still look like delightfully chubby Laura at Christmas - this is because I am a failure at life.

So anyway, on Friday it is off to Victoria for me! Believe it or not, this will be my first party of the school year – this fact has been depressing me for the past week, especially because this party isn’t even at my own school. Oh well. I will get over it…eventually.

Well that is that!
I’m out.

“A couple of days ago in New York I was having a Diet Coke with my friend, Prime Minister Koizumi. He's the Prime Minister of Japan.”
-George W. Bush

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La la la la la. [27 Sep 2004|06:25pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | Westerland - Die Arzte ]

Ah UBC...

It was such a nice day today! Cold...but sunny.
I had a Latin test.
It was not fun.

But afterwards a group of us congregated in the hall and debriefed after the test - totally high school style.
It took me back in a time for a few moments, which was refreshing in a way.

So things are going well and I have met some more new people. I now have a friend (or more) in every class, except English. Damn English. Oh well, my prof is entertaining enough to fill that void.

I really love school now. I'm even going there tomorrow (I have no classes) to go to the optional Latin tutorial. Go me...I'm being a keener - this won't last for long, so I should embrace it while I have the chance.

Well I don't really know what else to write. Sadly, my life has been pretty uneventful lately. I will have to change that.

Next weekend I am going to UVic to visit Megan which will be a party, and a much needed one at that.

Anyhoo, I'm out.

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OMG OMG OMG OMG [22 Sep 2004|07:28pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

I just opened a letter from UBC and I got a $2500 scholarship!!!!

AHhhhhhh this is so awesome!!! Now My first 2 years at UBC are covered!! (my half of the tuition anyway - my parents can deal with their half)


Now maybe I can live in residence next year!!

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Bless my soul... [21 Sep 2004|11:12pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]
[ music | Mr. Jones - Counting Crows ]

Wow I am actually excited about going to school tomorrow.
This is a first.
Staying up late, sleeping in late, and being unproductive on my days off is not going to help me get good grades this year. So thank god for the bus, without it I may never do my readings.

I feel kind of funny right now. I don't really know how to describe it.
I also have a dilemma on my hands.

I really want to go visit Megan at UVic on October 1st, but that is also the day of the Great Big Sea concert, which I have been wanting to go to for about a month now.

Then again, I haven't yet bought tickets, so they in fact may already be sold out.
I should check that before I go worrying about this situation.

But anyway, that will probably work itself out..who knows, maybe I can go to Victoria this weekend instead.

I don't really know what to say, I'm at a total loss for words - probably because I am so damn tired.
From doing what? you may ask. Apparently from being lazy.
How sad is that. I need someone to help me get my act together, because quite honestly I don't feel like I can do that for myself right now. I need some sort of motivation to get out of bed and do something with my day because school just isn't providing that for me.

I should stop writing in this thing at night! I'm too exhausted to think clearly.
Instead of rambling on about nothing, I might as well just go to bed...or watch TV.

..."what am I doing here in mid-air?"...

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Latin of the day - Scintilla cenam parat. Argus cibum consumit et Scintilla irata est. [20 Sep 2004|07:18pm]
[ mood | chipper ]
[ music | Lukey's Boat - Great Big Sea ]

Everybody should download the song "Despre tine" by O-Zone

best song ever.
have a nice day

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God of the day - Vishnu [17 Sep 2004|08:56pm]
[ mood | mellow ]
[ music | Hard to Handle - Black Crowes ]

Yet another week comes to a close.

I find myself wishing more and more that I was living on campus.

Not only does the commute to school take just under two hours, but I have also been finding it quite difficult to meet new people. I am positive that if I lived on campus, I would find it much easier to make new friends. So all you people living in residence, consider yourselves lucky!

So now I constantly get to hear about all the new people my friends are meeting at their respective schools, and quite honestly it just makes me feel more bummed out about my initial experiences at UBC. Of course I am sincerely happy that everyone is making new friends, but I can't help feeling a little regretful about my own lack of involvement in social activities thus far into the school year.

Now that is not to say that I haven’t met anybody.
I have made friends with a few very nice people, including a guy named Alex in my Latin class, and two girls from my religion class named Katherine and Alena. I also know a few people from my orientation group, which is nice. The only problem is that they all live in residence, so it will be hard to find time to hang out with them, should that opportunity arise.

God I wish I was 19.
There are bi-weekly beer gardens at the school and The Pit (UBC’s famous pub) seems to be the most popular hangout on any given Wednesday night (cheap beer night). What makes it even more painful is that I don’t have classes on Thursday, so having a killer hangover really would not matter at all.

Oh woe is me. I'm sure no one wants to listen to my complaining.
At least I will be 19 by the time the year-end Arts County Fair rolls around. And that should prove to be the party of the year…at least I hope.

But yeah, other than that things seem to be going well. I think that I am finally getting used to this whole University life thing. I like the feeling of walking around campus, there is just so much freedom. I especially enjoy all the independence – this is a good thing for me seeing as I usually tend to be overly dependent on my parents.

And on a lighter note…
Wuhoo it is finally the weekend! Megan is coming home from U-Vic, and I can’t wait to hang out with her. I’m so excited!

I am going to go eat something.
I shall leave you with a random quote:

“Airless, humid dark. Leaf-noise.
The stirrings of a garden before rain.
A hint of a storm behind the risen moon.
We are what we have chosen. Did I choose to?-”

Ha now you are confused.

post comment do I love thee? [17 Sep 2004|12:22am]
[ mood | restless ]
[ music | the voices in my head ]

Well this is my second attempt at this very entry, and I am pissed off about that, but I am going to get through this.

So after two weeks of school I have finally formulated opinions about all of my classes and all of my Profs. Overall I'm really happy with the way everything has turned out. But there are a few exceptions of course.

So Latin is totally awesome. I can't wait to be able to say stuff to people in it, because it will probably make me sound smarter than I actually am. My Prof is very nice and she doesn't appear to be a total dumbass, so that is a plus. I love this class because not only is it a cool language, but it's small so it has been easy to meet people. The only negative thing about it is that it's very hard to learn...sometimes I find myself wishing I had taken French instead. But then I just slap myself and move on with my life.

Now English...that is a class and a half!! My Prof is just amazing! He manages to be funny, intelligent, and and friendly all at the same time. He is definately the most approachable and easy-going of all my teachers. Also, the course content seems like it will be interesting enough, and the people in the class aren't all stupid...only most of them. This class actually makes me WANT to wake up at 6:30 in the morning for my first class at 10:00! It's just too bad that this is my only course that is not all year long.

Uggghhh. Religious Studies. Those two words send chills down my spine. This class is such a drag. I got my hopes up, and this class brought them plummeting to the ground at 120 mph with a giant SPLAT on the pavement. And not without crashing through a few windows and hitting a few seagulls on the way down. The Prof is so boring and disorganized and very hard to understand at times on account of his thick French accent. His lectures are confusing because he always goes off on a tangent about God knows what. He does not make me interested in learning about Asian religions! The only plus is that he is pretty easy on the eyes. Yes I said it. And also the TA isn't too bad either, teaching-wise that is. The textbook is also extremely boring and long and the prof assigns so many readings that I am already 100 pages behind. No joke. Thank god there is a new prof next term, one that appears to have a pulse.

History class #1 (20th century history) is going to be a very interesting course, and the content is much like that of history 12, just more in depth of course. Though, it is an utter shame that my prof was sent to us straight out of The Night of the Living Dead. He is so monotone, it is just depressing. He also talks so slowly that he appears to be thinking about every single word he says before he says it, to sound that much more articulate. This is history, not English. Who cares.

And last but not least, History class #2 (History of Europe, Renaissance to present). The Prof rocks, the material is interesting and the textbooks are relevant and easy to understand. What can I say? I am really excited about this course. More so than I thought I would be! The only negative is that I haven't really met anyone in it yet. Everyone seems to be older than first year, and they all already know each other - but oh well, I'm sure I'll find someone. Oh, and there is a 74 year old woman in my class. She is my new hero.

So that sums up my classes. Forcast for this year: interesting and fun, with a lot of busy and stressful periods, and a chance of me going totally insane.
It's all good.
Unfortunately I can already feel my bad habits coming back to haunt me.
Right now I am trying to avoid doing my English homework, which is really frustrating me.

Well I should get back to that.
Until next time...

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Welcome to my humble abode. [16 Sep 2004|11:53pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]
[ music | none ]

Hi, so this is my first attempt at an entry in this thingy.
Here we go then!

Today sucks.


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