chillout session   
12:51pm 14/09/2004
  Ok, my morning cigarette turned into about five morning cigarettes so far. The past two days have been semi-interesting/eventful, yet not. I now have two cats, Marmyte and Marly, who seem to be a bit at odds right now, which is understandable since Marmyte's been here for almost a year now and another cat is brought in... and she's use to another house and other cats and people. If things don't calm down between them I'm going to have to find a new home for Marly, because of course, Marmyte is my baby and ain't going anywhere. He's trying to be sociable to her since she is a new face in his house, but she's being a total bitch to him so far.

Enough about the cats, I'm going
special wash and dry only   
11:11am 10/09/2004
mood: bored
music: Sum 41 - Never Wake Up
Right now, I have a headache due to having to wash my bondage pants and all of the metal on them! I took two tylenol but it's still going, then again, my pants and straight-jacket are still drying. I should be letting them air dry per the instructions but I don't wanna wait for two days! I am going to see the Cruxshadows tonight even though I'm not a big fan of them and sorta want to wear the pants, I've been putting off washing them for months now but I can't cause of having something I wanna wear them to. Been doing lots of thinking on life as usual and realize I'm actually not at that bad of a point concidering my past and all, from living out of my car when I had one, to having a job that pays more than minimum wage. Also, today marks 6 days not taking any stackers or such, I feel good about that cause I had become pretty use to them and they weren't taking that much of an affect anymore.

Off to check laundry
life... or something like it   
02:12am 07/09/2004
mood: busy
I'm sitting here after a weekend of friends hanging out and such. Two of them are moving in three apartments down from me so that should prove to be interestingly fun. I got to see a glimpse of my old self in one of my friends last night when he was fall out drunk, he was wanting to kill himself. After I used my twisted psychology on him , and the friend he just got finished having sex with in MY bed had a talk with him, he got out of the mood to do that. I never really realized how bad I was until last night. I actually apologized to my roommate for putting him through all of the things I said and did during that time because I realized how fucked in the head I truly was since I was worse than my friend last night was acting. I'm now trying to get the place cleaned up more since it got sorta outta control over the weekend and all. With this I go back to cleaning.

much ado about nothing...   
02:23am 03/09/2004
mood: bored
music: Crystal Method - She's My Pusher
I'm sitting here tonight just thinking about everything and nothing, which seems to be more and more the usual for me on some things. I just got bored enough to make a vanity community on LiveJournal called vanity_hearts... who knows how that one will go.

On other notes, I saw someone who I feel very strongly for but I know that I can't be with earlier today. He came over to hang out, as he does on occasion, and the usual of being curled into each others' arms happened along with other things. Maybe it's the fact that he doesn't want a relationship that draws me more to him, maybe due to me being the same way? I mean, I want a relationship, but at the same time I don't due to all that comes with it, meaning the drama that tends to happen when I date someone. For now, I leave it as we are friends who fuck... who knows where that will go
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something about nothing and everything in between   
05:29am 31/08/2004
mood: blank
I'm sitting here smoking a joint and thinking about how things are. I don't even know why I created a journal here... no wait... I did it to hide from the creature I created called a LiveJournal which fills with useless shit anymore. I need to let loose and let my mind flow onto the keyboard in order to release fully. I did realize that I smoke way the fuck too many cigs... then again, I've realized that long before this moment, and such.

I went to my parents' for the weekend, go figure, another tropical storm came through the area. Things are so up and down with them lately, one visit or call, things are going fine... the next one, they want to start in on me... then again... they've done that way for years with me. I know that they care... but there is such a thing as caring too much, or in the wrong way.

I grow bored with the computer... yes, I do that sometimes and wander away...

02:24pm 25/08/2004
mood: curious
music: Nine Inch Nails - Closer (Further Away)
Mysteries of intrigue and darkness are the things that make us wonder where we are in this life. Why can't we just go on into a new time of hope and lack of misery? I know that this world is coming to a new day, are we ready for it?
curiosity killed the cat...   
04:02am 22/08/2004
mood: bored
music: David Bowie - Kingdome Comes
Well, I got bored tonight and decided to get a blurty journal tonight... I am on livejournal at broken_prince if you wish to find about me and are on there also... This journal may be a diversion from livejournal on occasion... who knows. This journal may or may not be friends only... I haven't decided as of yet.