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[31 Jul 2003|08:36am] |
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[written yesterday morning]
i watched 'just married' for the first time last night, alone in my room. that is NOT a good movie to watch when you're lonely and haven't seen your boyfriend in two weeks. they should put a warning label on it or something, cause it's the sweetest movie ever.
we got our homeroom assignments..yea..i haven't found anyone i know who has homeroom with me. lace and mckenzie have it together which is not fair, i want homeroom with lace :(
that's the end of my rambling. i almost never wear makeup anymore, all i do all day is babysit my brother and then go to the mall/movies in the evenings. rudy has had like 30948230948 shows in columbia and myrtle beach that i haven't been able to go to, along with warped in NC that i couldn't go to either. lace went and met Brand New, i wanted to go to see count the stars but NOOO i couldn't. next year i'm going though, i'll be able to drive myself there
i know i said that ^ was the end of my rambling but of course it isn't. i get a car for christmas if i make straight As (or maybe As and Bs) but it's going to be SO tough. only 4 classes to worry about now though since i'll be on block which will be much much easier. i'm going to try hard. and i'm going to USE MY LOCKER. isn't that crazy? i never use my locker
which brings me to, i got the cutest *simple* blue jean messenger bag from target (it's like right near my house, i can ride my bike to it) and i need buttons and patches to put on it to make it more...me. any patches/pins websites recommendations?
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survey
1. Name: lauren
2. Birthday: feb 1
3. Sign: aquarius
4. Age: 15
5. Sex: barbie. i mean, female
6. Location: SC?
7. School: DHS
8. Glasses/contacts: contacts
9. Braces: yes
10. Fat/skinny: sheesh. i don't know.
11. Tall/short: short
12. Do you like ketchup: yep
13. Do you like mustard: sorta
14. Do you like mayonnaise: yes
15. Do you like pickles: nooo
16. Do you like boys or girls: boys..
17. Do you like pickle relish : ewww
18. Do you like chicken: yes.
19. Do you like spinach: yea...
20. Do you have any siblings: yep
21. What are their names: matthew
23. Do you have any pets: yep
24. What are their names: mike and callie
25. What kind of pets are they: mikes a hamster, callies a dog. bah. i hate dogs.
26. Do you like school: sometimes
27. If you could choose anyone to rule the world who would you choose: ohh..lacey. or me.
28. Do you like pokemon: your mom.
29. Do you talk to voices in your head: do you really want me to answer that?
30. Do they tell you to do stuff: not really.
31. Do you listen: only when i'm bored
32. Have you ever had wet dreams about someone: uh sheesh that is a screwed up question
33. How often do you talk on the phone: daily
34. How often do you surf the web: daily
35. How often do you hang out with friends: like..atleast twice a week
36. Do you have a bf/gf: yep
37. Do you love them: shut up why does everyone ask me this!?
38. Have you ever loved anyone: yes. now back off.
39. Have you ever made-out with someone: ehh yes.
40. Are you loopy: ahh yes. very.
41. Have you ever broke any bones: nope.
42. If so, which ones: --
43. How often do you shower: every day
44. Which group do you hang out with at school: everyone.
45. Do you get good grades: in everything but math
46. Do you always get in trouble: no, i'm a great liar.
47. Do you get along with your parents: sometimes
48. Are you gonna go to college: yes
49. Who is your best girl friend: lace & meredith
50. Who is your best boy friend: nathan, john, aaron..
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| nothing. as usual. |
[29 Jul 2003|04:22pm] |
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hello darling children. i have nothing to write about seeing as how nothing has happened.
lacey went to warped, so did john, ross, dean, nikki, george, and half the population. lacey got to meet jesse lacey of brand new, i am so very jealous.
i haven't seen john in over a week. and i haven't really talked to him in like 2 days. sigh sigh sigh, you'd think he'd have called me today since he didn't talk to me yesterday at all (warped). nope. still waiting for my call. oh well, i just miss him.
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| rawr. i am woman. |
[28 Jul 2003|12:04pm] |
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fork this shiznit man. i give up. nathan, you know what i'm talking about. i give up.
i finally realized i can be strong enough to forget him and that's good after what he said about me. i am so very glad that someone finally gave me the right advice cause i sure as hell wasn't figuring it out for myself. after john guilt tripped me, i talked to nathan on the phone and he made me realize i was too good for this and i'm strong enough not to care what ROSS says. john was hurt that ross's opinion could overrule what he thought when ross shouldn't even matter in the first place. thank you, nathan and john.
here:
lahren 06: youre so crazy
lahren 06: i just got off the hello-phone with nate-dawg
ApunkNamedjohn: word
ApunkNamedjohn: im at ross;s house
lahren 06: fun
lahren 06: ..
ApunkNamedjohn: ..?
ApunkNamedjohn: ?..?
lahren 06: ...;-)
ApunkNamedjohn: oh yeah
lahren 06: you'd better believe it
ApunkNamedjohn: im sory i gave you a big guilt trip earlier
ApunkNamedjohn: well.........
ApunkNamedjohn: kinda
ApunkNamedjohn: cause it is hoe i feel sometimes
ApunkNamedjohn: i said hoe
lahren 06: haha
lahren 06: nah its fine i deserved it
ApunkNamedjohn: well...
ApunkNamedjohn: yeah
ApunkNamedjohn: you kinda did
lahren 06: i deserve a lot worse sometimes
lahren 06: nathan finally got it through my head
ApunkNamedjohn: damn i didnt get it through your head
lahren 06: is ross reading this
ApunkNamedjohn: no
lahren 06: good
ApunkNamedjohn: hes playing a game
lahren 06: he thinks everyone should lose weight, i am not special to him and it shouldnt hurt me that im not.
lahren 06: him thinking that i was good enough and didnt need to lose weight would make me special
lahren 06: and im not
lahren 06: atleast not to him
lahren 06: and hopefully im special enough to you
ApunkNamedjohn: yes
ApunkNamedjohn: you are
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| sorry |
[28 Jul 2003|12:18am] |
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to the people who wanted background help: i have no clue. someone did it for me. i may be able to get them to help you, IM me cause i'm too lazy to IM you. 'lahren 06'.
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| your criminal pain |
[26 Jul 2003|05:42pm] |
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none bia, none. |
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an arrow straight through my heart couldn't hurt worse
this tore me up and back down again
my blood's spilled
and it's all over your hands
don't blame me when police come
your conscience calls them to you, unclean
cause it's my blood and my hope
you'll be caught red-handed
your knife slit my throat and nothing numbed the searing pain
i won't bother you anymore with pieces of dreams
that fell away without my consent
now i have your undivided attention
nothing will ease this tension
so don't blame me when police come
your conscience calls them to you, unclean
cause it's my blood and my hope
you'll be caught red-handed
now i have your undivided attention
nothing will ease this tension
cause it's my blood and my hope
you'll be caught red-handed
-me
this isn't too horrible.
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| shit. this SUCKS. |
[26 Jul 2003|05:16pm] |
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shut up and eat the damn green beans. just kidding. |
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love is hopeless
an elusive butterfly
always lingering but
somehow one step ahead
just out of the grasp
of the ones who need it most
more than anything
love is hopeless
and so are my writings.
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| cool thingy |
[25 Jul 2003|10:20pm] |
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answer the survey with only the chosen band's song titles.
band you picked: count the stars
1. Are you male or female: all good things
2. Describe yourself: waste of life
3. How do some people feel about you?: pick yourself up
4. How do you feel about yourself?: better off alone
5. Describe an old girlfriend/boyfriend/interest: my best mistake (no more chances)
6. Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend/interest: what i'm looking for
7. Your sexual innuendo: first time
8. Where would you rather be?: left of july
9. Where are you?: on the way home
10. Describe what you want to be: all good things
11. Describe how you live: hanging on
12. Describe how you love: understanding
13. Share a few words of wisdom: say anything
14. Are you older or younger: brand new skin
15. What would you like to do today: pretend
16. What would you like to do tonight?: fireflies
17. What makes you feel the best?: saving myself
18. What makes you feel the worst?: pictures
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| looking back on innocence |
[25 Jul 2003|02:33pm] |
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i'm sprawled at the foot of the stairs
wishing it was 10 years ago
and instead of drinking this wistfulness away
my best friend and i are arguing
over how to dress barbie today
remember those days?
innocence and big barrettes
leggings and oversize t-shirts
those were our best days
and we can't go back except in memories
mulling over all the world's problems
when did it go from simple
to completely impossible
i can't pinpoint the year
the line is blurred..
but remember those days?
innocence and big barrettes
leggings and oversize t-shirts
those were our best days
and we can't go back except in memories
running around outside
taking turns on that old swing
those were our best days
and we can't go back except in memories
atleast we have our memories
-me
okay, it may be bad but i just thought it was sweet..i was feeling very sad today thinking about when it was so much simpler.
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| the lives of co-dependent girls |
[25 Jul 2003|10:40am] |
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well i finally talked to john yesterday for like two seconds..but he was busy and i understand that. i'm not one of those completely obsessive girlfriends, i hate those girls. you know, the ones who have long paragraphs in their AIM profiles about how much they looooove their boyfriend-of-the-week? yea. can anyone say co-dependent?! sheesh. think for yourselves children, and don't rush into love. that's my lesson for today.
guess who might get to go to warped?! MEEEE! maybe *crosses fingers* if lace's sister will take me, my parents already said i could! and count the stars will be there..*drool*
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| woo. new journal. *dances* |
[24 Jul 2003|01:27pm] |
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i'm so very tired. and i have cramps. i hate this, man. i had a reeeally weird dream though so i think i shall share it.
so me and matthew were supposed to go swimming at his house or something [he doesn't really have a pool] but yea, so i ran across the street and dived into his yard cause i saw a car coming but the car was him coming home. suddenly i was at my grandma's house and then i went to a party-type thing. it was at my house but it didn't really look like my house. somehow i had a bathroom attached to my room and there was a door leading outside attached to the bathroom so i tried to plot how john could stay after the party without my parents knowing [i would never have the guts to do that in real life] so we were still supposed to go swimming so i kept wanting to leave. when we left we ended up going to dan's house [dan from rudy] and hanging out there for a while. somehow, he had an apartment with mark and will and matt e. so yea, we went and hung out there and i accidentally fell asleep on his bed. i woke up at like 12 and started panicking beause i thought my parents were going to kill me. they didn't know where i was and they certainly wouldn't like that i fell asleep on a guy's bed that they didn't even know. so i called my dad from my cell and told him to come pick me up..he got there around 12:30 and wasn't mad at all. he started talking to dan and they talked till like 1 am. and i was like man now i can't go swimming with matthew. suddenly we were all at carowinds [by 'we' i mean everyone from school] and our housekeeper anna was cooking at one of those little booth things. she only had one chocolate brownie left and i asked her to save it for me so she did and i bought it from her even though it was supposed to be free with the meal. for some reason this really stupid, rude girl from school named allison had a problem with that and i was like um okay. so we were all sitting at 2 tables and when i came back with my food, allison had taken my seat along with her stupid friends and i was like OKAY so i sat at the other side of the table. then my food fell onto the ground and i got sad so i ate half of my brownie. the wind blew and knocked the other half onto the ground and i got sad again. i just talked to people the rest of the meal.
that's the end of my messed up dream.
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