10:17am 02/05/2006
mood: crazy
music: steady as she goes-Raconteurs
I found an apartment!

I move out of my crappy apartment in June!

Only 2 weeks of school left!

I'm finally going to pass a semester.....maybe!

My flavor is Mint Chocolate Chip!

...........and thats about it.
what the hell am I doing here   
12:49am 24/04/2006
mood: cynical
music: I'm a creep-Radiohead
It's the turning point. The question is, will i make it far enough to even have a choice?
Essay #2   
06:07pm 02/03/2006
mood: contemplative
music: white stripes-dead leaves
Here's a piece of my 2nd essay just for fun. A few of you will know what I'm talking about.....

It’s an ordinary day outside on good old Division Street. The older woman with Alzheimer’s next door is walking aimlessly up and down the street. The local bum is sifting through the trash left out for the garbage man to take away later today. Across the street a couple of punk kids nervously sneak into the drug house to pick up their monthly stash, which they will sell later on to the miserable kids in their high schools. We sit on the porch in silence, waiting for the other one to speak but neither of us says a word.

1:30 am, Mik runs down the stairs and out the front door, completely shoeless, after taking a few too many pills. He runs down Division Street at full speed, not quite sure where he is actually going. Hank runs after him, screaming for the lanky bastard to come back. Meanwhile, Shannon and I are on the front porch laughing until our stomachs hurt.

In what felt like minutes later, I wake up to a shrill ringing. Listening in closer, I realize it’s the phone ringing. Stumbling over Sean, who’s sprawled out on the floor in women’s clothing, I pick it up and sure enough it’s my mother calling. Everything is fine I tell her, we just had a quiet night watching movies, and yes I am doing well in school. I have to go so I can get ready for work I say; it’s painful to lie to my mother but I don’t know what else I can do. I hang up the phone and jump in the shower to get ready for work, dreading what tonight will bring. We’re all just trying to patch up that empty hole in our lives, to fill the void. But maybe we set out to find what’s missing just a little too soon and we don’t realize that what we’re looking for is the same thing we’re running away from.
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10:59am 28/02/2006
mood: excited
music: Angel of Music-Phantom of the Opera
Saw phantom of the opera on sunday.
The phantom was gorgeous, nice ass too.
Bought the movie RENT and have now successfully watched it 5 times. I really want to see it live.

We leave for Florida in 2 weeks. I just really want to leave this cold.
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Green Again   
08:32am 09/02/2006
mood: bored
music: Sound and Vision-Bowie
Mik decided to move into my little one bedroom apartment with me, what joy. No but its really not that bad, though i do want to get a bigger place now.

I'm going to Florida in March, JUST TO VISIT. I won't be making any sudden decisions to live there again like I did last time.

I'm getting a little overwhelmed working full time and going to school full time, but the classes are pretty easy so I don't think I'll have too much of a problem....hopefully.

I had to wrote a descriptive essay in my english class so I decided to write it on getting high. Here's a piece:

<<<<< “Dude, you would look so much hotter as a cross dressing bunny,” I blurted out abruptly before positioning the glass pipe to my mouth, dry as cotton, trying to steady myself for yet another abrasive draught of pungent smoke. I took the bowl to my lips and sparked the stale buds with the butane lighter. After handing the bowl over to my newfound friend Sean, whom I had met earlier that afternoon, I gradually exhaled, and let the ethereal feeling sink in. >>>>>

Memoirs of a Geisha was just awesome. Definitely a buy when it comes out on video.
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I hate doctors.   
10:50am 24/01/2006
mood: gloomy
music: Beautiful - Smashing pumpkins
I can't breathe.

I want to go back one year.

Would you come if I left?

I still can't breathe.
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Bumper Sticker of the Day:   
11:06am 10/11/2005
mood: bored
music: Jewel-Painters
never never never
Shake a Baby
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Mais Oui!   
02:28pm 02/11/2005
mood: busy
music: Bob and the Silver Bullets - Turn the Page
Everything is always okay in the end.

If it's not, then it's not the end.
03:45pm 21/10/2005
mood: calm
music: Styx-Come Sail Away
moose got his ball cut off today.

Yes he only has one.

I like the rain.

It's very cleansing.

I wish it would rain again
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02:54pm 29/09/2005
mood: giddy
Little ghost, little ghost
One I'm scared of the most
Can you scare me up a little bit of love?
I'm the only one that sees you,
And I can't do much to please you
And it's not yet time to meet the lord above

The first moment that I met her
I did not expect a specter
When I shook her hand I really shook a glove
She looked into me so sweetly
And we left the room discreetly
No one else could know the secret of our love

Every morning I awoke
And I see my little ghost
Wond'rin' if it's really her that's lying there
I lean to touch her and I whisper
But not brave enough to kiss her
When I held her I was really holding air

Though I try my best to keep it
There really was no secret
Must have looked like I was dancing with the wall
No one else could see this apparition
But because of my condition
I fell in love with a little ghost and that was all

Little ghost, little ghost
One I'm scared of the most
Can you scare me up a little bit of love?
I'm the only one that sees you,
And I can't do much to please you
And it's not yet time to meet the lord above
No, it's not yet time to meet the lord above
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....and then the tables turned.   
09:35am 23/09/2005
mood: surprised
music: the killers-Mr Brightside
Once again I have to learn to expect the unexpected. Things are definitely looking up. I have a new decent full time job, that whole monday through friday 9-5 adult life kind of thing. And it pays decently so as soon as I pay my mother back and pay my parking tickets, I'll actually have a little spending cash....well maybe as long as I don't have to keep supporting two of us. Anyway, I also went to javas with an unexpected person a couple days ago and it was like we never stopped talking.

oh yeah, and Moose is HUGE! now.
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04:02pm 12/09/2005
mood: crappy
music: garbage-Why do you love me
I had way too much fun and then grew up way to fast for my own good. I truly am at the brink of insanity right now.

What I really need is a drink.....make that about six.
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11:34am 01/09/2005
mood: groggy
music: walk like an egyptian-bangles
I HATE schedules.

We came up with this awesome idea and i actually hope we can pull it off. A bunch of us are going to start a sort of cover band where we cover all sorts of random songs from barbie girl to walk like an egyptian and turn them into alternative songs that actually sound good. Of course we'd also cover already good songs like my personal favorite, jimi hendrix, foxy lady. I'm going to be the front person and also the only girl in the band, which just sounds like a lot of other bands out there but here's the catch. All the boys in the band are going to be crossdressers! We're all gonna dress up together in hot garters and mini skirts and fishnets and rock out. It would be hilarious if we actually pulled it off. I think we wanna call the band something like Erin's Transies or something like that. If anyone has any awesome ideas let me know!!!!

Oh yes, i lost every single CD I have ever owned.
Life sucks sometimes.
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09:43am 15/07/2005
mood: moody
music: tripping billies-Dave Matthews
~As we sat there just staring back at the cold faced Pope which was stationed at the center of the revolving table, we turned to eachother and said aloud (in accent) "What the fuck are we doin in the Pope room? We're Irish for Christ's sake."

That was just yet another oh so wonderful night with the Cerrone family. Bleh.

I found an apartment in Albany. I don't know how i really feel about living by myself yet, but I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

Oh yes, and I'm banned from the wonderful world of cross gates for a whole year. Lucky me. (Don't even ask why)

Dave Matthew's Concert was awesome. Though it took a little bit too much effort to sneak that uhhh water bottle in. No more sifting through the trash! And maybe it was just me, but I was completely mesmerized by the violinist. A small factor in that might have been the special cigarettes we smoked, but either way I was in awe.
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12:04am 09/06/2005
mood: sore
music: little ghost-white stripes
the perfect way to make a girl feel even more unattractive:

a lobster sun burn
a huge bite swelling her eye
heat rash on your chest

i know sexy right?
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savouring the last puff   
11:11pm 24/05/2005
mood: bitchy
music: jimmy hughes-the things i think about at work
mmmm....not such a good couple of days recently.

met a terrible witch at work, got drunk and had my wallet stolen, woke up with a mysterious bruise on my neck, ended up having to work on my day off, missed mini golf, missed my violin lesson and, well lets just say it all went down hill from there.

but life goes on.
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let the phone ring   
10:52pm 12/05/2005
mood: mellow
music: white stripes-blute orchid
what's having fun?

fun is wheelchairing in the hospital parking lot

random conversations with the horny homless ladies at a pizza joint

riding on the hood of a jeep going 55 miles per hour

going to cheesy carnivals with specialty cloves

having an officer check us for "green tongues"

playing in the fountain with your new best friend

that about brings things up to date....

oh yes, and i got an awesome little comment card from a young customer at Dakota's and even though its not really saying much it went something like this:

"hostess was the prettiest one in the place, the one with the ripped stocking"

its nice to get a little ego boost every once in a while from a perfect stranger.
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please be careful with me.....   
12:37am 03/05/2005
mood: devious
music: i'm sensitive-jewel
i have decided to take 2 giant steps back from where i was about a week or two ago and kneel down to society (at least temporarily.) i got my cushy little job at Dakota's Steak House and i got a cute little hyundai elantra cuz gas is soooo friggen high here! and i'm starting to work on the apartment again. things seem.....back to normal? ok not really but what are ya gonna do?

to the person who finally decided to speak: i waited forever for that phone call or instant message or even a little email. i didn't even get a reason for the sudden wall that separated us. i felt the need to just get out of here and never come back. i completely understand that you had to leave me and i respect your decision if you think that was the best. but how can you be mad at me for leaving my old life when you did the exact same thing?

at least some people are happy i'm back. i think its those nights at washington park debating whether or not to jump in the lake at 3 in the mornin after a few hours at Ralph's and a nicely packed clove while you're being spotlighted by the fuzz. oh you know you love it ;)

yeah its good to be back.
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Erin Go Brah   
09:43pm 26/04/2005
mood: devious
music: sympathy for the devil-rolling stones
with my hands behind my back and giggling the whole way i was forced to take that ticket back to what lead me to run away in the first place.

and now i carry my four leaf clover on my shoulder cuz i am a damn lucky irish
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11:56am 14/04/2005
mood: invisible
music: silence
yes, thats right.....

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