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Saturday, June 24th, 2006
4:39 am - drunk again
so it has been some time since I have updated as the last time was with brittany and such. Currently I am drunk as hell listeneing to dinamyte hack. I have found my love for beer finally and finished high school. I also lost my virginity. The world is now my wonderful little oyster to enjoy day in and day out. I have my college schedual made up and I have been working at Domino's pizza for about three or four months now. I want to get an apartment with James but who knows how that is going to work out. Dragonforce is coming to town in just a few days and we all have our tickets. It is going to rock my balls all the way off. I feel like now I have finally become the man I always wished to be. That guy you see talking with all the girls and being known by all the right people. Though at this point I feel like there is more that I am missing. I guess it is because I do not have a girlfriend, but who knows. The future is looking more and more sure every day, but still it come with many unexpected things..... who knows what will happen tomorrow...besides work. I still need to call April though, She probably already forgot me, but it might be a nice surprise to hear her surprise. Brian Finally got a house with Bret and Justin broke up with his Xbox Girlfriend and is currently looking for another on myspace though his search is not going so well. Mark left for Italy but he is back now and we rocked out as usual. Carlos is apparently back though I have not seen him yet. X is fun, but I dont want to do it too much. well I should go to bed now, its late and I have work tomorrow...

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Wednesday, January 25th, 2006
10:59 pm - Cant help it
I couldnt help but update here once again. Afterall I am an eirly adopter which gives me certain privlages not offered to those who had a life three years ago. Shit has gone down and up just like life always does. The whole incedent with Brittany and Riley and myself, what a crock of shit that turned out to be. The first semester of senior year is finally over and classes are worth going to now. For now my views have shifted to filling out college applications and finding scholorships. ST EDS HERE I COME HOPEFULLY. Brian is a welder now and Justin got his girlfriend on Xbox live. Really I am updating so I know what is happenening in my life at this very moment. Flipping back through its funny to see how much I wanted SOMETHING to do, and now I have it. I have found that small piece of my life I was so lacking back then. Down 66lbs as of today. Its funny how much I have in common with certain girls like Meredith and Brittany. All in all I have found peace in my life, a central calm that flows through everything and keeps me from feeling depressed like I used to. And it seems I am not as tired as back in the day, I actually sleep now. I know no one reads this, but it is the only place to put my thoughts that everyone isnt going to read. I have to keep my xanga and myspace accounts clean of anything anyone would disapprove of. Heh even though I love life so much more now I still feel a pull. I must have a change, and hopefully college will be that needed change. Still single, but it doesnt bother me nearly as much. I know I will update again some day, but for now, this is all.

current mood: happy
current music: big on cake at this time

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Tuesday, September 6th, 2005
10:27 pm
Blarg forgot to post the actual site http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=bigdannytime

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12:21 am - Final
Well its been loads of fun talking to myself but this shall be the last post I do with blurty. I joined this little thing cause a chick had one and now I dont even thing she knows who I am o.o;;;. Oh wells.... cant say much...I will keep this bookmarked to chart my progress as a human but other than that... LATER HOMESES

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Friday, August 26th, 2005
5:31 pm - And then there was silence
School grinds along at a blisteringly slow pace. No worries, it will all be over all too soon. I went to ozzfest yesterday and it rocked WAY too hard. Soilwork, Killswitch Engage, In Flames, and Mudvayne were the prime treats of the evening. I wished Iron Maiden had been there. That would have made the whole experiance enough to kill me. As a side not I think it pertanant to point out that there were more topless women there than I have ever seen in one place at one time. (what did you expect I am a teenage boy). Anywho, I think my sociology teacher doesn't like me at all, he keeps cutting me off when I say things he disagrees with. Well I have the rest of the night ahead of me and I know nothing of what to do with the time, perhaps I shall call up Riley and Dana and give them a what ho. My body is tired though, I have a sunburn, sore legs and neck, and I am still kinda dehydrated. Which reminds me it is bullshit that we had to pay $4.25 for a bottle of fucking water. Oh well, good music and good people make the world go round.

current mood: crazy
current music: And then there was silence -Blind Guardian

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Wednesday, August 17th, 2005
9:58 pm - I got the going back to school blues
Well its back to the old grindstone again. Last year of school, the end, fin, finitem... Well so far on this second day I have learned of my hatred for my A days and my love of the eirly dismiss B day. They got a whole bunch of new teachers at school...like 15. I feel like a freshman again with all the new teachers and new classes and new people... Right now Amanda is on the phone in the living room talking so loud to one of her friends I want to smash her windpipe with a smoked ham... I already had some homework in AP biology which is a whole bucket of no fun. Oh and I finally got my hair cut for the first time in about 2 years. Honestly I think I look a little better, and so do all the people that have seen it. Its great to see people not recognize you even when you have known them forever. Word of my hair cut spread fast though as people know about it before they see it. Whatever its all good....just keep telling myself....only 178 more days of school left.

current mood: complacent
current music: Dragonforce - Black Winter Night

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Sunday, July 17th, 2005
11:03 pm - Whoa
My god. Its been ages since I last updated. Another year of school has gone by and only one remains. After that its off to college I hope. I looked at a few down in south Texas and I was very Impressed. It would be awesome to go there down near Austin and get to know the city. Both Brian and Justin have yet to move out. Theresa came back to Denton for good. After high school I may never return to this town but hey you never know. Also Dana and Riley are out in the land across the sea, currently Greece. They have been there all summer and Its really making me bored as hell. Charles works all the time as does James, Andy got an apartment with Richard and I have seen neither hide nor hair of them. Its always been just work and work-out day in day out. but I have lost 33 lbs. GO ME!!!!

current mood: cheerful
current music: Twisted Sister - We're not gonna take it

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Thursday, March 31st, 2005
10:24 pm
And thus another day ends...thusly....yep.... I took a look back through some of my previous entries and i realize now how much more kick ass my life is from those loathsom days spend in my room feeling down and lonley. My wonderful working out kicks ass, I am finally back to what seems to be the same shape as i was when i quit football. I think I want to become a Marine Biologist. Phycology doesnt have the same apeel as it once had.

current mood: happy
current music: barry white-cant get enough of your love

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Thursday, March 10th, 2005
10:00 pm
so yeah, there I am going down the street, minding my own buiseness, and BAM i get hit from behind. its all good though no damage done... to me and my car, the people that hit me have a slightly large problem with their whole front in, oh well its their fault. spring break is creeping upon me and it feels good. i have been doing that whole work out thing again and this time its doesn't suck mad ass. probably because i am not being forced to work out at break neck speeds by coaches. I seem to have lost some wieght and my muscle mass is working its way back up. i feel good though and thats all the matters, i may finally become the sexy mass of man i always wanted to be.

current mood: indescribable
current music: Random Irish music

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Sunday, November 14th, 2004
10:27 am - THE FIFTH WHEEL IN THE SKY KEEPS ON TURNIN
So yeah last night i got a lot a bit drunk. it was fun. i may not pass latin and my senor year is gonna be no fun at all. I'm still all single and shit which sucks. My time these days is being taken up as being the third or fifth wheel every time I go anywhere with my friends. I got an MIP for tabacco. I cant stand being the fifth wheel, everyone is making out and having fun and I'm sitting there on the ~verge of killing myself~. Watching people make out isnt anywhere near as fun as it was when i was in second grade. Oh well maybe oppertunity will come knocking soon enough. or i will have to knock it on its ass and kick it a few times till it decides to help me, that cheap son of a bitch.

(btw ~= sarcasm marks)

current mood: tired
current music: Bobby Mcferin- dont worry be happy

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Wednesday, October 27th, 2004
10:16 pm
Well its been a while. A little has happend. Anderw's birthday, Riley's birthday, Mom's birthday, and Matt's birthday within two weeks. i'm barly passing school as it is. I'm all tired and shit. I need some sleep. I went to metal fest and saw The Grudge. The Grudge was fucking scary. I'm such a big man but i scare so easily. Well its sleep time again. See you on the dusty so and so.

current mood: blank
current music: simon and garfunkle- cats in the cradle

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Wednesday, September 1st, 2004
9:51 pm
well almost done with three weeks of school, just 69 more to go. a 4 day weekend is comming up so partying is to be expected. today is the big denton-ryan cross town rival football game. i need a date to the homecomming dance thing. to bad im no good with girls. im tired. riley lost his virginity which leaves me with the burdon of being last pirate without poon.
BLARG

current mood: blank
current music: children of bodom- Helion

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Tuesday, August 10th, 2004
8:30 pm
So yeah the summer is widing down wich blows... a lot... I missed two chances to drink, which could be the last before school starts. My schedual was all fucked up but now i think it is under control. I got a new xbox game which is fun for a while. I need to get layed but that cant really be helped. I bought a new CD, Children of Bodom- Follow the reaper, it kicks much ass. Well I need to... damn... Now i cant think.

current mood: horny
current music: children of bodom- children of decadence

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Sunday, July 18th, 2004
11:58 am
I went with my brother to his friend's house. It was ok, watched a movie, had a little to drink. The next day (yesterday) we went to the lake and did some ghetto boogy-boarding. It was fun and i got a bit of a tan, not much mind you we were only out there a few hours. The boat eventually ran out of gas and so did I. I came home cause it was just gonna turn into my brother and his girlfriend the other dude and his girlfriend... well you can fill in the blanks, no fifth wheel for me.

current mood: content
current music: Dragonforce-Black Winter Night

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Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004
2:25 pm
so on sunday, it was fathers day and instead of going to the lake with my mom and step dad and grandparents i stayed home and had a little wiskey with my brother. i got drunk, then i smoked a little got stoned, then drunk again. a wonderful life. now i have to take my step sister to work every morning which really cuts into my sleeping time. i havn't talked to my friends latly cause they havnt called. summer continues and I'm starting to get kinda bored. One of my friends is in Chile right now and when she gets back i think we are gonna hang out. At least I hope so.

current mood: cold
current music: Dragon Force- My Spirit Will Go On

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Tuesday, June 8th, 2004
7:58 pm
well its been a day since a-kon and i already miss it. too much fun for words. so much to see and do, so little time and money. apperently one of my friends is pissed at me because she offered to pay me $40 to run her errends and i actually took the money. she can be as pissed as she wants cause its not going to affect me in the slightest. what is offered i take, if a friendship is only worth $40 than i guess it wasnt much of a friendship to begin with. thats what i get for actually being nice to people, the second i down bow to their every whem they disown me like a dirty rug. who cares, a-kon was too much fun for me to be sad or angry.

current mood: content
current music: Blind Guardian- The Soulforge

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Saturday, May 29th, 2004
12:16 am - Alone
The man walked the streets. Alone. This is how he lived. Alone. Why have others around you? All people want was a way to get money off of you. In the end you had to be alone. The man didn’t used to think in this manner, he had changed. The man once had many friends, a full life that many others would have killed for. He thought that in his heart it was what he wanted, but it wasn’t. What the man really wanted was to be alone. He lived his life making others laugh, making others feel good. He found one day that they were just using him to make their own lives a little more livable. People had more cruelty than any animal. Humans could look in your eye and say you are their best friend one moment and the next turn around and tell another how much they hate you. He had once loved but found that love to be stale and unreturned. Now the man walked. Alone. Feeling the night. The day was too cheerful, too full of people full of themselves. The night held only those who knew the lack of human embrace. This man was one of those people. Without love, without caring, without pain. Being alone was the only way to truly escape the pain of living. Death was no option, being alone also meant that no one was there to judge him, to tell him he was dumb or to tell him how to live or tell him why he was wrong. Alone. Without others you can be no better nor no worse than yourself. People compete for goals that hold no meaning. Though they may rule, humans are the most underdeveloped of all the animals. The man held no money, no life. He let people think of him what they would. There was no more pleasing others to satisfy himself. To people he was a faceless man who drifted by and caused interest for a second, this is how the man wanted to live. Alone. Love was a burden that humans must bare, but not for him. He felt no love or compassion to woman or man alike. He had been spat at too much to care what others cared about. He once seemed happy, but deep down he wanted this nothingness that held his life now. This man was nothing more than a shell, a lifeless corpse . Alone. Fear was meant for those who cared about others. This man cared for nothing, fear was nothing. Emotionless is how the world must be lived in order to survive, this is what he had become. Emotionless. People don’t care to care they care to be seen caring. People ask how you are only when others are there to see them say it. Life is nothing but a show for each other. One big fucking show. The man had seen many things in his life, many others would cower from. Nothing effected him. The rain slowly started to come down. He didn’t care. Looks were for others not himself. Humans are impressed with looks, the only thing that matters are looks. In life if you look good you go places, in life people care. This man felt no more life within him. Living is only there when you feel love. Love is a cruel bitch that catches even the mighty. Love did not catch this man anymore. Love had fled. This was truly the wonderful life so many others had tried to attain. Money, women, love, only for those who truly care. The man no longer cared, he only wanted to walk, to feel the breeze, to feel the rain, to see the stars. The only thing he could trust were the stars, they had no feelings, they were admired as well as feared. But no one talked about the stars badly. The stars were always there. The stars wouldn’t suddenly go somewhere else all alone, they worked in unison, a group, at peace. Peace. Peace will never be obtained by a race of creatures that cannot decide on themselves. A race of creatures that fight for reason of little to no importance. A race with pride results in death. Pride. The only thing stronger than love. This man needed no pride. Pried was a show put on to impress others into thinking you cared. Pride was for those who cared. This man had nothing, a perfect life. Nothing. Peaceful. Alone. And slowly he walked on, into the cold dark lonely peace.

current mood: angry

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Wednesday, April 28th, 2004
11:16 pm
well jazz fest came and went. it was ok. i got a little anibreated on saterday. it was alright but my friends cant hold their liquor. crown, burbon, a little wine, fun for a while. too much drama at the jazz fest though. something about something about people i dont know and there was some making out involved i dont know. the day almost all my friends went i was stuck at home with a hangover. i need a job to get some cash but im lazy. one of my friends seemed to have a worse day than me so it cant be all bad. she was crying over something but im no good a comforting people in their time of need. one more test this week and im good. this year draws to a close and things still look glum for my love life but hey you cant win them all. oh well things tend to work themselves out in the end.

current mood: tired
current music: blind Guardian-and then there was silence

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Friday, April 9th, 2004
11:34 am
so yeah life is life. i gots to go to mea patris house this weekend which equals this much fun: | |. anyway i have been chillin with my friends. i get some kind of english award on wednes day. speaking of the day of wedsnes my friend had her birthday on that day. hopefully i dont forget. im gonna try and find a party tonight and hopfully i find one. well im off to.... sleep or ....something...woot

current mood: cheerful
current music: Tenacious D- Inward singing

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Wednesday, February 25th, 2004
9:32 pm
well life is going. smokeing cigarettes, driving all the time. to bad im gonna get tired of it soon. i have to get a fucking job and soon. my hair has been getting really long. soon the summer will be upon us. still a big negatory on the love life though. and also a negatory on the booze. ive been writing a story/book and it seems to be coming together quite nicely. my artistic ability seems to have also increased. ugh im lonley.

current mood: calm
current music: our lady peace-4am

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