Blurty for Heather.
|Sunday, October 5th, 2003|
Nostalgia is the worst feeling in the world.
wishing for something you once had, but can never have again.
god, it sucks.
|Monday, September 29th, 2003|
cheap cascade: time for ELROD gossip
cheap cascade: now ... he is currently dating a one small-chested shenina hardy, however, he is coveted by a one rebounding celia jones, who was dumped by jeremy searcy last tuesday, so he could get the hook-up with kim walker
BHSTALIA: well well well
BHSTALIA: let me tell u some more about elrod
cheap cascade: hit me with it
BHSTALIA: he was going to go back out with his long time g/f amber ashby...
BHSTALIA: they had arranged thins
BHSTALIA: while she was preparing herself for a reuinion....he had obviously FORGOT about dating shenina..so he was going to get the hookup with them both
cheap cascade: oh ....
cheap cascade: well, amber ashby was the third party that caused the definite breakup of lance and madison, so ... i don't like her
BHSTALIA: he is a playa like no other
cheap cascade: he called me hon in the hallway friday
cheap cascade: i was creeped out
BHSTALIA: she was dating michael while she did the dirty with lance
cheap cascade: like woah ?
BHSTALIA: oh yes
cheap cascade: then why would micheal want to get back with her?
BHSTALIA: he cheated on her too, with Katie Beaver
cheap cascade: so .... THEY DID IT ?
BHSTALIA: multiple times
cheap cascade: him and k-t beaver ??
BHSTALIA: they went out the WHOLE summer
BHSTALIA: so that was more sexage
cheap cascade: dayumm
cheap cascade: that's disgusting
BHSTALIA: it sho is
cheap cascade: EWUH
BHSTALIA: i know
BHSTALIA: i vomit all of the time, just thinking about it
BHSTALIA: i like gossiping with u
BHSTALIA: tis fun
|Sunday, September 21st, 2003|
CKirnes23: hey are u ok?
cheap cascade: what do you mean, am i ok??
CKirnes23: after hulsey almost hit u the other night?
cheap cascade: i don't remember that ....
CKirnes23: when you dropped me off and you were pulling out of my driveway...
cheap cascade: my near-collison with brett white was worse
cheap cascade: i do remember spinning in someones yard shortly after dropping you off tho
CKirnes23: i was just concerned
cheap cascade: mmhmm
CKirnes23: how long were u @ arbys
cheap cascade: i ended up not going...
cheap cascade: bc i stopped by mike's .....
cheap cascade: and spent a considerable amount of time there b4 i realized i had to be home
CKirnes23: cause me and hulsey and searcy and brad jones and cory gaught went to wallfe house
cheap cascade: ...................
cheap cascade: AND YOU DIDN'T INVITE ME ??
cheap cascade: i live for waffle house
CKirnes23: well, first we decided 2g2 the 5th quarter, but when we got there, it was over, but the people ther gave us free food left over and we ate that and then we went 2 waffle house and ate there and messed with a bunch of drunks that came in there later
cheap cascade: i love waffle house ....
cheap cascade: and drunks
CKirnes23: the drunks kept asking us to dance too the music on the jukebox and they would give us some money.
CKirnes23: i wish you would have been there
cheap cascade: oh?
CKirnes23: yeah, i wanted to see you for more than just the ride home
|Wednesday, September 17th, 2003|
djork XX: djork XX (6:45:44 PM): so matt, i hear you're fucking heather?
MrSelfDestructMM (6:45:49 PM): am I?
djork XX (6:46:00 PM): that's obviously what you like to tell people
djork XX (6:46:07 PM): i just thought it was funny because heather didn't even know
MrSelfDestructMM (6:46:16 PM): I didn't even know either
djork XX (6:46:27 PM): ohh.. so you didn't tell anyone that heather wanted to fuck you?
djork XX: i'm not going to say natalias name
RizzoGurl: omg omg
djork XX: MrSelfDestructMM (6:46:54 PM): I don't think I did
djork XX (6:47:22 PM): well you should look into this.. becuase people like to say it.. and then they tell heather.. and then heather tells me.
djork XX: MrSelfDestructMM (6:47:52 PM): why don't people tell me these things
djork XX: me and jess talked for a while the other night
djork XX: sin adam
djork XX: it was nice..
djork XX: kinda causual, which was great
djork XX: i don't know. it was casual enough for me to say this to her:
djork XX: djork XX (10:54:08 PM): There's something else i wanted to say to you. Look, I know that things between you and I are pretty much beyond repair right now, and I wouldn't presume to be able to solve everything with a conversation because that's just not the way it works... But... I've been wanting to tell you that Im sorry,Jessica. I'm really sorry for the way everything went down this summer, for my part in it, and for the pain that it must have caused you, and... I'm really sorry that I ruined our friendship because I miss it badly, and uh, however far off it may be, I do look forward to the day when you and I might be friends again. So, until then.
djork XX (10:54:16 PM): COOKING?
djork XX: YUM YUM NASTY (10:55:37 PM): but in response.
YUM YUM NASTY (10:59:35 PM): i mean, i miss it too. but you lied to me so many times about huge things. i know it was all due to one fact. but what's to keep me from thinking you won't do it again? it's safe to say you won't ever have my trust again. but you do understand, and you were the first to actually have an interest in me rather than say victoria who called me to let me know about nic *which is probably what i sounded like to you, but it's good on the other side* , i've said it before, i can't be friends with you again. i won't allow myself to get that close. but dave mentioned something along the lines of 'what's the harm in talking'? and there is no harm.
djork XX: djork XX (11:00:36 PM): you're absolutely right
djork XX (11:00:46 PM): i agree with everything you've said
djork XX (11:00:50 PM): hell, i wouldn't trust me.
djork XX (11:01:19 PM): but if you ever want to talk about anything serious like this.. i'm waiting with a hallmark card and box of oreos.
djork XX (11:01:41 PM): and i dont think it's like how you explained the victoria and nick thing
YUM YUM NASTY
djork XX: YUM YUM NASTY (11:01:50 PM): haha. well that's good to know.
djork XX: but before all that, we laughed and talked normal like
I am so gonna try and make a poser d.i.y. copy of this freakin belt.
andrea, michela ... and POHL.
It's the simple stupid things that make my day.
webcams are fun.
|Sunday, September 14th, 2003|
gaylordfocker. i can't escape the drama.
Infected badger: when i got home you were off
Infected badger: and adam had called
Infected badger: should i call him back?
RizzoGurl: oh really
Infected badger: i can't take being yelled at
RizzoGurl: um.... he's gonna yell at you
RizzoGurl: A LOT
Infected badger: yep.
Infected badger: and get this
Infected badger: on my way home from madisons
Infected badger: i passed jessica
Infected badger: how weird is that
RizzoGurl: did she wave ... ???
RizzoGurl: heh.... i guess not
Infected badger: well it's his damn fault as much as it is mine
Infected badger: no.
Infected badger: she looked at me though
Infected badger: and i was crying
Infected badger: so that's kinda weird
RizzoGurl: i think she knows you're sincerely sorry
Infected badger: really?
Infected badger: because i don't think she does
~Having friends that will use their cards to get you into some1 else's pool
~Having friends that WANT to sit with you while you do your laundry
~Making planz with others and actually following thru with them
~Making planz that are so outrageous you could never go thru with them
~my new icon
~the postal service
~Koolaid Slushies Mixed with Vanilla Ice Cream
~the BACK N TYME store
~champagne from a paper cup
~coming really close to getting kicked out of a resturant and then bolting out the door before the manager gets *too* pissed
~hot sauce and flip-flop fights
~ when i am the only one who remembers other's drunken adventures
~the faking of anything by anyone
~roaches and their love for me
~the smell of horses
~The new hole in the ass of my jeans
~That I must learn tomorrow
~The insta-shock of cold weather
~That I cannot make my own clothes
~trying to believe in something you know isn't true but still wanting to have that feeling of faith in others
~telling myself something just so i can get by
~ when ppl say "nunya beezwax"
|Saturday, September 13th, 2003|
Whatever poison is in this bottle will leave me broken sore and stiff But it's the genie at the bottom who I'm sucking at He owes me one last wish So here's a present to let you know I still exist I hope the next boy that you kiss has something terribly contagious on his lips I got a plan
Drink (drift) for forty days and forty nights A sip for every second-hand tick And for every time you fed me the line, “you mean so much to me...” I'm without you So tell all the English boys you meet about the American boy back in the states The American boy you used to date Who would do anything you say
And even if her plane crashed tonight she'll find some way to disappoint me, by not burning in the wreckage,
or drowning at the bottom of the sea “Jess, I still taste you, thus reserve my right to hate you.” And all this empty space that you create does nothing for my flawless sense of style
It's 8:45 The weather is getting better by the hour I hope it rains there all the time
And if you ever said you miss me then don't say you never lied. I'm without you. So tell all the English boys you meet,... Okay, no more songs about you. After this one I'm done. You're gone. You're never gonna get it right.
|Thursday, September 11th, 2003|
I don't really feel like updating.
But i will anyways.
Bc I'll feel guilty all day tomorrow.
Today : developed a love for conic sections.
developed a hatred matt massey.
.... ate chicken ....
got in a 20 minute fight with cameron over RAISINS. (BC as every1 knows dried up grapes are valid argument material.)
watched the hairy/sweaty/uncoordinated football team practice.
watched an EXTREMELY AMUSING fight that ensued between two freshmen.
got dryhumped by steven tyler... and liked it.
had a flip-flop fight with Os.
twas a fairly normal day.
did 250 crunchies. ran approx. 3.5 laps.
|Tuesday, September 9th, 2003|
cameron is such a two-faced liar.
everyones asking me ....
"is he with someone else?"
" wtf happened to our class couple?"
"him and *gasp* A FRESHMEN?"
I myself had no idea what they were talking about.
so i asked him.
i face-to-face asked him for the truth.
and he lied.
IS IT JUST ME OR IS EVERY1 DRINKIN HATORADE FOR BREAKFAST??
between cameron and trent and drew ....
i want all guys to die.
|Monday, September 8th, 2003|
this is what happened :
1) Erica ran into a tree and broke his nose.
2) The "Bucks got stuck"... 31-6.NOT MY QUOTE
3) Heather and Audrey converse in 3rd Block. Heather cries horribly.
4) Every1 in 4th block wrote my honor codes EXCEPT ME.
5) I found out that my #1 hero is a chainsmoking buick-driving loser.
6) the deano gives me his coffee.
7) nate spills my coffee.
8) HOW MANY PPL DOES IT TAKE TO SHOOT JFK ?"
9) NONE - HIS HEAD JUST DID THAT.
10) ^ Thank you Trent/Alex/Brent.
11) Brent is greata than Ethiopia.
12) I called Ethiopia's 1 number - just for giggles.
13) Tom makes me cry.
14) I curse at a faculty werker in front of Mr.Smith.
15) I then refuse to lie about it.
16) Mr. Smith and I have a date - to plan my suspension.
17) Heather and Keavy compare chest sizes.
18) I made Brent and Matt my cumguzzling bitches.
19) Lori's bday party @ the palace of pins ~ didn't go as planned.
20) Jeremy Searcy and Heather are now OFFICIALLY friends. even tho I cannot stand him...
21) the concert tonight - also didn't go as planned.
22) James wasn't at work tonight. I still stalked around ae anyway.
23) so... we were in best buy. nate was playin on da keyboard... he SUPRISINGLY burst out with the tom pettyness. I love to discover other's hidden talents. it makes me smile. :D
24) bc of chingy, I couldn't hear the truck behind me honking and the driver screaming, prolly bc i was backing up and stopped about 4 inches in front of him. damn that we-up.
25) master's g/f is still alive. i hate my life.
|Monday, September 1st, 2003|
I wish Cameron would return from Tennesee. I would very much love to talk with him.
I went shopping this evening....BLEW ALL MY MONEY.
why do i always do that?
BROOKIE is pissed that i missed her birthday bash/seance.
i dont really give a fuck.
audi saw a sign for ROONEY DR. & she didn't steal it for me.
what a GREAT FRIEND.
|Sunday, August 31st, 2003|
You've got some nerve I never knew. I hope the next girl that you kiss has something terribly contagious on her lips. I trusted misleading promises worth repeating. If it's a lie, I don't want to be the one who fell for your words full of sin.
My life is full of mistakes.
I had one of those nights. One of those nights where you are just that pissed, to the point where you don't want to here whatever shits playing on the radio, even if its your favorite song. I just went home and hung around the kitchen and felt uncool. i had 4 parties i had promised to attend. and yet i never made it to any of them.( YUM YUM NASTY: you are the most popular girl EVER, alas i had one..which makes me so less cool. ) thanx for that jess. however, my social life is still a wreck thanks to:
mi abuela. selfish selfish me.
i miss out on so much. i have one year left. one year. of him. and then ..... he's gone.
last night was one of those nights.
|Saturday, August 30th, 2003|
|LAYLA SAW MARY BETH'S BEWBIES AND I DIDN'T.....|
|Tuesday, August 26th, 2003|
Friday, Kevin and I watched chicago AGAIN. twas nice. so was sarah's party. all tho it would have been better if i was drunk.
Things that went down on Sat. nite :
Audrey gives me many things she can't take to college, such as hats, shoes, hawaii stuff, smuggled bathroom signs, airplane merchandise, posters, etc.
We car dance to ROONEY. (4 those of you who don't know, this is one of my TOP5 fave pastimes)
"fine then. i'll just lick it and rub it (in a circular motion) on my boobs like I ALWAYS DO." - she says that, which causes me to fall out of the window.
went to drew's grandmother's house ?!?!?!?!
i kissed audrey. (In a non-lezzie mcguire way, mind u) cause it was on her FOREHEAD.
brent raped me.
the plant died of exhaustion.
donnie darko was impaled. and it was too much.
michela ate paper. a lot. she feels the pain today.
frank ignored me. =(
i had some beer-battered mushrooms.
Drew and I get into a huge fight, for real. It started with him saying : "what the hell was that all about?" and ended with him saying "i really hate you." and not in the nice casual way. i woke up sunday with no voice because i screamed at him for so long. even after i came home.
Its funny how I almost went to his triatholon and kicked his ass in front of everyone.
Audrey was right about ... Everything. I should have listened. I'm really gonna miss her. I don't have anyone to annoy @ BK. & no one to burn me cds filled with 60s stuff. & no one to set me straight when i try to buy nasty coffee. or an unworthy book.
this is all casey's fault.
And as a final word, i only have 1 thing left to say:
NOTNERT, fucker, notnert.
this past week i have been SEW into the ramones/clash/sex pistols. ITS INSANE. i've fallen for oldscool punk once again. i hope this isn't one of my 'musical phases'. cause that justin timberlake week was just not respectable. mr. kofag still calls me senorita.
I LOVE YOU SID VICIOUS!!
~ ~ ~
we were running across the football field for like 6 YEARS when coach massey comes out and tells us the field was just fertilized THIS MORNIN'.
needless to say, my beautiful feetsies smell like shit.
natalia the mex brought me a wonderful goody bag full of surprises "only us brown kids can enjoy."
she is 'teh greatest'. <3 <3
|Saturday, August 23rd, 2003|
AT meet the bucks (an after-school assembly to introduce the many org. at our school) , we were all standing around (the majorettes, drummers, and the football team).....
and cameron came up to me and asked me to feel his 'muscle' (which are HUGE btw) and then trent said something and i totally ignored cameron ..... and then cameron got all pissed off and walked away. Now, he is angry, because he says that I don't give him the necessary attn. that 'friends like us' deserve. ?!?!?!??!? I don't want to be friends with him. He should know this. trent sure as hell does. and at the football game thursday, i yelled 'i love you trent' (which i do) and cameron heard it, & once again got angry with me. when i screamed for him the ENTIRE DAMN game..... all this petty football related drama is making me sick ...... when the season hasn't even started yet. bleh..die.
trent is soo hott.
i've got to stop stalking him.
what an odd post.
The night has fallen down the staircase
And I, for one, have felt its bruises
Our social graces have been displaced
As we sink deeper into the drink
The volume increases....
Night time resurrects fault lines
Silent wars -- rumble somewhere below
The surfaces verses...
The surfaces verses...
The shoe is dropped, lungs explode
Shards of words of a shattered voice
And there's still a hole where the phone was thrown
The moon is rising, a revolution
I close my eyes and the room is spinning
"Sweetie, the moon has raped me --
It has left its seeds like a tomb inside me
So I must learn to abort these feelings
This romance is bleeding..."
Night time triggers the land mines
Bedroom wounds -- lovers like brigadiers
Marching two by two...
Marching two by two...
A soldier's down
Flood gates burst
I've said some things I wish you'd never heard
Like, "There's still a hole where the phone was thrown."
It's growing as we speak
And it's sucking us both in
A vacuum of sorrow to swallow up the day.
|Thursday, August 21st, 2003|
|JEREMY : "it's a fun story. basically we were just kicking it and boxing each other one day (like me, layla, adam, wes, travis, ryan, chas, and 3 other people i don't remmeber...) so yeah he decides to box madison. well he like punched her rEALLY hard and knocked her down and made her cry. that pissed me off. i didnt take kindly to the situation in the first place, but esp. since he made her cry. so yeah i got angry and i was like come on wes box me. you'll box a girl but you won't box me. step up pussy. and he never would. he doesn't take well to direct confrontation. which is why he runs everytime someone mentions brandon rosenberry."|
Blurty for Heather.