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Monday, October 13th, 2003
7:59 pm
Red Sox Tonight.

weird weekend..
hung out with the guys all saturday, and then added shell at night. i felt i got really close to them..and it was fun. they werent..assholes..

sunday, maggie calls me and wants me to go visit her in we go clubbing
WHICH was awful..
i mean i love to dance, but i think i was groped by maybe 5 guys...all like 20..eew. and boners and dancing don't mix!! aaaah

then today, i was such a fatty and ate so much ..even though i ran i still must have added like 5 pounds today.
then got bitched out by someone..for something out of my control, and though i shouldnt have let it bother really really did. because i was really starting to like that person.. i dunno, i have always thought that they were a jerk and then i decided..hey, maybe they are cool.
but of course.
seekonk :) :)


I want to see the ataris and vendetta red this week but it is on a weeknight..ggr..i really need some GOOD music and need to see a GOOD show. <<33

New Plan: Lose 7 Pounds.
That is my it or Not.

Wow this is a boring entry..lets sucks...guys dont like me...girls back stab...whats new

at least field hockey made states

current music: River City Rebels - Army Boy

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Sunday, October 5th, 2003
12:25 pm

trying to have a positive outlook on life :)
it might be hard.but i gotta get happy. haha. that was gay..but oh well

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Sunday, September 21st, 2003
7:17 pm
You are depressed :(
Remember, God made us brothers, but Prozac made us
friends! Every cloud has a silver
lining...carpe diem! Cheer up, my woeful little

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wow...that makes me feel all fuzzy inside.

later...gonna eat some pie baby
probably shouldn't.
but fuck ThaT

current mood: blank

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Tuesday, September 2nd, 2003
9:01 am
I can't get out of this cage.. its just black everywhere.. there's no one anymore....

grounded for a month. at least i wont have to see anyone. bye people.

Kill me. Please..........

im waiting for you to pull the trigger.........

current mood: cold

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Monday, September 1st, 2003
9:40 am
It is the first day of September
School is on the THIRD


kill me now................

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Thursday, August 21st, 2003
10:35 am
i'm so sick of this..every guy that i go for is psycho and i can't even chance getting close.. or they are too shy and let me get away..

i really like you. but you dont know... gah =\

school is in 13 days. i hate that
im getting ill.

current mood: crappy
current music: river city rebels

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Sunday, August 17th, 2003
1:50 pm
its always the ones that are taken

current mood: lonely
current music: sister surround

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Wednesday, August 13th, 2003
9:51 am
road lesson today with big courtney d.
i woke up wicked early today.. and even went running..its not even 10 am yet..what am i doooing....

tenacious d rocks

current mood: thirsty
current music: fuck her gently

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Sunday, August 10th, 2003
3:47 pm - field hockey camp
just got back from FH camp an hour ago. fuckin brutal...tight ass muscles and hot english guys..haha.
our team was called the flamingos, we got 3rd in the camp tournament so thats pretty good. i got an all star award! wee... i totally wasn't expecting it, but i was working my ass off the whole time. i was learning a lot of stuff too.

had some wicked funny times too.. the seagull... michelle and pam telling their story... making our skit... the fucking orange creature... haha it was great, too bad it was only 4 days. not a lot of th team went but we played well together....although some of the girls are complete coughBITCHEScough.

my life sucks

killll me,

current mood: crappy

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Saturday, August 2nd, 2003
3:56 pm
im not addicted to drama because i dont cause it :)

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Thursday, July 31st, 2003
10:40 pm - sweet shit
holy holy god
warped tour was awesome
but there were some downsides too


the suicide machines..they were really good, i was impressed, i havent really listened to them... then mest... they wereawesome (aaah tonys thong. lmao.)i saw a lil of count the stars..yeah. 2 ft away baby haha. they were pretty good. i saw some of thrice too, tons of bodily damage over there..i cant really remember who else i saw.. oh yea AWK was so crazy and so was MF&tGG..

won a shirt at the subway thing, and i got a hat and shirt for 5 bucks each..not bad.
met up with greg hetu and dave, but not for long enough

~negatives. :\
lost fuckin kassi for an hour. that queer ass walked off. hah jk kassi. uh.. left too early. then had some shadiness go on later in the evening, but im not gonna get into that bc frankly, im over it and dont care. didnt see cate or katie, i saw katie for like 2 sec but not a kassi didnt have their cell#s. o well. didnt get to see the used, the ataris, or simple plan. or get any autographs. but i saw tonys ass soooo its all good.

now im full cuz i went to friendlys with kate. we were walking home bc we have no friends to bring us home, but randy drove by and got us. that was nice of him. im a bitch sometimes tom him and he doesnt deserve it

i dont know anyone...still in search of new friends.

current mood: aggravated
current music: silence

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Wednesday, July 30th, 2003
6:33 pm - warped tour tomorroww.....
Did I miss your call again
No, you never called
It was a thought inside my head
Did I take the fall again
I should have paid attention
To al lthe words you said

Cause I lost today
I'm not okay
fake smile
and 2000 miles

I checked my caller ID
There was ever number
But the one I wanna see
I've been falling apart
Since you've gone
I don't know where I need to start

Cause I lost today
I'm not ok
fake smile
and 2000 miles

if i told you that i love you
would it matter at all
if i told you that i need you
would you catch me if i fall....

current mood: cranky
current music: Mest - Shell of Myself

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Sunday, July 27th, 2003
9:17 am
had a long talk with kate,
it was good.

i realized stuff.. most of my friends suck. i mean i figured this out
days ago. they dont care about -me-, but maybe about having
fun with me. it was depressing. it still is, knowing i have to put out
so much more effort to try and find new friends. i need some people
that care though. i can't just deal with the same blank minds. yeah,
i def have some good friends. but there are those that you always
thought would be there... but they do stupid shit. again. and again. and

i feel accomplished.
and alone....

but i have a couple people i know will care..
and i'll always be there for them
<3 you guys.

besides that shitty stuff.... warped tour is in an astonishing FOUR days. count em baby!!
this is going to be awesome. xcept...gah. i got the new thrice cd and it rocks. i <3 it.

i hate nose pimples


current mood: blank
current music: nothing

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Thursday, July 24th, 2003
12:03 pm
went to that summer track meet last night. ran the hurdles.. heh.. and the 2 mile and 200. eh not bad at least i got a work out. saw kling too..:D hah jk

note to self..verdana

woke up at 530 this morning to go to the y with my mom. to work out at crazy aerobics. hah..then i slept from 9-11 but now im awake. im trying to start working out a lot. gotta get in shape again. i began a blob....ew.
ok enough with that gross stuff

warped is in 6 days
i am souped
but my mest cd is scratched ! >:[

i want to buy some posters
ok im rambling and i have to do homework. yes homework.

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Tuesday, July 22nd, 2003
4:55 pm - gah
supposedly i can't comment on other peoples journals because i didnt confirm some shit
but i dont know how
gahh fuck it

so sorry if i dont comment...but u can comment mine! woo.

i think its like 9 days until warped

and i hate being fat

current mood: gloomy

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8:36 am
hmm lets see what i did this weekend.

hahaha went to the 175 movies with kassi cate and katie.. hah always a good time.
i fell out of a shopping cart.. i think my ass was broken.
we almost bowled with a stalker, dude it was a funny night


i just took my dog for a walk at 8 in the morning...whoa that was weird.
work today again. and tomorrow. and friday. gaah! i hate this shit.. at least i get money. i guess.
well i have work in an hour. gotta get ready.

my schedule's in my mryfairy03 profile

current mood: rushed
current music: dog panting

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Sunday, July 20th, 2003
10:38 am - beach
going to the beach with mom and im cool.
wonder how this will turn out.

he told me i had beautiful hair.. :)

i hate myself
kill me? :-P

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Wednesday, July 16th, 2003
8:21 pm
cut up some shirts. wooo made some hott clothing
cause i'm always bored now...
damn im really getting fat. hah. i need to start working out again.
here we go.. this is gonna suck.
warped tours soon..can't wait.. i deserve to have fun. cause this summer sucks so far... yea it does ADMIT
Well this is a reallllly exciting journal..but hey im stuck home again whaddya expect?

current mood: creative
current music: old school blink

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4:47 pm
Okay, it's my first journal, because I've been really bored lately...and need to vent stuff somewhere. So add me if you want... I need friends.. :-P

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