if anyone is still interested in my life that has blurty- i have a livejournal now. its _dannerellie_
YEP check it out!!! :)
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:18:31 AM): and hes never forgave me for that and we havent moved on... and it always bothers him... and we havent been the same since
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:18:49 AM): and we are tryin to get back to that point... and im really tryin, but im ready to give up
cassaroo1220 (12:19:13 AM): awww
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:20:08 AM): it just sucks & ive been so sick over all this shit... like tonite when i was with u guys was prolly the only time i didnt think about it
cassaroo1220 (12:20:30 AM): well thats good... u know?
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:22:03 AM): yeah
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:22:10 AM): but still.. it sucks
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:22:14 AM): ive been sick over it...
cassaroo1220 (12:22:16 AM): oh yeah i know
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:22:55 AM): hmmm...
cassaroo1220 (12:23:30 AM): Ide love to help u out... but i just dont know what to say u know?
cassaroo1220 (12:23:42 AM): Maybe u being home will help fix that more
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:23:42 AM): yeah i know
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:23:47 AM): yeah id hope so
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:24:24 AM): but like tonite.... ugh... he loves me, but hes not in love with me and im totally head over heels for him... im like a freakin mom bringin out the senior pics in front of family and friends and like he isnt in love with me...
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:25:08 AM): and thats hard to think about.
cassaroo1220 (12:25:09 AM): well time heals all... and if you are head over heals, then maybe its for a good reason and dont give us
cassaroo1220 (12:25:10 AM): up
cassaroo1220 (12:25:23 AM): oh yeah i know
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:25:32 AM): yeag
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:25:35 AM): yeah*
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:25:36 AM): i hope so
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:26:46 AM): i just wish things were like they used to be
cassaroo1220 (12:26:58 AM): I can tell he still loves u... and if he didnt, I honestly dont think he would be waisting his time
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:27:51 AM): i mean he calls me tonite & all he does is talk about other girls...
cassaroo1220 (12:28:16 AM): have u told him that all this bothers u?
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:28:21 AM): yes
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:28:30 AM): he KNOWS when he talks about girls it bothers me
cassaroo1220 (12:29:01 AM): well tell him that the next time he talks about other girls, ur going to hang up the phone on him
cassaroo1220 (12:29:14 AM): and when he can only talk about YOU guys, he can call u back
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:29:26 AM): yaeh
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:29:30 AM): good idea
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:29:42 AM): it just makes me feel like he doesnt want to be with me... which i could understand...
cassaroo1220 (12:31:16 AM): yea
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:31:31 AM): it just sucks.. things are shitty right now
cassaroo1220 (12:32:31 AM): yea... . things will only get better if u make them
cassaroo1220 (12:32:43 AM): and i know ur trying, but is he?
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:32:43 AM): im really tryin
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:32:53 AM): ive been tryin for the past month... i dont know if he is
cassaroo1220 (12:33:36 AM): well u should ask him
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:33:40 AM): yeah i should i guess
cassaroo1220 (12:33:57 AM): tell him that ur trying so hard to make things better, but it seems like hes not putting any effort into it
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:34:14 AM): its hard for us to talk though...we dont see much of each other and when we do all we do is kiss cuz i cant resist him.. u know that
*u know i dont know what i would do without good friends. u know a friend is a GOOD friend when u can get together after like 6 months and everything is still the same. I mean i havent hung out with Veronika & Cassie in forever & we had the best time last nite. i dont know why we didnt keep in touch more... hmmm... i dont know what id do without my girls. all of them. i love them all so much. im the luckiest person in the world because i have the best friends ever. we may get busy and wrapped up in our own lives, but we always come back and we are always there for each other. i love all of u. all my WLW friends, my A.C friends, my sisters... i just dont know what id do without my friends. thanks for always bein here for me.
*I CANT WAIT TILL THURSDAY!!! im gonna go look at hair styles & cuts & high lites.....mmmmmm cant wait V ron & C dawg!!!*
you are amazing
everything you are is amazing, bad and good.
i'll never feel like this again. ill never once question my love for you
god i dont know how i ended up with you. or how i got so lucky but i am and i wouldnt trade it for the world
i wouldnt give one smile up for a million dollars.
i wana give u the world, and i swear one day i will. and we'll run away from here.
we'll run away from everything we ever didnt like. and we'll come back sometimes.
we'll live happily ever after. it'll always be me and you.
i cant imagine life without you. i cant imagine breathing without you.
there are those things in life you just know.. you just have a gut feeling about.
you just see someone and know. i thought u were a bad kisser at first... sorry.
but i got a closer look. i'll never forget the day i met you. the times we started to talk.
D You have trouble trusting people.
A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
N You like to work, but you always want a break.
I You are always smiling and making others smile.
E You are a very exciting person.
L Love is something you deeply believe in.
L Love is something you deeply believe in.
E You are a very exciting person.
1) Using band names, spell out your name : Dru Hill Abba NickelBack Incubus Elevendy LessThanJake Lifehouse Evanessence!!! whoo hooo
2) Have you ever had a song written about you? sadly no...
3) What song makes you cry? any sad love song
4) What song makes you happy? Hey YA by outkast
5) What do you like to listen to before bed? maroon 5 cd...
PT. II a p p e a r a n c e
HAIR COLOR: brown w/ high lites
EYE COLOR: brown
PIERCINGS:ears and belly button
TATTOOS: one on my toe- a purple star
r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: P.J pants
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: fallen by Sarah...ahh...
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH? ice cream
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: cold & snowy
HOW ARE YOU? alright... good nite tonite
d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: nope
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: biting my nails when im nervous
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS? not really
LIKE TO DRIVE?: it depends on where im headin
f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: Will & Grace
CONDITIONER: bed head
BOOK: anything by Jane Green or number the stars
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: water
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: pucker
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: be with adam & friends
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: maroon 5, Britney, Christina, & blink
h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: yeah.. but i dont get caught!
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: too many times when i was younger
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: yea
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING? ha ha adams hot tub...
PRANK PHONE CALL: nope
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY?: sick...
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: yeppers... she knew though
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: nope actually... well senior skip day, but that doesnt count
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: bath yes.
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: yeppers
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: of course
l o v e
BOYFRIEND:mmmm i love u baby boy
GIRLFRIEND: sometimes...lol j/k no
SEXUALITY: it matters who u ask... im straight
CHILDREN: not yet
CURRENT CRUSH: no one
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: always
BEEN HURT?: too many times
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: lets see... mark... yeah.. a lot of things fall under that category...
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: nope
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: not at the moment
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: Maroon 5
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: Cerclean... i think thats how u spell it
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: friends, a.c, alpha phi....
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: Adam i guess
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: blink
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: Chelle Adam Veronika Cassie Mara
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: almost anything
w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: yesterday nite
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: November
YOU GOT E-MAIL: today
THING YOU PURCHASED: hmmm... clothes
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: TRL
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: Mona Lisa Smile
y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
ABORTION: no comment
TEENAGE SMOKING: you wanna die ?? noo im just kidding you do what you want im not going to tell you who to be
SPICE GIRLS: old girl group... good thing they parted...
DREAMS: they are heaven brought to ur mind at nite
Fantastic day today... went out & looked for a job... applied at a MILLION Different places.... then came home & ADAM came over!! YAY!!! then Cassie came over & adam left...darn... but then we went out and picked up veronika and i tried to find an outfit for the dance, but couldnt. my boobs are too big... blah... then went to Big Boy & met up with kim & made plans for Spring break!!! YAY!!!! 2004 ORLANDO is gonna be TYTE!!! now im back @ home & waiting for my baby to call me back. nite everyone
* MISS U A.C FRIENDS!!! ILL COME DOWN SOON!! LOVE YA!*
Coool info bout me
x. makes you happy: Adam.Micheal.Martin- hes the only thing that makes me happy now a days
x. upsets you: stress
x. you keep a diary: yep.
x. you like to cook: maybe if i knew how...lol
x. you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: ehhhhh yes.
x. you're in love: yes
x. you set your watch a few minutes ahead: no
x. you bite your fingernails: only when im nervous
x. you believe in love: OF COURSE
the cutest female you know: cutest??? hmmm prolly britney spears
The weirdest person you know: hmmm... Jason
the Loudest Person you Know: Andrea
the Sexiest Person you Know: Adam
Your close friends: Adam & Chelle.
Most Boring Teacher: Mr. Soash... damn science
your most overused phrase on IM: LOL
the last image/thought you go to sleep with: Adam & I being perfect again
your best feature: dont know anymore... prolly my boobs... that sucks right??
Inside joke: since im not at college anymore im becoming real HUNGRY!! LOL
take a shower everyday: geeze at least!!!
have a(any) crush(es): well im in love. hes the only guy i really think about
think you know you've been in love: yes... when u are in love... you know
want to get married: "all u have to do is ask for me to be yours... and Id be yours forever" yes
have any tattoos/where?: YES!!! whooo hooo my purple star on my toe!!! cutest thing ever!!
piercing/where?: belly button & ears
get motion sickness: noperz
think you're a health freak: ha ha far from
get along with your parents: lol no way in hell
thunderstorms: FUN TO WATCH!!
SIGN: Leo... grrrrr lioness
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: brown
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: brown with high lites
EYE COLOR: brown
BIRTHPLACE: Orlando Florida!! WHOOO HOO sunshine baby
( FAMILY )
PARENTS: Val & Danny... but mostly Val
SIBLINGS: none... well i did have a brother... but then we kinda fell in love... LOL Adam I love u. (p.s- hes not really related in ANY WAY!!! LOL)
LIVE WITH: mom
FAVORITE RELATIVE: My cousin Heather- shes so pretty & fun
( FAVORITES )
COLOR: lime green, purple, aquamarine blue
DAY: Friday in the fall cuz of the football games but Saturday
MONTH: April & August
SONG: At the moment- Fallen (sarah m.) & miss you (blink)
FOOD: prolly any type of chicken- or pasta...
SEASON: couldnt pick a favorite really... i love them all... spring because of spring break- summer because of my birthday & the sun & tan - Fall because of football & rake n run...lol... & winter because the snow is B E A utiful...
DRINK: water...mmmmm or red poweraide
VEGGIE: Cucumbers or peppers
( PREFERENCES )
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? omg when i cuddle with adam we cant help but kiss each other!! aww i luv u
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? hot chocolate & vanilla....mmmm... right jackie??
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? milk- right baby?
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? vanilla.
( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
HELPED SOMEONE? i think
BOUGHT SOMETHING? yep.
GOTTEN SICK? yeah... since the convo on friday nite ive been real sick....
GONE TO THE MOVIES? nope
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? nope
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no
TALKED TO AN EX? yes
MISSED AN EX? how could i?? i have adam. i chose him over any of those guys... thats why im with him
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? this one
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON? adam- all nite...mmmmm
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? yes
MISSED SOMEONE? yes im miss u so much adam...
HUGGED SOMEONE? yep
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? Yes...will she ever stop???
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? nope. i love my REAL friends
name 10 bands you listen to: maroon 5(yay) blink 182, the starting line, 311, MB20, Aerosmith, All American Rejects, Simple Plan, GC, & box Car Racer
Would You Ever..
1. Eat a bug? no
2. Bungee jump? hell yes
3. Hang glide? yes
4. Kill someone? depends on who it is... j/k
5. Have sex with someone you don't love? no.
6. Kiss someone of the same sex? ha ha ha....
7. Have sex with someone of the same sex? GOD NO
8. Parachute from a plane? yes
9. Walk on hot coals? or not... who does that??
10. Go out with someone for their looks? no. when i get into a relationship its gotta be for more than that, but i talk to people just cuz theyre good lookin... like snook & Q....lol
11. For their reputation? God no. people dont like me?? fuck off
12. Be a vegetarian? yeah sure.
13. Wear plaid with stripes? ahhhhh no
14. IM a stranger: prolly not
15. Sing karaoke? Tuesday nites @ L.A!! i luv u girls
16. Get drunk off your ass? i dont call that drunk... i call that wasted and yes.. too many times...he he he
17. Shoplift? no. i can buy my own thanks
18. Run a red light? lol nope...
19. Star in a porn video? with adam... sure....
20. Dye your hair blue? temptin, but no...lol
21. Be on Survivor? sure
22. Wear makeup in public? ahhhhhh omg who does that?!?! LOL of course i do...
23. NOT wear makeup in public? matters on where im goin...
24. Cheat on a test? nope. im smart enough thanku
25. Make someone cry? it happens
26. Call your math teacher a motherfucker? not to their face
27. Kick a baby? no. babies are too cute to do that too. fuck face...
28. Date someone more than ten years older than you? OMG hell no.... i dont want no old balls man...lol
29. Cuss out a priest? lol if he needed it... like if he raped my son....
30. Take a job as a janitor? if i needed the money maybe
31. Wear a tho-tho-tho-tho-thong? WHO WEARS UNDERWEAR?!?!? LOL
32. Stay up all through the night? yep... love u chelle & boston... all niters in Cocoa w/ my boy...mmmm...
33. Drink straight espresso? i can honestly say ive never done that
yeah i still hate my life.... i cant get over this shit... & i have nobody who really understands that is here for me. well im gonna go talk to adam... hes just as stressed as i am... BLAH!!!
The first time u fall in love, it changes your life forever, & no matter how hard u try, the feeling NEVER goes away.... i almost wish it would... I love u adam.
i still get the flutterbys...
i still see forever....
things have been stressful lately. i dont have any stability in my life... it scares me a whole lot. i just want this nitemare to be overwith... i want to wake up and be @ adrian monday & be perfect & happy with adam again & to be about 20 lbs lighter like i used to be... *sigh* well i can dream right???
*shopping was fun today. thanks chelle. i needed to go out. funny i didnt feel like buying anything. its gonna be hard to shop for adams dance... i want to look *perfect* yeah thats me...lol*
goin to my cuzins house tonite for a sleepover. drinks & chick flicks... thats a good time!!! wish i was with adam though. we really need to talk. i love him....
*havent felt good since last nite... dont know whats going on with me... i feel like crap...
*leave me sum lovin!!!* *smooches*
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Sk8wlw03se- joe. dated him all freshmen yr and part of sophomore.... friends now after 2.5 yrs.
Sk8wlw03Se (12:20:51 AM): hey youd be proud of me
Sk8wlw03Se (12:21:02 AM): i FINALLY wrote a song
Sk8wlw03Se (12:21:28 AM): well finally wrote a DECENT song
Sk8wlw03Se (12:21:51 AM): lol im getting good again at guitar
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:21:53 AM): really?
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:21:59 AM): whats ur song about?
Sk8wlw03Se (12:22:16 AM): well like ok this is gonna sound funny but yeah
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:22:24 AM): ok..
Sk8wlw03Se (12:22:35 AM): well just cause im telling you
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:22:43 AM): okay whats it about?
Sk8wlw03Se (12:22:53 AM): but i went out with corie phelps i donno if you knew that or knew her
Sk8wlw03Se (12:23:04 AM): (she looks dfferent and has changed allot now)
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:23:07 AM): nope
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:23:15 AM): dont know her
Sk8wlw03Se (12:23:16 AM): she used to be really fatbut
Sk8wlw03Se (12:23:23 AM): yeah its the girl i used to live with
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:23:30 AM): lol thats nice to say...
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:23:32 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:23:36 AM): thats sweet
Sk8wlw03Se (12:24:11 AM): wellafter we went out for like 5 months prolly and she was the only person i truly fell in love with
Sk8wlw03Se (12:24:16 AM): well you know what i mean
Sk8wlw03Se (12:24:31 AM): besides us and what not lol
Sk8wlw03Se (12:24:35 AM): but ne ways
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:25:02 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:25:03 AM): dork
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:25:04 AM): i get it
Sk8wlw03Se (12:25:12 AM): so after we broke up she started blameing me for EVERYTHING that ever went wrong
Sk8wlw03Se (12:25:17 AM): with me and her
Sk8wlw03Se (12:25:26 AM): but like at the same time i still missed her
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:25:26 AM): damn
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:25:34 AM): did she go to our school?
Sk8wlw03Se (12:25:56 AM): but i never really thought about it than i found out 2 days after we broke up she fucked her ex
Sk8wlw03Se (12:25:58 AM): yeah
Sk8wlw03Se (12:26:24 AM): like i mean she fucked him 2 days after but i didnt find out till recently
Sk8wlw03Se (12:26:34 AM): and the sing pretty much goes
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:26:57 AM): damn
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:27:45 AM): that sucks babe. im sorry
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:27:49 AM): like i said. girls are bitches
Sk8wlw03Se (12:28:32 AM): when its over, go and blame me, just dont say that, i never wanted you, gotta show you, how much i loved you, do bad i lost you, you were a dream come, true enough to tell me that your leaving me today, guess i never meant that musch to you any way, never saw this comeing by the look on your face, GOD i miss you and god i miss this place
Sk8wlw03Se (12:30:09 AM): now its over, go and blame me, just dont say that, i never wanted you, think about you for every day now, try to forget you, ill never know how hard it is to tell me that your leaving me today guess i never meant that musch to you any way, never saw this comeing by the look on your face, GOD i miss you and god i miss this place
Sk8wlw03Se (12:30:30 AM): but yeah it repeats parts and what not but thats it pretty much
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:30:39 AM): damn
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:30:43 AM): good job.
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:30:55 AM): sad experience inspired u, but good job
Sk8wlw03Se (12:31:56 AM): thanx im kinda proud of it but i wanna do more but writeing the guitar parts is the most fun :-D
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:32:11 AM): yeah i bet
Sk8wlw03Se (12:32:32 AM): its a punk song though LOL
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:32:40 AM): so?
Sk8wlw03Se (12:32:56 AM): i can play nice songs too but i cant write to them
Sk8wlw03Se (12:34:08 AM): yeah and the voice just dosnt work out that well
Sk8wlw03Se (12:34:10 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:34:20 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:34:23 AM): ill sing them!
Sk8wlw03Se (12:34:28 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:34:36 AM): cant promise theyll be too punky anymore though...lol
Sk8wlw03Se (12:34:47 AM): that would be funny to see you in a punk band
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:34:52 AM): EXCUSE ME!??!
Sk8wlw03Se (12:35:04 AM): well if the guitar and everything was punk you would kinda have to
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:35:09 AM): ha ha
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:35:13 AM): i could do i
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:35:16 AM): it*
Sk8wlw03Se (12:35:28 AM): it would be funny to see you in a punk band
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:35:32 AM): i could do it
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:35:35 AM): so laugh all u want
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:35:52 AM): if u could be in choir- then i could be in a punk band
Sk8wlw03Se (12:35:57 AM): i never said you couldnt DO it it just would make me laugh
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:36:29 AM): well u in choir made me laugh
Sk8wlw03Se (12:36:31 AM): JUST like me in a choir made allot of people laugh or get up and go home
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:36:35 AM): :-D
Sk8wlw03Se (12:36:46 AM): see told ya
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:36:54 AM): no comment
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:37:12 AM): lol
Sk8wlw03Se (12:37:14 AM): you just had a comment what do you mean no commentyou
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:37:16 AM): JUST KIDDING
Sk8wlw03Se (12:37:25 AM): cant MAKE a comment before i make mine
Sk8wlw03Se (12:37:26 AM): lol
Sk8wlw03Se (12:37:31 AM): and then say NO comment
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:37:40 AM): ha ha ha
Sk8wlw03Se (12:37:43 AM): it just dosnt work that way
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:37:43 AM): okay well...
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:37:48 AM): no comment AFTER ur comment
Sk8wlw03Se (12:37:52 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:38:21 AM): he he that works right?
Sk8wlw03Se (12:38:27 AM): i guess
Sk8wlw03Se (12:53:13 AM): man i need a hair cut
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:54:04 AM): me too
Sk8wlw03Se (12:54:10 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:54:11 AM): u should go to Sheers To ya
Sk8wlw03Se (12:54:23 AM): wheres that at
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:54:38 AM): its in the same complex that jets pizza is
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:54:46 AM): its across the street from pizza hut..
Sk8wlw03Se (12:54:48 AM): ok i donno wheres that at
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:54:50 AM): I think i like pizza...
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:54:51 AM): lol
Sk8wlw03Se (12:54:53 AM): im tryin to think
Sk8wlw03Se (12:54:58 AM): what road
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:55:07 AM): pontiac trail
Sk8wlw03Se (12:55:22 AM): oh ok i know where your talkin about
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:55:29 AM): yeah
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:55:33 AM): go see Veronika
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:55:36 AM): shes my girl
Sk8wlw03Se (12:55:39 AM): why you wanna go get our hair did together LOL
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:55:43 AM): NO
Sk8wlw03Se (12:55:44 AM): LOL
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:55:44 AM): lol
Sk8wlw03Se (12:55:58 AM): that would be funny
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:56:05 AM): or not
Sk8wlw03Se (12:56:17 AM): im not SERIOUS
Sk8wlw03Se (12:56:47 AM): come on now
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:56:51 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:56:52 AM): dont lie
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:56:54 AM): u know u wanna
Sk8wlw03Se (12:56:57 AM): BUT it would be funny
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:57:08 AM): not really though
Sk8wlw03Se (12:57:09 AM): no not really
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:57:15 AM): no not at all
Sk8wlw03Se (12:57:17 AM): i mean i dont really wanna
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:57:21 AM): liar
Sk8wlw03Se (12:57:46 AM): nope im not lieing
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:58:01 AM): okay
faLLeN StArZ cb (12:58:05 AM): i believe u
Sk8wlw03Se (12:58:20 AM): good
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:00:19 AM): but not really
Sk8wlw03Se (1:00:50 AM): oh didnt see that comein
Sk8wlw03Se (1:01:02 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:02:10 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:02:12 AM): shut up
Sk8wlw03Se (1:02:29 AM): but yeah i gotta go to bed im tired
Sk8wlw03Se (1:02:40 AM): is it cool if i give you a call tomarrow?????
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:03:24 AM): sure
Sk8wlw03Se (1:03:58 AM): cool
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:04:06 AM): nite hun
Sk8wlw03Se (1:04:10 AM): night
Sk8wlw03Se (1:04:25 AM): im gonna call your ass at 6 and be like WAKE UP AND FIND A JOB
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:04:32 AM): SHUT UP
Sk8wlw03Se (1:04:36 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:04:37 AM): id hate u forever.
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:04:37 AM): lol
Sk8wlw03Se (1:04:44 AM): i wouldnt do that
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:04:55 AM): i hope not
Sk8wlw03Se (1:05:09 AM): hey whats that nick kids last name that hit you again
Sk8wlw03Se (1:06:07 AM): with the car
Sk8wlw03Se (1:06:20 AM): or as it an adam???
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:06:22 AM): ?!?!?
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:06:26 AM): ohhhhhh
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:06:28 AM): the kid that HIT ME
Sk8wlw03Se (1:06:33 AM): yeah
Sk8wlw03Se (1:06:54 AM): what was his name again
Sk8wlw03Se (1:07:23 AM): ????????????????????
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:07:51 AM): nick giddings
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:07:52 AM): sry
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:07:56 AM): i was trying to remember
Sk8wlw03Se (1:07:59 AM): LOL YES HES IN MY FIRST HOUR
Sk8wlw03Se (1:08:21 AM): im gonna say something to him if thats ok
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:08:44 AM): sure
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:08:46 AM): hes a fag
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:08:48 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:09:08 AM): dont make him cry though
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:11:50 AM): lol
Sk8wlw03Se (1:18:54 AM): so r u and adam dateing now
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:18:58 AM): yes
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:19:01 AM): finally
Sk8wlw03Se (1:19:03 AM): sweet
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:19:05 AM): but things arent good now
Sk8wlw03Se (1:19:14 AM): y not
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:19:24 AM): they usually are, and its prolly cuz im just stressed, but things just suck right now
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:19:32 AM): he just says somethings and doesnt think...
Sk8wlw03Se (1:19:44 AM): sww im sorry
Sk8wlw03Se (1:19:53 AM): awww*
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:20:04 AM): ehhh it happens
Sk8wlw03Se (1:20:19 AM): yeah but im still sorry
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:20:26 AM): it just sucks cuz i sit and think that i deserve so much better than to think that im lower than him and he deserves more than me and like i dont know...
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:20:27 AM): it sucks!
Sk8wlw03Se (1:20:38 AM): its never good when relationships are not goin too good
Sk8wlw03Se (1:21:03 AM): dont think that danielle
Sk8wlw03Se (1:21:13 AM): im sure your still a great person
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:21:32 AM): well ive always thought that about my bfs... like always... ive always felt "not good enough." it just sucks
Sk8wlw03Se (1:21:54 AM): i know you were one of the best people i knew ever in my life seriously
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:22:10 AM): well thanks
Sk8wlw03Se (1:22:17 AM): and if anything you deserve the best and im sure that you and adam will work out
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:22:25 AM): that seriously means a lot to me... thats one of the sweetest things uve ever said..
Sk8wlw03Se (1:23:07 AM): danielle i never forgot how good you were to me, and i still to this day have never forgave myself for doing such a cruel thing to you
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:23:29 AM): joe. i was far from perfect hun. u were real good to me too. it just got bad in the end. thats all
Sk8wlw03Se (1:24:13 AM): i mean i seriously never thought i would ever do something that mean and i like would and still get sick over it to think that i was such a dick to a person that did so much for me
Sk8wlw03Se (1:24:26 AM): no i know
Sk8wlw03Se (1:24:36 AM): but i mean like the whole thing when we broke up
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:24:40 AM): yeah...
Sk8wlw03Se (1:24:42 AM): that was horriblebut
Sk8wlw03Se (1:24:45 AM): not only that
Sk8wlw03Se (1:24:53 AM): i dont mean in relationship
Sk8wlw03Se (1:24:57 AM): i mean in life
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:25:01 AM): u realize that i would have taken u back if u would have asked.. but like u didnt...
Sk8wlw03Se (1:25:20 AM): i just couldnt go through the pain anymore
Sk8wlw03Se (1:25:35 AM): you still to this day are the only girl i ever have cried over
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:25:47 AM): awwwww
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:25:49 AM): lol
Sk8wlw03Se (1:25:51 AM): and it hurt allot im sure you know what i meanyou
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:25:52 AM): thats cute
Sk8wlw03Se (1:25:56 AM): know it wouldnt have worked out
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:26:00 AM): i know what u mean
Sk8wlw03Se (1:26:02 AM): but i should have gave it time
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:26:18 AM): ehhh... so should i instead of looking elsewhere
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:27:22 AM): ok
Sk8wlw03Se (1:27:41 AM): no but seriously i have been waiting a while to tell you this and i donno if its too soon frome us starting to talk but you were the only good thing in my life you kept on track as much as anything else and i was goin good and like as soon as oyu left my life just went to shit
Sk8wlw03Se (1:28:19 AM): like i mean im better now but you really did allot for me and i never told you that
Sk8wlw03Se (1:30:50 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:31:12 AM): lol
Sk8wlw03Se (1:31:19 AM): but yeah im glad i finally got that off my chest LOL
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:31:37 AM): im glad u did too
Sk8wlw03Se (1:31:58 AM): i just fucked everything up so quick that when i realized what you did for me i never got to thank you
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:32:19 AM): well ur welcome i guess.
Sk8wlw03Se (1:32:25 AM): lol
Sk8wlw03Se (1:33:02 AM): but yeah im sure you and adam will work out fine and hell realize that your stressed out
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:33:20 AM): yeah
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:33:59 AM): i hope so
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:34:03 AM): it would be nice
Sk8wlw03Se (1:34:05 AM): i mean like you said i cant really say your a wounderful person but if your anything like you used to be (and im sure your not THAT far frome it) hell relize that he has a great thing and youll be good together
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:34:18 AM): awww thanks babe
Sk8wlw03Se (1:35:05 AM): bbut yeah you should give him a BIG smooch the next time you see him and let him know that your stressed out
Sk8wlw03Se (1:35:15 AM): and hell prolly get over it LOL
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:35:20 AM): smooch??!
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:35:24 AM): who smooches?
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:35:25 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:36:17 AM): u shoulda just saidSk8wlw03Se (1:35:05 AM): bbut yeah you should give him a BIG KISSY WISSY the next time you see him and let him know that your stressed out
Sk8wlw03Se (1:37:33 AM): what why dose it matter what i use????
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:37:37 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:37:42 AM): im just kidding with u
Sk8wlw03Se (1:37:46 AM): im lost
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:37:53 AM): nm
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:37:58 AM): i was just kididng
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:38:02 AM): kidding*
Sk8wlw03Se (1:38:19 AM): i feel dumb now cause i have NO idea whats going on
Sk8wlw03Se (1:38:21 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:38:48 AM): retard.
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:38:55 AM): i was making fun of ur smooch comment
Sk8wlw03Se (1:39:08 AM): i feel like im on the short bus
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:39:12 AM): ha ha
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:39:23 AM): thats where i pick up all my boyfriends...lol
Sk8wlw03Se (1:39:39 AM): HEY screw you i never road the short bus
Sk8wlw03Se (1:39:51 AM): ok maybe ONCE i did but i needed a ride
Sk8wlw03Se (1:46:03 AM): yeah all i can say is i really REALLY like this piercing
Sk8wlw03Se (1:46:08 AM): its like my best friend
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:46:13 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:46:25 AM): as long as u have a friend right?
Sk8wlw03Se (1:48:34 AM): you 2 are cute together
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:48:38 AM): thanks
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:48:46 AM): we try to be anyways...
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:50:11 AM): dont u have school?!?!
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:50:13 AM): :-)
Sk8wlw03Se (1:50:20 AM): yeah
Sk8wlw03Se (1:50:44 AM): thats y i gotta get off this fuckin thing we just keep starting convos though
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:50:49 AM): yeah
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:50:51 AM): go to bed
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:50:52 AM): nite
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:50:54 AM): sweet dreams
Sk8wlw03Se (1:50:57 AM): nite
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:50:59 AM): have fun at school
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:51:00 AM): lol
Sk8wlw03Se (1:51:40 AM): ill have a fucking ball at school WHOOPIE
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:51:45 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:51:49 AM): tell everyone hi
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:51:50 AM): lol
Sk8wlw03Se (1:52:10 AM): lol ok ill walk through the halls and be like HI
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:52:13 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:52:17 AM): "hi from danielle"
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:52:24 AM): lol
Sk8wlw03Se (1:52:28 AM): but no one i hang around really knows you
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:52:32 AM): lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:52:36 AM): so say it to EVERYONE
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:52:40 AM): he he he
Sk8wlw03Se (1:52:44 AM): ok lol
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:53:02 AM): nite
Sk8wlw03Se (1:53:10 AM): theyll think im psycho but nothing new right
Sk8wlw03Se (1:53:14 AM): nite
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:53:16 AM): riiiiight
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:53:32 AM): ;-)
faLLeN StArZ cb (1:53:34 AM): LOL
*made me re-think things with adam...funny how an Ex boyfriend can do that... in a good way too. like he made me realize that i am good enough and that adam should love me for me, which he does, i am just stressed. i love u adam. i know u love me too. sry we had a bad nite. *xoxo* thanks for bein here for me babes... along with everyone else like chelle & everyone that said theyll miss me... ill visit i swear. i love my powell friends... how could i NOT go back?!?!? :)
& i hate how you always remind me of how much i hate myself. i know im not perfect. it would be nice if i was skinny and flawless... but im not. i guess ill never be that either, because ive never been close to flawless. ive never had a perfect complexion. ive never been "skinny" or considered "hott." id like to think that im okay looking though. id like to think that im good enough for you, but i know im not. & everytime u remind me of what u could have and who wants u and blah blah blah it makes me want to leave... actually it makes me feel like shit. it almost makes me wonder why i am so madly in love with you and why i am working so hard on this relationship?? i mean if u want to go there i could be with somebody right now who thinks im beautiful (or at least thats what he said.) u know i could have somebody at a.c or here or whatever. i know somebody out there has to think im good looking right??? maybe....
then again maybe not....
well i wish i was just sexy/beautiful/hott/cute/pretty... in somebody who loves me eyes...
on another depressing note....
moved my stuff out of my dorm room tonite. wanted to cry the whole time, but really didnt have time to. just looking around that hall was so many memories... i looked at the quote bored outside the hall and there was "Steve get ur moccasin off me." and then i go down the stairs... and then i see the lobby and from the lobby i see steves window... and all the lights were basically off so i think of the power outage nite and then i write on my friends doors goodbye and i think of them... i just wanna go home...back to a.c.... and be with my besties chelle & jackie & steve who ive lost touch with all during break... the only good thing about all this is that i always have a place to go to now if i just wanna leave here... cuz all my besties have their own rooms now & im sure theyd LOVE to have me (i think they would anyways...)
enough of that... its depressing for me.... im going to bed... hope everyone has a good weekend.... sundays gonna suck ass...
*sorry if i aint perfect
sorry i dont give a -what-
sorry i aint a diva
sorry, just know what i want
sorry im not a virgin
sorry, im not a SLUT
i wont let u break me... think what u want*
well things didn't go as planned today.... so now i have to find something to do for the next four years and i dont know what to do.
i dont feel like talking or writing, but i just thought i should write that.
*OMG IM SO SCARED!!!!!*
i hope everything goes okay...
I have to go get ready though. I'm leaving at 11. wish me luck.
oh... tell me this isnt the cutest thing ever.... this is what i woke up to... i love u adam. that made my morning, but i was a lil upset because I came to the computer @ 10 and u signed off at 9:57... :(
LSURTigger (9:38:00 AM): danielle your so cute god i love you your just so amazin with words i just... i dont... i cant... you make me speachless when you talk you are deff. are going to write a book when you are older and i will make sure that i bother you and distrack you as much as possible lol cuz thats just what i do but i will be the first to buy that book baby i love you and your just so perfect with words
LSURTigger (9:50:45 AM): i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you
*hope everyones day goes well... including mine....*
I cant wait for tonite. hopefully i get to see my hunnie.
nothings going on
watched tv & slept all day.
getting nervous about tomorrow... if ur a close friend u know whats goin on....
& yeah thats about it.
*WLW vs. L.O tonite... dont know who i want to win... prolly WLW cuz if L.O wins adam wont let me hear the end of it...lol...
*here's a cool away message of a friend of mine!*
"Relationships are like a glass. If you hold onto it too tightly it will shatter and fall apart. If you store it away and take it for granted it will only age and collect dust; but if you hold onto it, cherish it, fill it with wonderful things, and keep it clean it will last you a lifetime."
wow... i wonder what i relate this to... he he he
*hope everyone has a good day!!!* HOW ABOUT PEOPLE COMMENT IN MY JOURNAL BEEYACHES!!
the sun was setting
the tide was low
thats when we met
not so long ago
i walked by
you noticed me
it all just "happened"
you ran to us
wearing a tan
& ur heart on ur sleeve
and as soon as you spoke
i knew i couldnt leave
we had things in common
we really couldnt deny
but there was something else
beyond the human eye
we fell so fast
as we walked the beach that nite
sharing stories on us
some that werent even right
you took my hand in yours
it came by suprise
i was scared to give u my heart
but there was comfort in your eyes
the shooting stars
the blanket on the beach
something like this, for me
seemed so far out of reach...
months have gone by
my love has only grown
and now i cant imagine
either of us being alone
what im meaning to say
whether you realize it or not
that despite what has happened
you still leave my stomach in knots
from the first time we met
and until we meet again
my heart is yours
and i only hope that this feeling inside for you...
will never end.
basically what hes telling me is that he's never gonna trust me again. that he loves me, BUT hes never letting me get that close to him again. That hes never letting me back into his heart again. i dont know what to do anymore. i know i screwed up. i know that ive made mistakes and hurt him, but theres nothing i can do to win him over, and if there isnt then why are we trying? why is he still hanging on? why am i?? i had all the faith in the world that he was the one. that i was going to marry him. i threw it all away. i thought he was going to give me another chance, but it doesnt seem like im getting a fair one. we dont talk as much as we used to when on the phone and we barely get to see each other. we're back at the slump that we were in. i want out of it. theres nothing i can do.
possibly more later on my depressing life... im gonna go lay down or something. i feel like crap...
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