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o_O; [18 May 2003|07:28pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

Hey, I'm back!

How many of you will notice? o_O;

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[06 Mar 2003|02:51pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | at home, I listen to Audioslave - The last remaining light ]

Hey guys! Sorry I haven't updated or checked my email. ^^;;

I -do- have a job. I work on the grill. ^^; Yay for me! :D

I get paid friday after next week's friday. Which means I'll be online a day or two afterwards. :)!!

Take care. ^^

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[23 Feb 2003|07:00pm]
[ mood | grateful ]
[ music | Garbage - androgyny ]

Okay, quick update. I'll be back online sometime before the end of March. No idea when, exactly. Whenever I get the money. :)

It's always hard when your delusions are swept away. One or two of mine were undone earlier this week. It's a good thing, too. I couldn't keep going on believing in that. Or that the person was perfect..

But yeah. Try not to die without me. -smiles-

You don't seem to understand..

[20 Feb 2003|06:20pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]
[ music | System of a down - chop suey ]

I've only got two days left on my NWinfonet account. So I'll be offline (yet again) for a week or two after Saturday.

You don't seem to understand..

[20 Feb 2003|02:55am]
[ mood | curious ]
[ music | BoA - Amazing Kiss ]

Yeah, I was a real ass to everyone. you don't want anything to do with me, that's ok.

My new AIM SN is zXrisingstarXz.

The only thing I want to address in this is the music thing. Wth said I didn't like music in other languages? I said I didn't like jrock. I've listened to Jpop for awhile. Gumi, Ayumi, Chaka, Kojimo Megumi, and Megumi Hayashibara are a few of the ones on my "jpop" playlist. But yeah.

All the rest..whatever. Don't want anything to do with me? Disassociate yourself then, don't IM me. and if you dislike me so much, wth did you post such a huge retort? Why bother, at all? Whatever.

The only reason I read that was to see what you had to say, if it was all the same as it was the last time you h8ed @ me. I'm pretty sure some of those points are valid. Some, not all. whatever. :)

You don't seem to understand..

fuck [19 Feb 2003|11:28pm]
[ mood | fuck you ]
[ music | CKY - Chinese Freestyle Rap ]

Stfu, gtfo and gtfh. all of you.

blah blah blah yak yak yak moan and complain life sucks I can't trust anyone I hate you I hate her/him/it ur runing my relationship I'm in a relationship irl but I am in netlove with this guy online omg we are over then back together I like u but were just friends are you ok well thats good even if you arent i just want to tell you my problems and have you listen and do the sympathy pity thing thanks a lot now lets fuk pls oh now you suddenly have anger and bad feelings well thats too bad because now its too late i hate you because youre complaining a little bit you cant do that even though i do it all of the time omg u lookt @ other girl once and thought she was pretty we r over pls leaf me alone omg i lie to you all the time but u still cant say n e thing about it bcuz if u do ill go off kungfu style gth now i think i will toy with u oh wut u thought i was srs sorry but i wasnt but i do like you a lot but not in that way but i do wtf lets be friends still wut u dont care ok wutever now i undrstnd wut ami was talking about i am sorry pls lets be friends ok i am sad and depresst bcuz i cant get friends irl wtf bran cant handle a little hyperness ahaha ur my son but i hate you/love u i sit on my ass and want u 2 pity me-

Okay. Enough of that. That's a bunch of lines I've been fed from random assorted people. If you see a line from you in there, be happy. I consider you someone who has pissed me off, or added to my pissed off state. :)

Thx everyone, for showing me the net really has no feelings. :D

You don't seem to understand..

[19 Feb 2003|03:37am]
[ mood | wounded ]
[ music | BoA - Love Hurts ]

Like I've always said, emotions suck. Every time I turn around, I'm being toyed with, manipulated, or burned.

Becca toys with me. Ami lashes me. Wtfever.

So suddenly I'm not your type? What, I was five months ago? I just morphed into someone else, I guess. I knew you were lying about finding me attractive. =/

Well, this is only the internet. You're just text, after all, right?

It just goes to show that you can't trust people, and that "love" in most people's eyes is superficial and shallow. I wonder, how deep did yours go.

You don't seem to understand..

The last two days [18 Feb 2003|03:21am]
[ mood | zero ]
[ music | BoA - Every Heart (English) ]

Yesterday all I did was hang around here with Tom.

Today, we played UT until Hoser came and got us. We went to the mall..and did nothing. We didn't talk to anyone. I saw the sign-girl, though. I should have talked to her..We're going to the mall this weekend though. I'm -determined- to at least speak to a girl. Am I the only one who is clueless about this whole dating thing? Well, no, Tom and Hoser are too. I have no clue..

I made a new theme and icon! ^^! BoA!

Tell me babe, how many do I shed my tears?
Every Heart Every Heart is not a gentle yet

Shall I do?I can never say my loneliness
Every Heart doesn't know so what to say oh what to do

I was afraid of darkness cause I felt that I was left alone
So I prayed for help to the distant million stars

Round & round the planets revolve around the sun
And we always seek after love and peace forever more
Growing growing whoa baby we can work it out
Look up at the sky every heart is shining all today

Show me now, What kind of smile do I come across
Every heart every heart can take a step towards the dreams

All of us what to take a lasting happiness
Whenever you feel sad, I wanna hold you
& give you sound sleep

Someday every hearts gonna free and easy
We have peace of mind
Someday all the people find the way to love

Goes & goes the time goes on we are not alone
We live on together and we will find some precious things
Sometime we will smile sometime we will cry somehow
Don't forget believing yourself - Tomorrow's never die

There is the warm heart places on my mind
In my earlist day's there and it's so sweet
There are many stars they have talk with me so kind
They say yes always time's friend of mine so shine

I might be offline, for a week or so, sometime later this week. I'm moving in with my parents, in their new house. My room has it's own bathroom and a door leading out. o.o! So I can come and go at whatever time. ^^ It'll be soo great to have my own room again.

After I get my first check, I'll be getting cable hooked up to this piece of junk. Then I'll -be back- for real.

Download "Every Heart". It's a good song.

You don't seem to understand..

Valentine's Day [15 Feb 2003|08:46am]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | The Offspring - Have you ever ]

Yeah, I didn't have a date..Well, not a serious one. If you consider Tom, Jason, and Hoser (Jose) my date, then -_-;;..

Tom and Jason and I went and got Tom's check and cashed it, and then walked down to the mall. Three blocks away from it, Hoser honks and gives us a ride to the mall. o_o; We go to Sam Goody's and each get a shirt. Tom got a Slipknot one, Jas got a Disturbed one, and I got SoaD (System of a Down). Jose got KoRn and Eminem. All the KoRn shirts -sucked-. Not one had good coloring. so I got SoaD instead.

After that, we went to DQ. (For those of you who don't know -coughstupiddumbasscough- DQ is Dairy Queen)
We all got ice cream. (Duh) Tom also got some meal thing. We were there for like close to two hours. o.o

Then we went to the Valley Mall. (The mall in Union gap, which is just another part of Yakima.)
I told all of them about my determination to talk to a girl before the day was over. Meaning a girl I didn't know. We took it upon ourselves to all do that as many times as we could. Jason and Hoser did it the most. o.o Tom didn't do it at all. First girl we talked to was Amber, and she worked in Sears. She was really cute and pretty. Long brown hair and nice eyes. *-*;

Hoser talked to another girl, a blonde one. He and Jas got completely blown off by her. XD She wasn't that hot anyway.

Then we talked to Claudia, a friend of Hoser's. I liked her a lot. >_>

Then just a few random girls. Hoser helped this one girl carry a box to her car AND DIDNT EVEN TRY TO GET HER NUMBER. I was going to ask her if she needed help, but she was on the other side of the cellular phone thing AND HE GOT TO HER FIRST SDJASJDDASJFAJFLJ MFER. But still, wut a dumbass. XD

We played on the escalator for awhile. Like 505969695 times. ^-^;

Last night, when I got home, I had the biggest headache. I tried to get online, but I hurt so bad that I couldn't. I laid down and woke up 5 or 6 times during the night. It didn't go away until around 6am. -_-

Well, we're all going to the mall again today. This time I -will- get a girl's phone number. I WILL!

See ya, guys. -smile smile-

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Perfection [13 Feb 2003|09:54pm]
[ mood | cynical ]
[ music | Drowning Pool - Sermon ]

Tonight, I witnessed the world's highest degree of shallowness, the most blatant insult to most of us, a judging based upon physical appearence.
It's called "Are you Hot". I watched it. I was disgusted. Yes, I know all of us are shallow. All of us are attracted to certain types, certain looks. We all judge others appearences. But this..this took thousands of people, turned away all but a handful. Because they weren't "hot". Who does this judging? Three "professionals". These three professionals were the ones selected to judge all these people, to hold their "dream" of being the "hottest" in their hands, to embronze it, or to crumple it and toss it away. The world is a fucked up place when people get their kicks by watching people get told they aren't 'perfect'. Who are any of us to judge another's appearence? To laugh and make callous remarks, when we ourselves are physically unattractive? Oh, the three judges were all famous. A fashion designer, a swimsuit model, and an actor. Heh. People are stupid. Their ideals of beauty and perfection are the mass ideas, sustained by all the ideals and images portrayed on TV. They eat it up, too. Mankind is enlightened; It's barbaric and primitive. Greed and lust are what drive people. Joy? The public's idea of joy is a large amount of money, a large house, and never having to do any work to keep it. Luxury is happiness to most. We all want to possess things. Possession is the obsession of Humanity. We -all- feel it. "I want it I need it I have to own that, to make it mine, I I I I I, mine mine mine mine MINE."

To be perfect is to be better than anyone else. Thus, all strive to have a better house, a better income, a better life. Most people will say they do what they do to be better. Better than what, is the question I ask. The answer is "Everything else".

I don't exclude myself from any of this.

I find it sad.

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