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Date:2005-12-22 19:51
Subject:Dropint the new old schoool
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Dem colorado boys is sic
OOOh do it hte way IO do dropping the new old school - bobby valintino ft fabulous.
oooh saying the doug E's cool, bringing back how we rule droppiing the new old school

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Date:2005-09-16 09:49
Subject:Start of a New Begining...
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So life is going good. I am crazy busy. I desperately need a massage to the relaxing sounds of Reiki.

We stayed at the house. I need to get credit counseling. Money is Abundant. I am beat. The bathroom is so Hot - its all wood and white. Very nice!

I want to write my own romance/sex editorial, causing myself to more deeply comtemplate relationships as a whole. So how's your sex life?

In addition to that, I've been creating a personalized organizer for myself. It is mighty intense, & may make me a fortune in the future!

Well thats all for now, See you next friday with a shocking and humorus 1st Romance/Sex column.

~Star.

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Date:2005-09-16 09:49
Subject:Start of a New Begining...
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So life is going good. I am crazy busy. I desperately need a massage to the relaxing sounds of Reiki.

We stayed at the house. I need to get credit counseling. Money is Abundant. I am beat. The bathroom is so Hot - its all wood and white. Very nice!

I want to write my own romance/sex editorial, causing myself to more deeply comtemplate relationships as a whole. So how's your sex life?

In addition to that, I've been creating a personalized organizer for myself. It is mighty intense, & may make me a fortune in the future!

Well thats all for now, See you next friday with a shocking and humorus 1st Romance/Sex column.

~Star.

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Date:2005-05-23 13:08
Subject:I'm SO like YEAH!
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Mood: bouncy

So, not too many updates. I'm at work I moved in with Darrell, again. We're working things out. Friday I have my "appointment" which is good, I really want to get all these emotions out of the way of the rest of my life.
last night was wierd. It was a little uncomfortable while were were having sex. And Darrell wanted to get rough. My body just wasn't cooperating. I kept feeling it move. He kept moving it around and it balled up into a little knot. (Well duh its already a little knot its not like I'm even that far along.) So I made him stop. So we layed there holding each other really tight. And I kept thinking, "Our baby wants to be born." And I just couldnt get that out of my head. So I layed in his arms and did my best to block it out.

I got "The Call" from UofM today. Only the screening and not the full interview, which will be done in June. Training starts in July, the week of the 10th. I got super excited when I went to UofM's project page and saw howmany projects were going on. This will bring consistant work. And I'd love to do two interviews at a time. This just sounds good. I get my own Laptop I'm going to get Vonage and cut the celly back on. I mean this is really good!

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Date:2005-04-19 09:05
Subject:Nfluenza
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Mood: sick
Music:Song from the Nutcracker?

I figured I'd log this one since I dont get "really" sick often. I'VE GOT THE FLU! Nasty, huh? Eeeeewwww!
So the flu works like this:

Symptoms (mine):


Headaches -
fairly constant with sharp intervals of excrucitating pain; Sore throat - it cometh and it goeth;

Cough -
which pulls up crap out of your lungs, very painful, leads you to deflecting coughs into some new weird sound;

Fatigue -
like total sleep all the time, and when you're not sleep you're laying down;

Achey Achey Ache Ache -
Obxiously aches and pains galore, lets start from the top:
head (already mentioned that,)
ears,
neck,
throat (again,)
shoulders,
upper arms,
back,
chest,
heart,
didies,
lungs,
kidneys,
intestines,
gut,
rear,
humm,
& thighs!

Organ and other vital parts threat of failure -
So since I've been sick I've felt like maybe i'm going to get a bladder infection, or maybe I'll get and ear infection, or maybe I'll cough up a lung, or maybe I'll shit out my intestines, maybe my heart will give out, or maybe I'll just croke...

So for all you out there who dont know what the flu is:

BE GLAD!!!

Because its HELL internaly!

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Date:2005-04-08 12:39
Subject:Sleepy, sleepy, hungry, sleepy...
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So I feel like crap. all achey and drained & HUNGRY. How hungry you might ask? Think Cookie Monster hungry... if Cookie Monster was 100ft tall!

My water pump has been fixed, yay! No more drip of my antifreeze. Car's running fine... a few kiks but we'll work those out.

On the apartment search, Lots of prospects! Grahaven Marina Village seems like heaven, but there are much less expensive alternatives the further away from the city you go. I've got 11 poaaibles with heat included. Talk about convenient.

Back to my nap. Em took the early lunch so she's bringing me back some soup and sandwich, after the eating maybe a quick nap, 15 min makes a world of difference.

I ordered my business cards. Should be here in two weeks! horray but until then I need some. I'll have my bae print me out a few.Gotta make flyers to put up at the high schools in the area. I've got amazing prices for student's weaves.

Bottomline: I'm hungry, life's good, I need a nap, 10min till food & I'll be OK!

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Date:2005-04-05 10:37
Subject:Smiminim, D'man, yep n'us
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Mood:& giddy
Music:None today!

Well this is my entry to Blurty! Yay me! Nothing too big going on here, unless your willing to read on...

I'm sick, queasy, with headaches and the occasional vomiting (Yes. I am, if your wondering.) I talked with Darrell this morning, Ive been insinuating and he knows now. Whew! I'd wanted to tell him over dinner but he's been WORKING, again! Until I came up to the studio no one believed he had a girlfriend. Then of course I never call him either :) So we've got the weirdest thing going on. I hate him and he hates me but we've been together so long that we sleep together, infrequently just as infrequently as we always did, and Its exclusive at least on my part. I've had my suspicisions but I dont let it get in the way because I'd worry myself to death. HE continuously accuses me of dating and sleeping with my daughter's dad. Which I am not (no, like I could if I wanted to.) But I'd rather not.

He's like one of those toys you pull the string on and a selected number of responses could come out, "Why wont you forgive me?" "How's things going with you and your man?" Why cant we get back together?" "Everything I say after this is a humongus big fat lie." "I'm not trying to get with you" "I just wanna be friends, I mean we've got a kid" "Wanna go out?" "How is my daughter?" "What did I do that was so Bad?" "You know I love all of you" <> "Why wont you forgive me?" "How's things going with you and your man?" Why cant we get back together?" "Everything I say after this is a humongus big fat lie." "I'm not trying to get with you" "I just wanna be friends, I mean we've got a kid" "Wanna go out?" "How is my daughter?" "What did I do that was so Bad?" "You know I love all of you" "I dont just want you for sex!?!"

I mean leave me the fuck alone and pay your fucking child support REGULARLY and stop taking "medical leaves" before you get fucking fired and then I really wont talk to your ass!!
BY THE WAY WHERE IN THE HELL IS MY CHILD SUPPORT CHECK!!! YOU FUCKING ASS!!! DONT YOU THINK SH'WE NEED THAT MONEY?!? IF YOUR NOT GOING TO WORK, BE THERE WHEN THEY DONT SEND THE MONEY BUT THEY "TOOK IT OUT OF ... CHECK" DONT EVEN THINK FOR A MINUTE THAT WHEN YOU START PAYING AGAIN THAT YOU CAN SPEAK TO ME, LET ALONE SEE YOUR DAUGHTER BECAUSE IT AINT GONNA HAPPEN. YOU FUCK!

Now Back to my Baby Daddy (the second and third one,) He is sooo uptight! And High-strung! He is a beautiful man in concept. A very hard worker, excellent in fact, not to mention that he is PACKING (why he thinks I'm cheating is beyond me, & probably a later entry.) He is striving very hard to be a business man, and someday he will succeed. Alas, it leaves me on the bench and under criticism that I haven't yet decided NOT to work for the MAN! As I feel like a loser because I dont get enough attention and yes do occassionaly wish someone would come and hug and kiss me and make me feel like a lady. As I bitch and complain that we dont have enough money and we'd have more if he'd get another job.

Ok now that I've written it out I'm convinced that I am a horrible girlfriend! I must be driving him insane. I should be by his side supporting him, BUT I have to support two babies and on the verge of a THIRD if he doesn't get his crap together and pay for the procedure. Hell I dont have any extra cash to pull from the bills that I pay to put on IT myself. And unfortunately for him he's a parent too and if I have to ravage all possibility of living my dream why should I be the only one behaving responsibly?

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My hon just asked me If I wanted to get an Apartment? He's going to rent out his house so we can downsize/meld in together. (In case your wondering his house is huge and he can get quite a bit per month for it.) Voila! More money! Things are looking up!


Check Me Later!

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