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update... [11 Jun 2004|02:41pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | x suicide commando x ]

so lets see whats new..

i turn 16 in a few days.
i use xanga more so if u got one comment ill subscribe to you.
me and richard are over and have been over for sometime. [eh?]
i have more of a social life now?
wanting to tie up loose ends.. wanting to regain old friends..
im me or something. kthxbye.

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journals. by the millions. [04 Jan 2004|10:46pm]
[ music | x where is my mind x pixies x ]

i have a greatest journal.
i have an xanga.
i have a deadjournal.
i have a caleida.

and probably like 9 million other journals.

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[<33 Blurty Friends] <~ To All: [01 Jan 2004|11:34pm]
[ mood | okay ]
[ music | x apoptygma bezerk x ]

Happy New Year Everyone <3

I hope your year started off well.

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[some cheesy insert *here*] [27 Dec 2003|12:18am]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | x ayumi hamasaki x hanabi x ]

Here's some sayings I found on someone's AA.

A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need

A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend
A successful woman is one who can find such a man

To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all

Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are alot more willing to die.

A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does

A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs, cackling, telling me 'you're next.'  They stopped after I started doing the same thing at funerals.

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yay :) [17 Dec 2003|08:53am]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | x i dream of jeanie theme song x ]

nicole +richard = 2 years today. how yum

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goodbye little missy. [22 Jun 2003|05:27pm]
[ mood | discontent ]
[ music | x The Crüxshadows x Here Comes The Rain Again x ]

The content below is “Rated R” please do not examine it if you feel you cant deal with it.

Rated [R] )

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Nobody fucks with this pussy ;) [12 Jun 2003|04:51pm]
[ mood | pleased ]
[ music | x trapt x headstrong x ]

Vinyl. How sexy can it make a feline feel? I believe I’ve gone over the edge now. Multiple personality check in 3, 2, 1. Meow. Mmm this is quite yummy. I wish to remain this way, crazy cat lover turned into psychopathic pretender. I am cat woman, hear me roar.

Hate me any stronger yet? Oh how humans love to hate me. Fleshy pieces of meat, the Forest animals would eat your dead body within minutes, and doesn’t it make you think. How much of a waste your mere existence can actually be.

I’m so cocky I can barely stand it myself. Well this is my moment to unveil the truths. Enjoying this I am. And me little, little Nicole, I have become the bitch that everyone wishes to be hates. Hate seems to empower one, quite a bit. How envious are you now? Raging indeed, and as the blood rises to your face I’m sitting here laughing calmly, I‘d expect you to hear it now, and of course it sings “Oh idiotic girl you fucking fool”.

You’ve struck a match, now prepare to burn.

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Acquaintances, Friends, Fiends its all the same. [30 May 2003|04:53pm]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | x incubus x i miss you x ]

Comment if you would like to be added.

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a rock in time... [18 Mar 2003|01:21pm]
[ mood | drained ]
[ music | x tool x lateralis x ]

I feel as if something’s been torn out of me, weak from the inside out.

Picture this. I’m standing before you. Not as a human but a man made object. A machine. I open up my body, pull back the rusted door to my insides. As the hinges creak. You begin to see. A dark light fills me. There you see screws moving madly twists and turns of knobs and trinkets. A brain placed in parts from teens that have committed suicide over the years. I am the tin woman who needs a heart.

The core of my inner being is where it has begun. The pain. Who knew the simple tickles of the heart could grasp and swell a being in a way unforeseen. Oh my. How this love has transformed into a piece of burning memory, fire on the wax that symbols my loss. A small candle is lit within me and though it a tiny flame grows, surrounded by stained glass it still gets taunted by my tears which flow down this shield of armor. Trying to find a way to enter the only place I can hold onto my good emotions. Love.

The glass blows up in your face and my fears and pain get to me. You step back and I feel the main place only I exist being destroyed. My tears engulf the flames and the line gets put out. I begin to cry and grasp the place where my heart no longer lives. My depression swallows me. And there I fall back. Freeze into time, as a statue upon graves, and wait for myself to live again.

when did this become me?
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diablo [11 Mar 2003|03:24pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | x cky x plastic plan x ]

What fires turn within my heart and force me to contend.
With the perils that await me of this tragic journeys end.

I have walked the roads that lead to hell, I have challenged all but fat. I have fought and bled and carried on just to reach the final gate. And now the last before looms, this dire deed undone I shall make my stand against the world until the battles done.

What fear or wound could ever still this last defiant cry? As I stand against the shadow beneath the endless burning sky.

-C. Vincent Metzen

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